Why Did I Do That?

Sometimes we do things that are just NOT us. It creates a horrible feeling inside and we know that it’s not our normal way of being. How do we handle it? There's definitely a part that is self-forgiveness! Let’s discuss it!

Transcript

Namaste everybody!

Welcome to In the Flow with Lori Albert.

Oh,

I have a story to tell you guys.

So the other day we had,

And I try really hard not to be,

I don't want to be like political,

Right?

However,

I do like to bring my life to In the Flow because this is what it's about.

In the Flow is our life.

So how can I not bring my life into the show?

The other day we had the debate and I had a physical,

Literally a physical reaction to the debate and all those emotions,

All that energy.

Now,

I don't even have to mention that there was a lot of planetary energy going on as well,

Right?

But I had a physical reaction to the debate.

I wasn't here yesterday.

I had to take a day off,

Right?

I had a physical reaction and I was ill,

Crying.

Yeah,

It was really weird.

And again,

A lot of planetary energy going on as well,

Right?

So I had this sort of physical reaction and I went to bed and I was just sitting there,

Right?

Feeling like my heart was racing.

It was like real,

Right?

So what do I do?

Cardinal sin,

I guess you could say number 65 is don't get on social media,

Right?

Oh my gosh.

So I got on social media and there was a conversation going on and Laurie who,

You know,

You can't do a podcast and be,

You know,

And do these types of things if you aren't sort of semi outspoken at least,

Right?

So I put in my opinion,

I won't say which way because I,

Again,

Don't like to get political,

But there's a story here,

Right?

So I put in my opinion and the conversation started and I was like,

This is my opinion,

Blah,

Blah,

Blah,

Right?

So yeah,

So I did that and instantly I felt really bad.

I felt really guilty.

I felt really bad.

And there was a part of me that's like,

You know what?

I should be allowed there and there's,

There's parts to this that are like real,

Right?

Like we should be able to speak our mind regardless of whatever side you're on,

Blah,

Blah,

Blah,

Of any argument.

Forget politics,

You know?

So that was that.

And I got into this conversation and I was like biting,

Like this was not me at all.

I was biting.

I was,

I was witty,

Which I am just not a witty person,

You know?

I mean,

I'll speak my mind,

But I'm not like witty,

Right?

I was witty.

I was good.

And I was like,

In that sense,

I was real proud of myself,

Right?

Spoke my mind.

And then,

And I,

And I was done and this person that I was sort of debating was making these,

What I believe to be really bizarre comments,

But whatever,

It doesn't really matter,

I guess at that point.

So I put the phone down because I thought,

You know what?

I started to realize this is not me.

This is just not me.

How am I,

How am I doing this?

This is not me at all.

So put the phone down and then I thought,

You know what?

I have to apologize.

I wasn't mean,

But I spoke my mind.

I will say that,

Right?

So I get back in the phone and I'm like,

I am really sorry.

This is just not me.

This is not how I live my life.

You are allowed to believe whatever you believe.

I am allowed to believe whatever I believe.

And you know what?

It's all beautiful.

It's all love.

And so I'm sitting here thinking this person thinks I'm crazy,

Which is fine because I probably am.

But right.

So it was like,

Oh my gosh.

So I would then the guilt kicks in,

Right?

So I'm just like,

This is ridiculous.

How am I like this?

How am I like this?

So I had to take yesterday and take some time and I sat in meditation and I swear to you sat in meditation and within a short period of time I felt like myself again.

I felt like because there's a forgiveness that needs to happen for yourself.

When you know you're not being yourself and you know that your behavior is less than stellar,

Let's just say you need to like,

Okay,

So you can apologize or do whatever you do to clean up that mess.

But you need to apologize to yourself.

I mean,

You need to forgive yourself,

Right?

And then I remembered that Wayne Dyer had a quote.

So I'm like digging through trying to find this quote because I love Wayne Dyer.

I mean,

He's so super fantastic and he's so,

You know,

He's amazing.

So anyway,

So this was his quote that I finally found and oh my gosh,

It brought me so much relief,

Right?

So this is what he said.

I forgive myself and then I move on.

You can sit there forever lamenting about how bad you've been feeling guilty until you die and not one tiny slice of that guilt will do anything to change a single thing in the past.

Really?

I mean,

It's so true.

You have to forgive yourself when you make a mistake.

You're not yourself.

You know,

That was so not me.

Oh my gosh.

But then,

You know,

I start to think I hold myself and as we all probably do,

I hold myself to certain standards and when we fall short of that standard,

There's a guilt thing that goes along with that and we shouldn't be that way.

We have to forgive ourselves and no,

We are spiritual beings having a human experience.

We're humans.

We make mistakes.

We screw up.

So that was my day.

But I have to tell you,

As soon as I meditated,

The world changed for me.

So that's what we're going to do today,

Obviously.

We're going to sit and we're going to meditate on this and guess what?

We're going to meditate.

Well,

I'll explain this in a minute.

Let's get ourselves comfortable,

Shall we?

So let's get ourselves comfortable and yeah,

Get in a place where we can clear our minds and be peaceful.

Right?

So get yourself comfortable and close your eyes whenever you feel good about doing so.

Let's take a nice deep breath in and release.

Very good.

We needed that deep breath,

Right?

So let's take another deep breath in.

Release.

Oh,

That feels so good.

Very good.

So we're going to start our day transition into meditation by starting out thinking of all those beautiful things that we are grateful for.

What are you grateful for today?

Grateful for forgiveness.

I'm grateful that I had the courage to try to fix what wasn't right in the situation that I was in.

I'm grateful for peace.

I'm grateful for meditation that I found it.

20 years ago,

I found meditation.

I'm grateful that I can be here with you guys today.

What are you grateful for?

Even when you're feeling down or feeling up,

There's always,

Always something to be grateful for.

And then the next sacred question that actually David G likes to impart.

Who are you being when you are at your best?

Very apropos for today when you say,

Who are you being when you are at your best?

Are you being love?

Are you being compassion?

Are you being present?

Who are you when you are at your best?

So our mantra for today is shanti.

Shanti is the Sanskrit word for peace.

So as we get ready to sit in our quiet,

We are going to meditate on peace.

And I like to do or I like to repeat shanti in sort of waves of three shanti shanti shanti shanti shanti shanti shanti shanti shanti shanti shanti.

You can do it however feels comfortable for you.

If you get lost in the mantra,

It's absolutely okay.

Just come back to it gently,

Or start to focus on your breath.

Push away all those thoughts that come into your mind.

I will keep the time and let's begin.

Shanti shanti shanti shanti shanti shanti shanti shanti shanti shanti shanti shanti Gothic shanti shanti shanti shanti shanti shanti shanti shanti shanti shanti shanti shanti shanti you you you you you you shantii shantii shantii shantii shantii lets start bringing our awareness back to our bodies lets take a nice deep breath in and release perfect whenever you feel comfortable you can open your eyes beautiful so today forgive yourself thats such a huge thing to do is to forgive yourself forgiveness allows the peace to come in so until next time thank you guys for joining so much I appreciate each and every one of you thank you and have a great afternoon bye bye

Reviews

I’ll be listening to this one again and again. Self-forgiveness is a work in progress

I love how you spoke of different parts that were relevant without getting political or naming names or even hints. This left it open as a very helpful, insightful practice. Ty💙