Cultivating Self Trust

When we experience situations in our life leaving us afraid to trust, this can complicate so much for us. There is a source of love, clairty and guidance inside of us that we can re learn to trust. Recognizing this space within leaves us feeling safer, secure and supported. Enjoy this talk and meditation to reactive a deep sense of trust within.

Transcript

So today we're going to meditate on trust.

There are energies,

Archetypal energies in our society.

I've kind of touched on them here without going too deep into it.

There's archetypal energies called masculine and feminine energies,

Bigger than man or woman.

They're just energies we both encompass.

We live in a predominantly masculine energy society.

Masculine energy has certain traits.

Neither feminine or masculine are good or bad.

They're just specific traits you can exude.

But when we're out of balance,

As in anything in life,

We feel it.

And so masculine is think,

Create,

Do,

Structure,

Control,

Lead,

Drive.

Now most of us are walking around carrying those energies when we don't need to be living in such a rigid cycle.

For me personally,

That has been a great lesson and growing area where I've had,

From my past growing up in the same society as all of us,

A stronghold on my to-do list and my structure and getting things done and being productive and having a drive and being motivated.

All of that isn't natural to a feminine essence being.

So what our job is,

Is not to say screw one,

Let's go into the other.

It's to come back into balance.

And this is what I talk to people a lot about,

Coming back into balance.

And so one of the biggest keys for that is trust.

Now that can seem far out there,

Unrealistic.

It's still a daily job for me,

Not job,

But daily experimentation for me.

Because when we say trust in ourselves,

Trust in the divine,

Trust in an intelligence greater than you,

It can be an interesting concept because we can't put our finger on it per se.

We can't see it.

It's something that we know with our inner world.

It's something that through trial and error and experimentation,

We get a deep felt sense of like,

Oh,

That's what all the great spiritual teachers have been pointing to.

So when we,

As you know from these meditations,

When we encompass a feeling first,

We draw that energy towards us second in the outside world.

So if we're feeling,

You know,

If we're focusing on victim things,

Then victim realities will keep coming to us.

If we're allowing ourselves to be in a place of trust,

Then we'll be held and taken care of.

So it's just changing our focus so that new experiences come.

Now if you had an experience,

This was like me,

Where you didn't feel like you could trust,

Really hard to,

Let's just say it's really hard.

It can be an interesting pivot to move from,

Well,

I've been let down.

What does that even mean?

What's my role in this?

So remember it's co-creative,

It's a balance.

And what I used to do was something would be coming to me.

I'd be manifesting something,

Something would be on its way and I wouldn't trust it would come,

That I was worthy and deserving of it,

Et cetera,

Et cetera.

So I would jump in before,

And I wouldn't get to see proof that we live in a benevolent universe that even through our pain,

Life is for us.

It's teaching us things.

We come here for a lesson where through our pain,

We're being molded into something really beautiful and in our light.

And so trusting that this path has been lined up for us,

That there is good.

And again,

If we don't see that reality,

Our brain isn't going to find proof of that.

So it's going to say,

No,

I don't believe that that's okay.

And then we're always going to want to be in control,

Which I get it.

That's what I have had to overcome for lots of years,

Not wanting to let go and trust.

Now you're inner wisdom will tell you if it's an abusive situation or you're being mistreated,

And that's not something or someone that you can trust.

So I'm not saying let's go in here blindly and just be dumb about it and turn off our wits about us.

That's always there guiding us.

But there will be this little thing in you that's like,

Wait a minute.

Okay,

Let's just soften a little.

Let's just not jump in.

Let's just,

You can feel when you're trying to be in control and in the masculine.

You can feel when you're leading and working and doing and your body's like tired,

Anxious,

Depressed,

Physical issues,

All sorts of things.

Your body,

That's not I'm broken.

That's the body going,

Hey kid,

You're out of balance and we love you so much that we're going to make it hurt.

One of my favorite phrases is God doesn't let you run with scissors.

So when you're running with scissors,

When you're overworking,

When you're out of balance,

When you're not trusting the thing that created the stars,

It's going to hurt so that you let go.

So,

So that we can allow ourselves to live in a more benevolent reality,

One that's filled with support and care and trust from ourselves and from others and from the unseen realms.

You must first let go a little bit and welcome that feeling.

So that's what we're going to do today.

And the meditation is as best as you can,

Because this is just a safe space of practice.

Like what would it feel like?

We're going to ask ourselves lots of pondering questions to just rest in that space.

And this isn't just some nice meditation.

This is you actually pulling in similar and like vibrational realities where you can relax,

Where you are met,

Where you are cared for in the world of forum.

So let's have some fun.

Let's learn to trust something bigger than ourselves to meet us too.

And that isn't like,

Okay,

I'm going to sit in my living room and millions of dollars are just going to pour in.

It's going to slow down and soften and be led.

And if an inspiration comes from a place of heart,

An idea for a creative opportunity at work or a holiday to go on that feels relaxing,

Like we're led from that passive place,

Not that I got to do and I got to think it.

It's a very different,

Like I'm going to trust that.

Even if it hasn't,

It hasn't risen yet inside of me,

I know that it's there and it's wisdom and it's deep and it's beautiful and it's coming from another place that again,

Our world doesn't honor and respect.

So we're like,

Who lives like that?

Well,

When you start to live in alignment with that,

You heal.

So if you want to put some music on,

Go ahead and close those eyes.

You can sit up,

You can lay down,

Just get comfortable in your space.

Beautiful.

Sometimes when we slow down,

We don't like to because we begin to feel all of our pain.

We feel the rigidity in our body and the tension and the anxious energy and that's all okay.

We have to slow down to see it,

To presence it,

To witness it,

To let it soften and move through us and then to be able to place our focus elsewhere.

So as we move into this meditation,

We set our intention as a group for trust,

To remember how to fully and deeply trust,

Surrender,

Flow with life,

Co-create with life,

Allow life as opposed to control,

Manage,

Fight against,

Fear.

May we remember that it is for us and in our pain that perhaps there's something we're not seeing and God isn't letting us run with scissors.

Whatever word resonates with you,

You don't have to use that one.

Life isn't letting you run with scissors,

Nature isn't,

Energy isn't.

I'm just speaking of the loving energy that powers life,

The unconditional light behind the scenes.

So we're forgetting today as best as we can our life and the inability to trust from all the pain and the rejection that we've experienced.

And we're overriding trusting humanity for a minute and we're going bigger.

We're saying,

Okay,

I know that this has let me down and that I've let me down,

But that that's a perfect part of the picture that I can't see.

And I'm going bigger to divine trust,

To trusting that my life is unfolding and that I have a purpose and that there is love guiding me and that my needs are met when I let go.

And so we begin as always by just letting our eyes deeply relax.

Feeling that physical connection between your body and the seat.

Allowing the breath to move deeper into the belly.

Just breathing gently in and out of the nose with the mouth closed.

Just letting yourself start to settle in knowing that whatever arises is just energy revealing itself to you.

As long as we just notice it and stay with it,

It wants to transmute and leave.

Breathing in and out of the belly,

The eyes soften.

Start to relax your physical body,

Let your shoulders relax.

Your belly relax.

Let every exhale melt you into the ground.

Held by the earth below you.

As much as we love the humans around us,

Today we go to a bigger trust.

Mama Earth and Father Sky.

Divine intelligence,

Energy,

Love,

Source,

Nature.

The part of us is very real that perhaps we've never had eyes for.

We didn't jump in so soon.

Perhaps life was bringing us what we needed but we didn't trust.

So today we pray I surrender my inability to trust and I ask that it be healed quickly and miraculously from my mind.

May I see through the eyes of love what I need to see here to let this go.

May I remember that it is not only safe to trust but the most beautiful place that I can exist.

And that if I deeply know to not put my faith in something,

I'll know that I have the intelligence within me that knows where I can place this even if there's a bit of fear.

There's an underlying safety that I can rely on and I move down deeper from my brain to the depths of my being and I allow myself to rest deeply for perhaps the first time in a long time into a feeling of being cared for.

And as we deepen into this meditation,

You just imagine this very simple medicine.

It's like we let go and our body relaxes and what would it feel like?

We're looking beyond all the proof that life has shown us.

Going into this central console of creation itself,

What would it feel like if I was cared for by life?

If I had the healings I needed,

If I had the solutions to all the challenges in my life,

If my cares were met and my desires were held and regarded and illuminated.

Perhaps it's not what our mind believes cared for looks like or love looks like,

But that we are always given what we need for our highest good in every moment and that the thing that created the stars knows more than our brain could ever know.

So to place our trust as we relax our bones into this space,

It's like we're sinking into the most comfortable bed.

It's like I'm just gonna let go now.

I'm just gonna stop holding on so tightly now.

I'm gonna create a little bit of space in my mind now and in my body now and in my day and in my life now,

I'm gonna let go of needing to overdo,

Overdrive,

Overthink,

Over lead,

Over control.

I'm just going to allow myself to breathe and practice letting go of the rains.

As I don't need to blindly let go of everything,

As we let go we remember it's co-creative.

It's me and life.

I never needed to do it all.

I allow that space.

Do you feel that space where we needn't jump in and jump in and jump in,

But we slow down,

Feel this in your bones and your body.

We slow down and we breathe and our body starts to feel safer here.

And we trust,

We trust that everything has led us to where we need to be.

That our darkness and our light is right on time,

Perfect as it is.

We trust that there is a deeper benevolence high in the scenes holding us so we can let go of needing to hold on so tightly.

And that our biggest fear will not happen,

That we will actually be met.

We will be held.

We will be loved and we will be seen.

We will be cared for and supported.

Just breathe and soften.

And imagine what it would feel like if you were so cared for.

Maybe images come to mind or sensations come into your body,

Let them take over.

Let them turn on new messages in your cells.

What it feel like to be supported in a continuous infinite team of divine love,

Never alone,

Perhaps living in the illusion that you were,

Seeing proof of the illusion until one day you chose to let go.

Just a little bit as you begin to see proof of the new.

As living this way isn't bad or wrong or scary.

It's just different.

It's just new,

Yet ancient at the same time.

It's simply a remembering as we breathe,

Soften deeper into trust.

Letting go of running the ship and allowing yourself to feel into being a co-pilot,

Led.

Life reveals an inner sensation,

Inkling,

Inspiration,

And you follow this divine dance of bliss and joy and creation here for us all along.

We must let go.

We must settle into.

We must soften.

I am loved and I feel it in my body right now.

And if I have to override all the old programs,

I pull new ones in.

I am loved.

By something bigger than humanity,

I am supported.

I am cared for.

By myself and Yen-Sien.

I trust and I know deep down that I can,

That this feels like truth,

That this feels right.

And if at any moment it doesn't,

I'll know.

So I can rest in this delicious spaciousness and let my body drink in the medicine of this space.

As I start to bring my breath back to my belly again.

Breathing and softening,

The eyes relax.

You're behind your eyes and you are planted in your body.

When your body is connected to the seat,

When your muscles are soft.

Breathing in and out.

Letting go a little bit at a time.

I trust.

And as you feel ready,

You slowly start to stretch and wiggle.

Moving the body,

Coming back to the room.

And opening your eyes whenever you're ready.

Thanks for joining me this morning.

We all have a wonderful rest of your day and that this creates magic and miracles in your life.

You're welcome.

And I will see you're so welcome beauties.

I will see you next week.

Take care.

Bye.

Bye.

Reviews

That was so touching Jamie. The swirl that my life has become just needs your advice to trust and surrender to the love. Thank you, that was beautiful.

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This meditation brought me peace. Thank you. I will be using this one again.❤️

Beautiful thank you.