Goddess Growth: Healing Jealousy

One "win" of division-making patriarchal energies is the contribution to women fighting women, seeing each other more as competitors than sisters. The energy of Jealousy is one symptom of that female wound, that is born from the lie about a woman never being enough, having to prove herself to gain her worth and place in society. What seemed a reality for long is now over: Remember who you are, re-claim your truth of your unconditional worthiness and be a shining example of healing to the world!

Transcript

Hi goddess,

A warm welcome to this healing practice that's all about making peace with jealousy.

We all know this overwhelming emotion that mostly comes with guilt and shame and that seems so uncontrollable to us that it can make us lose ourselves or even make us act in toxic ways.

In this practice we get to the core of this goddess wound that made women from sisters to competitors.

We reveal the lies of unworthiness that lie behind this energy and transform self-destructive jealousy into self-worth,

Healing and an offer for peace.

Dear woman,

Beautiful goddess,

If you are ready,

Take the most comfortable position you can find for you today and let's begin.

Okay,

Dear goddess,

Today I'm inviting you to start your practice when lying on the ground.

So if you feel like you're more than welcome to go ahead,

Lie down with your back on the floor and have the soles of your feet standing on the ground.

As this energy of jealousy is mostly fooled by guilt,

Shame and inner prohibitions,

I'm inviting you to physically stay connected to the earth,

Our planet where you always find the quality of trust.

Of safety and unconditional love for who you are.

Okay,

So in whichever position you are in now,

Start breathing.

Take some conscious in and exhales and with every breath sink more and more into your unique connection with mother earth.

This goddess,

Our mother,

Who knows your pains,

Sees your pains and sees the whole of you.

Connect to that quality of unconditional love for who you are.

Breathe and with every breath through the soles of your feet,

Give her what is heavy on you.

Release into the earth what is distracting you,

What's maybe weighing you down,

What's doubtful in you.

And trust she takes it generously and she will never judge you for anything so with every exhale let go.

And with every inhale let this grounding flow of unconditional love and safety fill you,

Fill your heart space.

You are safe,

Remember.

You are safe and if you wish create that beautiful circle from your heart to the soles of your feet,

Into the earth,

To the planet's heart and from there back to your heart space.

So ground your heart in this knowing that you can never fall out of her connection,

You can never fall out of safety and love.

Breathe and let go.

Let go.

Right.

Okay and as you are there breathing in the safe and loving connection of Mother Earth,

I'm inviting you to connect to the quality of jealousy inside your system.

Jealousy.

Continue breathing.

Remember you are safe.

So where in your body do you perceive it and how do you perceive it?

Is it a small fire or an overwhelming fire?

Is it a pain,

A chaos making energy?

What's the effect on your body?

What do you see,

Know,

Feel?

Okay and continue breathing.

Breathe it,

Breathe the feeling.

Know that there's nothing wrong with your feelings.

It's not your fault,

No guilt.

It is what happened to you and your divine female energy,

A wound that can be healed.

So breathe and give this energy of jealousy a moment to be there.

Give yourself the permission to have it because what wants to be hidden cannot be healed.

Allow yourself to feel jealous.

Breathe.

You are safe and you are loved so there's no need to fight it.

It's all right and you're exactly where you need to be.

Yeah,

Patriarchy has made women to see each other as competitors more than sisters.

And this constant comparing of each other is a mirror of the inner wound of never finding enoughness and wholeness in ourselves.

So if you are fighting your own female nature you will be fighting others in one way or the other.

Okay.

So beautiful woman,

Dear goddess,

I'm inviting you now to visualize a flower.

A flower outside your system,

Maybe some meters in front of your inner eye.

Visualize a flower.

What do you see?

And what kind of a flower is it?

How does it look like?

Do you see the roots,

The stalk,

Yeah,

The body of the flower?

Maybe the flower head?

Okay,

Which color do you see?

Which dynamic?

What do you perceive,

Smell,

Know?

Okay,

And know that this is the flower for yourself today,

You as a flower.

So give that hello to the flower,

That neutral yet loving appreciation for yourself.

Hello,

I see you.

And notice how does this flower of yours make you feel?

Does her beauty bring you joy or have you already started judging her like,

Oh,

The roots are not strong enough or I don't like the colors?

Or maybe why does it look weak here and there?

Okay,

Hello.

Come back to your connection to the earth.

Breathe.

Unconditional love,

Remember.

And let go of judgments.

Just be there in contact with the flower and perceive.

Yeah,

Just like you,

This flower is exactly where it needs to be,

Remember.

Okay,

And with the right distance,

Watch this flower and see where in this body of the flower,

Where does it believe that it is not enough?

Where does she believe that she is not enough,

Not worthy,

Not whole?

Let the flower show you.

Now you might see spots in a certain color or you feel it,

You know it.

Or the flower has her own way to show you these areas in her body.

These beliefs of I am not enough,

I am not worthy,

I am not whole.

Okay,

There you are.

Continue breathing.

It is.

Acknowledge the flower,

Acknowledge what you see,

Acknowledge your courage to see it.

And that's the most important step.

Hello.

You are.

Okay.

And then see what patterns has the flower created in order to hide these spots,

These beliefs.

Is she carrying them openly or what mechanisms has she invented to hide them?

Maybe to cover them or to perform and create a lot of distraction around to make you shift the focus.

What do you see?

Okay,

And allow lightness to be.

That's what you do,

Okay.

That's the best you could do so far.

So acknowledge yourself,

Acknowledge your patterns.

Yeah,

There's nothing wrong with wanting to hide our belief in unworthiness.

That's what most of us do as unworthiness comes with a lot of guilt and shame energies.

Because we believe we don't give enough or haven't perfected ourselves enough in order to be loved.

So these are beliefs most of us carry in us and let me tell you it only has power over you as long as you believe it.

It's a lie produced by systems that live from division,

Never enoughness and a performance society.

So it is not who you are.

It is not who you are.

So now I'm inviting you to reconnect to your truth,

To your unique light.

Where do you see your unique light in your flower?

Yeah,

Is it like a lamp that can be switched on in her head?

Or does she have a shining sun above her head or a beautiful light shining around her?

What do you see?

What do you know?

What do you feel?

What is her,

Your unique shining light?

Your light that is out of compare,

That is always enough because it is yours and uniquely yours.

It's what you are beyond outside expectations.

So where do you find that unique shining light and beauty in that flower?

And wherever you find it,

Make it big,

Expand it and let it flow,

Shine.

Let it shine through these spots that believe in your unworthiness,

Unwholeness,

Not enoughness.

Let your beautiful unique light wash away that lie.

Let it fill you,

Your flower,

With your truth of being uniquely beautiful,

Out of compare,

Whole,

Worthy.

Give yourself that act of self-love and self-care.

And whatever tries to distract you,

Let it go.

Choose your truth.

Choose your light.

Let go of guilt,

Shame,

Of all these conditions that you might have been told about,

These conditions to be loved.

You are worthy.

You are complete,

Divine and a beautiful woman,

A shining light out of compare.

You are beautiful.

So what's the effect on you?

What's the effect on your body?

As you let go,

Breathe and trust the healing.

And then see all these other flowers around you.

You might want to zoom out a bit to see them.

All these other beautiful unique flowers,

These beautiful women with their own lights and beauties out of compare.

See yourself as one of them and see yourself as unique amongst them.

And wherever you find yourself creating hierarchies like this one is not as beautiful as I am or I can never be as beautifully shining as that one.

Okay,

Care for yourself,

Care for your pain.

There's no need of feeling ashamed.

Find that spot where you don't believe in your worthiness and heal it.

Let your light fill you.

You are beautiful and worthy no matter what other flowers might project on you.

You are sharing the same wounds,

The same pains.

So invite compassion.

You are whole,

Beautiful and worthy.

You are whole,

Beautiful and worthy.

Okay,

And then see one of the flowers which is triggering jealousy in you.

Maybe you know which person is behind that flower,

Which woman,

Maybe not.

It doesn't matter.

Just trust your perception.

Which flower around you is triggering you most.

Okay.

Okay.

Breathe.

Remember the earth is underneath you,

Keeping you safe in unconditional love.

So breathe.

And perceive I am jealous.

Can you have that feeling?

And where is your flower reacting?

Where is your flower triggered?

Yeah,

Maybe you see her becoming very small or making herself to be very big.

Maybe you see a wound that's being triggered or her light being dimmed.

Maybe the roots being cut.

What's the triggering effect?

Perceive.

What do you see?

And it's not about guilt.

It's not about blaming you or the other flower.

It is.

You are all carrying the same wounds and you can offer freedom through healing yours.

So what do you see?

And what's the light?

What's the lie you find in your flower system?

The lie that she believed when being triggered.

Where did she believe that she is not whole,

Not beautiful,

Out of compare,

Not unique and out of competition because of her unique shining light?

What do you find?

What do you see?

Okay.

And then beautiful goddess,

Take heart and heal it.

Offer freedom through self-care.

Let this light get bright again.

Flow it.

Let it hear that wound.

Let it feel your flower.

Switch it on again.

You are whole with all there is and you are exactly where you need to be.

And if you love yourself,

You shine in worthiness.

No matter whether others see your light or not.

Divine woman,

You are beautiful.

You are perfect.

You are whole.

Okay.

And as you heal yourself and find a back to your light,

Check in with yourself.

Are you trying to show off?

Are you trying to make the other flower look small?

Are you performing?

So do you find any competitive energies inside of you?

Okay.

Acknowledge yourself and see what do you need to let it be.

To let it be a shining in unconditional freedom.

Unconditional freedom for you and only for you.

Knowing about your own beauty and light without having to prove yourself.

Your others are free to take or leave your offer.

But let it be free and at peace inside of you.

What do you need?

So treat yourself.

Flow your light,

Flow compassion,

Flow trust whatever it is that supports you now.

Remember you are enough at all times.

Okay.

There you are beautiful woman.

One unique light in the sea of many unique lights.

You have done a huge step today towards healing your goddess wound.

So acknowledge yourself.

You're exactly where you need to be.

Thank yourself.

And in your own time and pace let the other flowers go and let your flower go and reconnect to your body,

Your breath.

And take a moment here.

What's moving inside of you now?

Breathe and feel your connection to Mother Earth,

To the cosmos and to your unique light and beauty.

Where do you find your truth about your worthiness now?

Maybe in your heart space,

Maybe in that shining sun above your head.

Find it,

Beautiful flower,

Find that essence and let it fill your heart space,

Your body,

Your system.

Beautiful woman,

Divine goddess,

That's what you are.

Not more and not less than any other being,

Just whole and perfect in your unique way.

So breathe your beauty,

Breathe your light.

Beautiful.

And let this truth as well fill your female organs,

Your womb,

Your ovaries and let it take all the stuck energies with it,

All these lies,

All these competition making pains.

Let them flow out.

You don't need them anymore.

Give them to Mother Earth.

You don't need them anymore.

You needed to hold them for a while in order to survive.

But it's over.

Let them go.

You are light and you are worthy.

Let them go.

Beautiful.

There you are,

Beautiful goddess.

You are welcome to stay with your healing flow as long as you wish.

And remember you can always come back to it.

I want to thank you for joining me today in this healing practice on a topic that asks courage and heart to face it.

So thank you for your light,

Thank you for your truth and remember you are beautiful,

You are out of compare.

Thank you again and I'll see you soon.

Asante.

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