Mistrust Transformed: Trust Yourself & Choose Life Again

Which version of yourself do you mistrust the most? Whenever we mistrust a version of ourselves, we somehow project that mistrust onto other people, onto our community, leaving us in a constant loop of self-isolation and judgment of the other. What if you didn’t have to protect yourself so much from the world but invited connection, trust, and aliveness back into your life? What if you trusted your own truth and unique beauty so much that you felt safe enough to claim your place within society and within your community again?

This guided intuitive practice invites you to transform your inner place of mistrust into a place of healing, truth, and connectedness!

Transcript

Hello beautiful and welcome to today's practice that's all about the experience of how liberating it can be to become the version of yourself you mistrusted for so long.

Whenever we mistrust a version of ourselves,

We somehow project that mistrust onto other people,

Onto our community,

Leaving us in a constant loop of self-isolation and judgment of the other.

What if you wouldn't have to protect yourself so much from the world but invited connection,

Trust and aliveness back to your life?

What if you trusted your own truth and unique beauty so much that you felt safe enough to claim your place within society and within your community?

This practice invites you to transform your inner place of mistrust into a place of healing,

Truth and connectedness.

So if you feel ready,

Take any comfortable position,

Take a deep breath in,

Exhale out and let us begin.

Okay,

Beautiful,

Welcome yourself into this moment,

Into this space,

This body of yours,

In this physical space you've chosen today,

This particular moment in time that you have dedicated towards yourself,

Your healing and your growth.

This is your time,

Your space and know that there's nothing to force,

Nothing to push.

This is about creating inner space for what's ready to move,

For what's ready to be received and released.

There's no specific goal that you have to achieve other from just surrendering to the moment and welcoming what wants to touch you,

Move you and leave you.

And I'm inviting you to place one hand maybe on your chest,

Maybe one hand on your belly if that feels comforting for you or choose any other physical connection to your body that feels supportive,

Makes you feel safe and that allows your body to release further into the ground with your next exhale,

Melting any stagnancy,

Any stiffness,

Giving into Mother Earth's generous embrace,

Allowing her to receive what you don't need anymore,

What doesn't serve you anymore and with every inhale you're expanding,

Creating more space for the growth you wish to take today.

This life and this world is giving us so many reasons to somehow lose connection with ourselves,

To doubt ourselves,

To push ourselves into becoming better,

Becoming more,

Becoming something that the world can understand,

Maybe control.

So with your next exhale I'm inviting you to let go of all those invitations that are about self-optimization in order to be loved and with your next inhale you remember the truth of your soul,

The truth that you have always been whole,

That you are loved and that you don't need to gain that love.

You are exactly where you are meant to be today.

Appreciate yourself for showing up for yourself,

For daring to trust that your truth will guide you into whom you want to embody today.

Your timing,

Your pace is perfect.

Okay,

Release further into the ground,

Surrender to Mother Earth,

Into her arms,

For she knows exactly what unconditional love looks and feels like.

She's offering that to you consistently.

So all you've got to do is receive and create space for that truth to vibrate within yourselves.

Beautiful.

You are doing a great job.

So take all the time you need here to arrive in a state that's soft and gentle on you without pushing you into anything but finding love and compassion for who you are in this moment.

And once you're ready,

I'm inviting you to ask yourself the intuitive question,

Which version of yourself do you mistrust?

Which version of yourself do you mistrust?

Let your body respond,

Let your emotions respond,

Let your intuitive mind remind you of a version that you are and that you mistrust so much that you don't allow that version to truly live freely,

Express freely.

What do you see?

What do you know?

Is it a version of a liberated female feminine energy or is it a liberated masculine energy,

Finding freedom in self-expression?

Is it the creative within you,

The wild within you?

Is it that version of you that's just lovable and trustable?

Is it the version of yours that's growing,

Nourishing spaces,

Projects?

Is it the version of you that's a leader?

Just find that version of yours that you feel,

You know,

You remember right now you mistrust the most.

And maybe you can see that version in front of you.

Maybe you can see how would that version of yours act,

Live,

Express,

Talk,

Move,

Create if that version was free.

It is of you,

So it will always live in you.

But maybe you don't trust it enough and you have your reasons for that,

To really embody that version freely.

So watch that version for a while,

Maybe you see it in front of your inner eye,

Maybe you feel it.

Nobody's watching you,

You can just let go and allow that version to be alive for a moment,

Feel it.

Watch that version,

Listen to that version.

How would that version come to life if no one was watching?

And continue breathing.

Continue letting go into Mother Earth and receiving new energy to expand yourself,

Your mind,

Your space.

Okay,

Support your body where needed.

How does your body react to that version?

Is there longing?

Is there restriction?

And why don't you give yourself permission to dare enjoying that version?

Whether you see it outside your body or within yourself,

Why don't you dare enjoy that version?

Let it be a secret moment between you and that version.

Let the version be.

Let that version remind you that there was a time you trusted.

You trusted that nature of yours.

And yes,

For some reason you had to build some mistrust around that version.

I'm sure it was safer for you,

But today you can choose afresh.

There you are.

Let go,

Exhale.

Expand your space beyond your physical being so that you can accommodate whatever wants to move within yourself right now,

Within your body or through your body.

Okay,

And whatever wants to be felt,

Feel it.

If shame is coming up,

If guilt is coming up,

Don't suppress it.

Find a loving compassion for whatever is coming up.

Expand,

Let it flow through you and let it go.

And whenever you are ready,

I'd like you to go one step further.

I'm inviting you to ask yourself,

Which mistrust does this version of yours that you mistrust so much,

Which mistrust does it stir towards society?

Towards community?

Which mistrust is born from your inner self-mistrust towards humanity,

Towards the people around you?

Maybe towards self-expressed women and men,

Maybe towards creatives,

Maybe towards leaders,

Healers.

Depending on your own mistrust towards yourself,

You might find a mirror,

A mistrust that you project onto society or a group of people in the society.

And try not to think about it so much really.

Inhale,

Exhale out,

Create space and let your intuitive knowing talk.

Let memories come to you,

Let situations appear in front of your inner intuitive eye.

Let your heart remind you of your body.

Maybe it's just that feeling of mistrust.

Maybe you can see a pattern.

Maybe you see specific people that you project that mistrust onto.

Making you somehow unable to see their whole,

But reducing them towards that place that's triggering your own mistrust towards yourself.

Making you feel unsafe around them,

Making you judge them,

Maybe making you walk away.

Or maybe making you just losing yourself,

Trying to justify yourself a lot for who you are,

Explaining yourself a lot.

What is the consequence of that mistrust in your life?

How do you act,

How do you talk,

How do you connect?

What connections or dialogues do you avoid?

And how does this affect your freedom of being in the world?

How does this affect your freedom to connect with the world,

With your tribe that is humanity?

With aliveness,

With being surprised by the world,

Being touched by the world,

Being touched by humanity,

Being invited into healing by a community that's not just your tribe,

But a diverse tribe of people.

What's the effect?

And continue breathing,

Continue remembering that Mother Earth is always providing you with the truth of unconditional love.

You are loved.

Nothing is wrong with you.

You did your best protecting yourself.

You did your best adjusting to the environment around you.

And now you can choose afresh,

You can heal,

You can grow into something else if you want to.

Feel how your body is feeling.

Is there stiffness coming up,

Stagnancy,

Pain?

Is it a familiar pain?

Your body is always talking to you,

Talking truth to you,

Telling you about the programming that you have been holding for so long.

And whenever you are ready,

And know you can always pause the audio here,

Whenever you feel ready,

I'm inviting you to heal that inner version of yourself,

That version that you mistrust so much.

So I'm inviting you to connect to that inner version of yourself,

That version that you mistrust.

Allow it to come to life within yourself.

Allow it to be a liberated version.

Allow yourself to feel how you would feel if that version of yours was trusted.

If you could freely embody that version,

How would that feel?

Really sink into that feeling.

Continue breathing so that you can continue daring,

So that you can remember you are safe.

Feel that version.

Feel the longing towards that version that's underneath the mistrust.

The mistrust is what you learned,

But the longing is your truth.

Breathe that version and just sink into the arms of Mother Earth's love,

Compassion.

She sees you.

She knows you're exactly who you were meant to be.

There's nothing wrong with that version of yours.

Even if it was judged a lot in your past,

Even though it felt unsafe to be that version,

There is nothing wrong with you.

Their mistrust is not your mistrust.

Become that version and from there breathe yourself into a connection with that world you mistrusted,

With those people,

That group of people,

Those women,

Those men you mistrusted somehow because you mistrusted yourself.

You might see them in front of you.

You might just see a symbol representing them and the energy that you mistrust in them.

And I'm inviting you to breathe yourself into an expansion that's going beyond your physical body,

Reminding you that safety doesn't mean that you have to build walls around you,

But that that body around you,

That energy body around you will always carry you safe and at the same time it's the body that's connecting with the world.

So see that space around you expanding and touching the world,

Touching the community of humanity,

Touching that energy you mistrust in the world.

Experience that that touch doesn't mean that you are losing your protection.

Your truth and your inner feeling for your truth will always protect you,

Will always protect your uniqueness,

Your worth,

Your dignity.

Breathe,

Expand and whatever is ready to let go,

Let it go.

Receive the truth of trust towards yourself and remember humanity was always the community you chose to co-create a world with.

You can trust them more than you think because you can trust yourself more than you think.

Feel the touch,

Feel the connection,

Feel how some energies are invited to melt out of your system,

How an inner space of possibility is growing,

Showing up.

And how an inner space of possibility when it comes to you feeling alive,

Choosing life and feeling a free and liberate connection to the world is coming up.

Beautiful job,

You are doing an amazing job and you can stay here for as long as you wish receiving energies of reconciliation,

Receiving energies of melting,

Of reconnection and of truth.

You just breathe yourself back into your physical body with me,

Into this physical space you are in.

Letting go of the picture of the world but still feeling that version within that's alive.

Maybe feeling the pain and other emotions coming with it,

Breathing them and experiencing that you are safe,

Those emotions can't harm you,

They are of you and they are for you.

Thank yourself for your dedication towards this practice,

Thank yourself for daring to look at your mistrust and transform it into trust.

Honour yourself for every step whether it's a small or a huge one,

A shallow or a deep one,

Anything you have moved today is exactly what you needed today.

So don't make yourself too small,

Appreciate yourself,

Trust that you did exactly what was needed today.

I thank you so much for having joined me in this practice.

I wish for you the most peaceful,

The most loving and the most trusting day ahead.

I can't wait to see you next time.

Thank you.