Falling Into The Empty Depths Of Your Self

A guided journey through the layers of your present experience - your circumstances, the story about them, the physical sensations and emotions - into the depths of empty spaciousness at the core of your being.

Transcript

Just starting off by putting your attention inside the body,

And you might be lying down,

Reclined in some way,

And you can feel that sense of being held by the bed or by the chair,

And as you sense that feeling of being held,

It gives you this opportunity to feel what's going on inside your body.

And I want you to try to just let your attention go inside your body without any kind of judgment,

Without even naming it.

What's it like to feel what you're feeling without attaching any kind of name to it?

And it's possible,

And I wonder if you can discover for yourself that you can put your attention inside these feelings.

It might be tension,

It might be a wave of energy,

There might be some nervous like energy,

Electrical energy,

But without even knowing what it really is.

You can put your attention right into the middle of it,

And notice how your attention can pass right through it.

And that can be a signal that you have permission to turn away from this outside world and to turn inside,

And then to keep going inside even deeper than this first layer of sensation.

And so as your attention goes into these feelings in the body,

They can also drop down beneath them and you can find what's even deeper.

And as you drop even deeper you might find that there can be layers of just emptiness,

Layers of peace,

And then you might find a layer of some wave of energy.

Maybe it's electrical energy,

Maybe a thought even pops in,

And you can just let your attention go straight through this thought or this feeling or this wave,

And notice how the thought or the feeling or the wave is moving.

It comes in and it moves through and it goes away.

But your attention is unmoving.

Your attention is always here.

You can change where to focus your attention,

But the attention itself is always here.

So just letting your attention meet whatever it is that arises and drop even deeper.

So I wonder if you can notice that the deeper you put your attention,

The more aware you can be of more and more subtle sense of peace,

Of the absence of anything.

As your attention gets more and more focused,

Deeper inside,

Underneath the waves of energies,

You can detect that deeper than any kind of electrical energy is this field of emptiness,

A deep openness,

Space where nothing is happening.

Sometimes there can be a feeling as you notice the great depth of this subtle emptiness,

There can be a feeling,

Maybe it's some kind of fear energy,

Maybe it's excitement,

Maybe it's curiosity,

Maybe there's a tendency to turn away from it,

And all of that is okay.

All of that can come and you can start to look even deeper than those reactions and find yourself falling deeper into this empty space that is always here.

And I want you to imagine that you're falling down through the layers,

Starting at the surface as a layer of thought and story of what happened today,

What I did and what I should have done,

And just notice that surface layer of me and my life,

The stories,

The memories,

The images,

Maybe there's a voice,

And that's the first layer of experience.

What was my day like today?

In there is a reference point of how to feel.

If it was a good day,

I could feel good.

If it was a bad day,

I should feel bad.

And just notice this surface layer of what I did today,

And what I should have done,

What I didn't do,

What they did,

And what it means that I have to do tomorrow,

And what I should do,

And what I shouldn't do,

And what they might do.

That's all on the surface.

And as you drop down below that layer,

You might come to a layer of emotions,

Sensations in the body.

Maybe there's some electricity,

Maybe there's some anxiety,

Maybe there's some resistance,

Some kind of holding on about what's fair and what's not fair.

Maybe there's some anger,

Some judgment.

Maybe there's fear or a sense of not being good enough,

A sense of heaviness of the pressures of all of the pressures of the day,

Of the life,

Of surviving.

And you can fall into that layer,

And fall underneath that,

Fall through it.

And maybe even deeper than that,

There can be a sense of despair,

Of how challenging it is,

How difficult it all is.

I can't do it.

It's too much.

And if you open to that despair and say,

Yes,

It's too much,

I can't do it,

And you fall in and down to find out what if I surrender.

In this moment,

What if I say yes,

And fall all the way through.

And you might sense a feeling of not knowing the unknown.

And it might lead you into a sense of falling into a black hole.

And if you say yes and let yourself fall backwards and down into this black hole of the unknown,

Surrender to everything as it is,

You can fall out the bottom.

And you might find yourself falling through into emptiness,

Openness,

Space.

And as you fall into space,

You can just let yourself float,

Let yourself go.

Nothing to do,

Nothing to know.

And you can look all the way up,

And you can see the layer of despair.

Can't do it,

Can't hold on,

Can't fix it,

Can't change it.

Then you can look above that and see the anxiety and the fear and the sense of not being good enough and the anger.

And above that,

You can see the stories and the pictures and the images of what happened today and what's happening tomorrow and what I should be doing.

What needs to happen.

And you can see it from all the way in the depths,

And you can see that it's all empty.

And it's possible to drop even deeper,

So deep that you can't even see the stories,

That you can't even see this concept of a day,

And you can't even see the story of me.

And you can see what it's like to have a break,

To have a rest from the story of me and my life and me and my day.

And let yourself fall into this emptiness of your own being.

And you can just feel your whole body relaxing,

Everything dropping away as you fall deeper into this unknown.

And as you fall deeper,

Any separation between you and this space starts to disappear.

So it's not you in the space,

But you merge with it like the river merges into the ocean.

You merge into the space so that you are the space.

And I don't know what it feels like for you to be this space.

I can feel so good,

So deeply relaxing and nourishing to just be empty space.

And so you can stay as empty space.

So in being empty space,

The space doesn't worry about what arises and falls in the space,

What comes and goes,

Everything comes and goes.

The space remains space,

Untouched by the objects.

Stories can come and go,

Days can come and go,

Thoughts can come and go,

Ideas can come and go,

Being right comes and goes,

Being wrong comes and goes,

But space remains space.

And it can feel so good to be this unmoving,

Empty,

Open space.

Reviews

Excellent. Gratitude for finding your meditations. Some have a dark night of the soul. I feel like I have a dark life of the soul. I am just sitting with that and not trying to make it be different. Really for my whole life I’ve been trying to fix me. First by trying to fix everything around me, and then when I learned that that isn’t my job, I’ve gone to work in trying to fix me. But that didnt work either so I try to let go and let God. I try really, really hard to do that. Sometimes it works, but most times it doesn’t. Today I’m sitting with the concept of my higher power shifting to simply being space. Undefined. No-thing. Emptiness. Witnessing all the surface waves - everything that comes and goes, which is everything ~ except this empty Space. 🙏🏼

Joy beyond joy

I continuously strive to be at the empty space. Thank you for putting this into words for me. Your words are what I’ve been searching for for a long time. I am happy that I finally found you. 🙏🙏

Really good. New perspective.

Excellent meditation practice. Thank you very much 🙏