Deepening Trust Amidst COVID-19

This Deepening Trust Meditation is part of the Conscious C.O.V.I.D. Meditation Series. The D of C.O.V.I.D. stands for Deep Trust. It is time to deepen trust in the unknown of these uncertain times. Surrender control, realize we’re not in charge, admit that we never know how long we have to cherish life, and relax into trusting it all.

Transcript

Hello,

This is Jessica Chilton and now we are ready to deepen trust.

We are ready to surrender control,

To realize we're not in charge,

To admit that we never know how many days we have to live,

And to relax into trusting it all.

I am so grateful to be here with you,

Guiding you through this COVID-19 meditation where we take this opportunity to create a new association with this word and phenomenon.

We see COVID-19 as an opportunity to expand our C for compassion,

O for openness,

V for vibration,

I for inner guidance,

D for deep trust.

So let's continue with the D of COVID,

Which in this meditation stands for deep trust.

Let's begin by reminding ourselves that we don't know.

In this pandemic,

As in all of life,

Of course,

We don't know what's going to happen.

We don't know if our loved ones are going to be okay.

We don't know if we are going to get sick.

We don't know if we will be financially all right.

There is so much we don't know in this time of uncertainty.

So this is the time to deepen into trust and feel deep faith in the unknown.

Rather than being attached to knowing,

We open to trusting the discovery moment to moment.

When you are deepening into trust,

It's important to realize that you're not in charge.

Yeah,

And it's not just you.

We are not in charge.

So we can either live thinking that we're in charge and trying to control everything.

You might know this way as I do,

You know,

Making sure we do A really well and B really well so that it will equal C and C will definitely happen.

You ever do that?

We can live in a way that's like dodging bullets each day.

We can live in a way that's like trying to get it right,

Trying not to get it wrong,

Trying to do it perfectly,

Trying and trying and trying to control the outcome.

Or we can tell the truth and know that we are not in charge.

We can tell the truth and know that we can't control,

For instance,

When we or anyone else will die.

When we think we're in charge,

When we're living in that A plus B equals C paradigm,

It leads to being really controlling and fearful and rigid and perfectionistic and anxious.

We don't feel at ease.

We don't feel relaxed.

We don't feel trusting.

So when we realize that we're not in charge,

When we admit this to ourselves,

When we decide this,

It leads to surrender,

To inner peace,

To presence,

To curiosity,

To flow,

And to making the most of the moment we are in.

So to sum it up,

We can either try to uphold the false illusion that we are in charge and end up feeling really bad,

Or we can admit the truth that we are definitely not in charge and enjoy feeling good for as many moments as we are meant to live.

Which way would you like to experience life?

Our attempts to control tend to amplify when we sense a life or death situation.

So a pandemic tends to amplify our attempts to control.

Have you noticed?

In this moment,

Imagine what it would be like if you surrendered,

If you surrendered to the notion that if God wants you to move on by dying that you will and there's no dodging it.

And similarly,

If God does not want you to move on,

You won't.

There's nothing you can do to move on if it's not your time.

What would it be like if you lived that way?

What if you surrendered to God being in charge and decided instead to focus on being joyful,

Being peaceful,

Being conscious,

And listening to inner guidance and doing whatever inner guidance calls you to do along the way?

What would that be like?

And for those that the word God doesn't resonate,

Use whatever word does.

What if you surrendered to love being in charge?

What if you surrendered to the universe being in charge?

What if you surrendered to highest self being in charge?

What if you surrendered to spirit being in charge?

How would it feel to let your human self relax a little bit?

Tuning into inner guidance whenever it's ready to listen and follow the guidance it receives,

But knowing full well that the human self is not in charge.

So yes,

Deep trust involves surrendering control.

So keep imagining what could life be like if you truly surrendered your desire to control all outcomes.

You know compulsively controlling is a major obstacle to spiritual awakening.

So it's time to surrender the illusion of control.

Right now,

Especially,

There is so much we don't have control over.

Let this pandemic be a daily practice of surrendering control.

Let your human self surrender to the higher power that flows through you and everything.

When you want to deepen trust,

It's time to trust it all,

Not just trust some things.

So in this moment,

Experiment with the decision to trust it all.

Decide that you want to trust it all.

You want to see how good it feels to trust it all.

No matter what happens,

No matter the situation,

Decide right now that you will trust it all.

Throughout the day today,

Notice any moments of discomfort,

Any moments of pain,

Any moments of suffering and controlling and rigidity or fear.

Take a breath in those moments and say,

I trust it all and let go.

Let go.

Let's try it out right now.

Notice in this moment,

Where is the discomfort,

The pain,

The suffering?

Where are you trying to control?

Where are you feeling rigid?

Where are you experiencing fear?

Take a breath and say,

I trust it all.

Along with this practice,

In any moments where there is discomfort and pain and suffering or you're trying to control,

You're feeling rigid,

You feel fear.

Let that be a moment to say,

Consciousness,

Love,

Light,

Peace,

Take up more space.

Fill me completely.

And experience what it's like for that truest you,

That energy field,

That high vibration to take up all of you.

So let's try that now.

Consciousness where there is perhaps a part of your body that's in pain right now.

Let's start with the physical.

Tune into that body part and ask consciousness,

Love,

Light,

Peace to take up all the space in that body part.

And let's go to the mind and the emotions and notice where there is fear or discomfort,

Emotional pain,

Mental suffering.

Ask consciousness,

Love,

Light,

Peace to take up all of that mental,

Emotional space right now.

You are letting divine you take up all the space within and around human you.

This deepens trust in an embodied way.

And if any of us find ourselves in the hospital with coronavirus,

What we want to be doing while lying there is letting the consciousness,

Love,

Light,

Peace,

Take up all of us and radiate within and beyond us.

No matter what's happening in the physical body,

Let that true self create an energy field all around us that comes from the inside and radiates outwardly.

Each time we do this practice,

We get to experience what it's like for the human self who can feel distressed and discouraged and depressed and fearful and suffer in pain while it attempts to control.

We can feel what it's like for that part to surrender and for that divine nature,

That true self,

That consciousness that we are to take up all the space.

The surrender of the human self allows divinity to take up all the space and that helps us to deeply be in trust,

To be in the peace of trusting all of life.

It's really time to approach each day as if to say,

I have no idea how many days I have to live,

But this moment,

This day,

I am showing up with full presence,

Peace and power.

I'm letting the light that I am,

The joy that I am,

The peace that I am fill me completely and I am experiencing the preciousness of this moment.

Deep trust can be witnessed and experienced when in nature.

We can look to nature to see and feel deep trust.

Nature has all kinds of hardships,

The predator-prey cycle of life,

Seasonal birth and death,

Natural disasters,

Floods,

Fires,

Hurricanes,

Earthquakes,

Tsunamis,

Droughts.

Nature knows how to embrace it all,

How to not resist or control,

How to be an inner peace in the midst of it all,

How to not judge it,

How to accept it.

And if you're a bird,

You continue on being a bird,

Singing your joyful bird song no matter what.

And if you're a tree,

You continue being the tree rooted there in the ground no matter what.

When we humans are being who we really are,

Embodying that inner peace,

We are in sync with nature.

We are natural.

When we're not being who we are,

We're not feeling and being our natural self.

We're out of sync with nature.

We're in disharmony or dis-ease with nature.

So it's nice to go into nature and be reminded of the inner peace that can hold it all,

That can hold death and birth,

Destruction and creation.

We can see nature rooted in peace and singing its joyful bird song no matter what.

Now when we trust it all,

We include it all.

And this can be really hard for some people,

Including myself.

This means that we trust the whole of life on Earth.

We trust the whole of humanity.

We trust it all.

So as you continue to breathe,

I invite you to imagine a circle of trust around you,

Where you trust everything inside of the circle.

And as you breathe,

The circle keeps growing to encompass more and more of life,

Until it's not leaving anything or anyone out.

Let this circle grow until it trusts all the things,

All the people,

All the beings that perhaps you haven't let yourself trust before.

Let the circle grow until it includes all the tragedies,

All the suffering,

All the despicable heart-wrenching scenes.

Let the circle grow until you trust it all.

Let the circle of trust grow until it includes trusting the prisons,

Trusting the shootings,

Trusting the rapists,

Trusting the murderers,

Trusting the fires,

Trusting the coronavirus spreading around the world.

You're trusting it all.

Let the circle of trust grow until it includes trusting death itself.

There is no more need to protect,

Defend,

Or separate from anything,

Death included,

When everything is part of what you trust.

Let the circle of trust expand until the entirety of the universe is included and beyond.

This is deep trust.

As you navigate this pandemic,

Experience what it's like to stay centered in consciousness and rooted in deep trust.

Imagine that you will no longer be rocked by chaos.

No matter what happens,

You are fundamentally centered in a depth,

The essential nature of your own consciousness and the trust of it all.

You can of course still experience human emotional ups and downs while being grounded in that space of trust that is not subject to the ups and downs,

Like a tree rooted into the deep where the roots cannot be pulled up by the storm.

As you navigate this pandemic,

Be compassionate.

Be open,

Open to higher perspectives,

Open-hearted,

Open-minded,

Open to higher power.

Radiate high vibration.

Be inner guided.

And each moment of each day,

Trust it all.