Hello,
Welcome to Not Feeling It.
This app is filled with brilliant meditations for those that are wanting some grounding
and productive introspection.
However,
As a user,
I often come to it from a place of deficit.
My name is Jess Bielman,
And I've struggled with feeling it when it comes to meditation.
Sometimes I just don't.
This meditation is for those who are not feeling in the right place for meditating,
Either
because we're distracted,
Disinterested,
Guarded,
Restless,
Tired,
Or down.
In this time,
We will not try to diagnose why,
We will not will our way into feeling
it or gut it out.
We will simply identify the present moment,
Observe,
And listen to the feeling of not
feeling it.
So to begin,
Take five big breaths.
Deep breathing is proven to slow our minds and hearts down and help us focus on meditation
or prayer.
If your mind wanders,
That's okay.
Just observe where it's going.
The wandering may tell you something.
So let's begin by taking five big breaths.
Let's start with some affirmations about the not feeling it experience.
Some of these may feel counterintuitive,
But let's try them on.
Try to suspend judgment about them,
And let's just try them out.
We will leave a pregnant pause between affirmations.
It is okay to not be feeling meditation sometimes.
Meditation is often about observing and being present to the body,
The heart,
And the mind.
Sometimes we observe that our body,
Heart,
Or mind is not in the correct place for meditation,
And that's okay.
Quiet distraction is okay.
Sometimes we just need to be mindful of the things that are distracting us,
Making us
disinterested in meditation,
Making us guarded towards diving in to the deeper places of
our heart and mind.
Sometimes we need to sit with what is causing us to be restless,
Tired,
Or down.
We probably don't need to create the feeling or desire if it's not there.
Honesty and authenticity with ourselves may dictate that we just give up for a moment
instead of trying to force it.
Meditation is less effective if it's something that we have to will and to practice.
Effort does not always yield results.
Sometimes trying is enough.
You are here.
You set aside a moment in your day.
You logged on to the app you pushed play.
That's a lot of good steps.
If the result you wanted does not happen,
That's okay.
A good practice is to release results.
Listen to this moment.
The most important thing that meditation has taught me is to be mindful of myself.
It has taught me the ability to identify when I'm anxious,
Hurried,
Agitated,
Grateful,
Restful,
And mindful.
Sometimes I'm black,
Uninspired,
And scattered.
These are all part of the holistic experience I have with myself.
I do not need to judge the ones I like or don't like.
I just am.
Be present and have faith in the process.
Being resolved to the place we are at is only step one.
Having faith that the feeling will return is step two.
Giving in to this moment is not the same as giving up entirely.
You have skills,
Convictions,
And hopes,
So the passion you have for meditation will
return.
Give it time.
Trust the process.
So now let's just come back to our breath.
Just breathe.
Feel yourself breathe.
Just see if you can be present in your body for just a few seconds.
I'll give you 20 seconds to just breathe.
Finally,
I have just three questions,
And we'll give 20 seconds of space to think on
these three questions.
If your mind wanders,
That's okay.
First question is,
What are you thankful for today?
You may not be feeling meditation,
But you may be able to feel gratitude.
What are you grateful for today?
What is one thing you want to be intentional with today?
How can you live into the best version of yourself by being intentional with one thing
today?
What value does today have?
What meaning and purpose can this day hold?
As we wrap up this not feeling it meditation,
Whether it's helped you focus or feel it or
whether you're still restless and distracted,
I hope you can walk away and feel good that
you've taken a moment for you,
You've taken a moment to try,
And you have a plan to be
the best version of yourself today.
Goodbye.
