Step-By-Step High-level Energy Work 2 Of 2

I introduce part 2 of Randi Green's incomparable energy work and processes as related in real-time. Repeating the previous day's sequence from vertical position she adds a third component to two newly generated fields and spheres to arrive at a new organic tone of well-being and gratitude. She enters the Sirian library through the merging of 33 buddhas into a light pillar where crystal discs turn into light coding for integration into being a living library keeper perhaps to its finalization. Randi then activates the Aditi layer to access deva realms and limitlessness; explores various realms of Buddhist cosmology; encounters the Lord of the Yakkhas; disentangles from forces like greed, unfairness, and envy; masters the womb; confronts craving for mastery; and explains polarity, primordial Buddha, some of the thunderbolt and Bodhisattva paths, right attitudes for rebirth via the void, still point transformations, and goes in-depth with sexuality as the unification of opposites

Transcript

This is part two of a two-part process by Randi Green,

My fiancee,

Here in the end of July 2023.

Again she recorded this in June when I was staying in monasteries in the UK.

It's originally meant for me but I have clearance to share this.

This second part in her series in exploration and energy work picks up right where it left off in the last recording.

So this is the next day.

So she's basically going through the same process that she did in the first part of this recording.

And please listen to that if you haven't already done so.

And so what she does in this one is do basically the same thing but in the sitting up position instead of lying down where she adds a third component to two new generated fields and spheres.

Then she gets into a new organic tone of well-being and gratitude and a new type of humanoid consciousness along with the rings of solar configuration.

So this will make more sense perhaps when you listen to it.

This is just a brief summation of key points.

She also then enters into the Syrian library,

The merging of 33 Buddhas into a pillar of light where crystal disks turn into light coding and then are integrated into Randi's field as a living library keeper of this information,

Perhaps to its finalization.

So then in the evening of that day she goes into the Aditi layer activation exercise for accessing the Deva realm and limitlessness.

Then she goes into exploring various realms in the Buddhist cosmology.

Then she's tested by the Lord of the Yakas and the Buddhas of activity and then deals with entanglement of various forces like greed,

Unfairness,

And envy.

Going into working with the mastery of the womb and then craving for mastery and mastery of craving.

Finally she assists and relieves and releases the Lord of the Yakas,

Explains polarity in the primordial Buddha and some of the Thunderbolt Path and that of the Bodhisattva.

She also enters the void and brings in compassion and gratitude for existence when dealing with this.

At the void for rebirth and also about having the right attitudes for rebirth.

She also balances gratitude for existence with the victimhood,

Anger,

And envy of others not having to deal with all this.

Then on to sitting in the still point with what's above and below to transform and transmute and sometimes being dragged into their realms when losing footing.

Then finally she finishes up with 20 minutes on sexuality as unification of opposites and this uses various images on the levels of the body,

Energy systems,

Speech,

Action,

Realms,

Focus,

Rebirth,

Non-clinging,

Heart,

Mind,

Void,

Production,

Unification itself,

Forces,

Purification,

And true knowledge and understanding.

Enjoy this internal process and energy work,

A rare glimpse into the internal high-level work of Randy Green.

I just woke up and I did this continuation of my work from yesterday in a horizontal position first and I repeat it now in an upright sitting position.

Working with my biofield I enter into the room I created yesterday using the nine holograms of the White Elders and I enter via my biofield,

The light field,

The light body I created.

I go into that special room where there is this sphere of light that I built yesterday and I enter into the light and I see that ring around that gives it energy,

The remaining holographic energy of the nine elders that are circulating around the center point of that sphere.

In that sphere I take form again and I feel it in my body and with that energy I first expand the five rings around my heart with the Elder Sirion configuration and see how that expands out and creates nine rings of white golden light.

I then expand the nine rings around my head or the five rings around my head and see how they expand out in white golden light and I then expand the nine rings around my entire body that is behind,

That's the new biofield,

That is behind and are sustaining from and adding to.

There's a feedback loop between the five rings around my heart and the five rings around my brain and the symbol in the middle of my brain lights up and gives its configuration to the rings around my head.

The symbol of my heart lights up and gives the configuration to the five rings around my heart.

So now my brain and my heart are now vibrating in that new configuration of energy along with the nine rings that is part of my biofield that merges into a light field that expands out and gets a cosmic vibration to it.

That cosmic vibration then feedback loops into the heart,

The symbol of the heart expands it to a new inner ring in my heart field that then unfolds into 21 little rings.

I do the same thing with the thing,

The symbol in my brain,

The sphere of the light in the middle of my brain and that expands into 21 little rings of cosmic energy that is now centered around the core symbol of my consciousness.

I expand this out and feel how these rings,

The 21 inner rings,

The five outer rings in my brain,

The 21 inner rings and the five rings around my heart,

Which of course are rings of energy that are part of the biofield that is part of a higher type of energy that is not frequency spectrum,

And I see how that pulsates.

It differs from the first exercise I did lying down.

In the first exercise lying down when I built the nine rings and the two times five rings,

It created a miniature what we call cluster of energy that is similar to the cluster of energy that's around the proton,

Neutron and electron.

As I saw a little sphere of protons and neutrons and electrons and a cluster of frequency energies and I took the density energies,

Let's call them that,

With a new configuration as three permanent atoms as it's called and merged it with the frequency atoms from where a new type of field were generated.

That's what I did and that was the end outcome of the horizontal meditation.

The vertical meditation is now where these extra fields have been generated and are now adding a third component to the already two existing types of spheres that are constituting my organic vessel.

When the density units got connected to the frequency molecular state,

A new type of tone came up that it has the tone of organic wellness,

Organic well-being,

A being of gratitude,

Gratitude of existence,

Which is a cone or a beacon of light in a world of suffering.

The 21 fields in my heart field and the 20 or rings in my heart field and the 21 rings in my brain field are pulsating with a different type of consciousness and I am very much aware that this is a humanoid energy system and it is the one that ties into the LPR3 or density 3,

The galactic type of configuration,

But it also has the rings of the systemic or the solar type of configuration,

That's the white golden light with the spheres.

The rings are and the way they pulsate and turn upside down and begin to circle within each other,

Rings within rings that are like wheels within wheels,

A kind of creating an overtones that goes in and add into the sound and light fields of the radiation vibrational fields and begins to create resonance fields or harmonic sequences of tones and lights that are vibrating out and vibrating in but not as waves and horizontal patterns but as complete sequences of unity and wholeness in fields that have no beginning that has no end and that's the best way I can put this.

I will sit with this for a while.

The councils have now appointed me the new record keeper.

It's a kind of librarian or historian.

The information from what I did was I went to the the 33 sitting Buddhas and they were now just pillars of light merging into one door from where I entered.

That's the library,

The Syrian library.

You know I work with the Pillar Project library so this is the Syrian equivalent to that and I walked in and I see all of these rows and rows and rows and rows and rows of crystal disks that are now dissolving and becoming light coating themselves and all of this is now dissolving and are transferred into the rings in my heart,

The rings in my brain and the 21 rings and then it expands out to utilized knowledge.

The inner rings are called the wisdom rings,

The outer five rings around my brain and the five rings from my heart field called the wisdom rings where all of this information is being stored in its different vibrational radiation patterns,

Making me quite dizzy.

It strengthens my bio field,

The nine rings of my bio fields that are now being replicated into three different types of nine layers that are able and capable of holding the basic configuration of the information that are stored in this library along with the five rings around my heart that are multiplying into the necessary fields to contain this information the same is happening around my brain.

It's like getting the code systems of the cosmic knowledge downloaded into these rings and become part of my field which makes me the living library,

The living keeper of the records from where the information,

I don't know what the purpose of it is,

I just know that this is what is happening.

So this is where I am right now and it is midday day one and the meditation of this integration process will soon be over and from that we will see what will come.

Perhaps it is the attempt to put it into organic form so it can dissolve and cease to exist and that's what happened with the Pillar Project library.

It gives the code sequences and the allowances to work with these different aspects of the library as they have been integrated into this world and the purpose is often to cessation or the the end of it since it is the completion cycles.

It's not a re-beginning or a rebirth,

It is often integration and activation integration for the dissolving and the annulling of these old structures and old architectural holographic features that were part of the different projects that were conducted here by the different groups and the different races and as I began with sequence one yesterday it kind of began with the beginning of the time of where they created these these configurations after the timeline event and are now coming to the end point where one will be the librarian or the carrier and will that lead to its finalization of what that means and what is necessary for completing the cycles of this information.

Early evening it's around eight o'clock and in a way the Sun is setting even though it's going to set at 958 p.

M.

Here in Denmark but it is setting it has passed the horizon it is in its last descending quarter so in that way it has reached the point the breaking point of the horizon where it begins to descend and that's the time for evening meditation.

I began activating some of the spheres above my head and replaced three of the spheres above my head and integrated one into the frontal lobe one into the limbic system and one into the instinctual layer of my brain and from that I then took higher up four different types of layers of the spheres that were more golden in energy the first three were more white golden in energy and integrated that into my heart field and then transferred both of them into the throat where they aligned and merged and began to stretch out patterns that were affecting the fields the five fields around my heart the five fields around my the center of the middle of the brain and from that these extensions from the throat center point of the throat the merging point between the heart and the mind or the heart field and as the center in the middle of the brain the mind field came forth what we call new rings that added a sixth layer to the five rings around the center point in the middle of the brain and for the five rings around as the heart field or the heart center point in the middle of the heart the heart vortex and the brain vortex and then they began to pulse creating an upright affinity sign to solve that one and then more energy sprung from the middle point the mid center in there's where we situate the throat and expand it out into fires which is this six ring times six rings that are met in the center point of the throat that's the thunderbolt that's how where that symbol came from because their energy chords that comes from the throat there it's difficult let me go further where that that the way that that shows itself is the thunderbolt and with that the six ring above and below the throat the heart the boundless this is the limitless center the throat is the limited center center where sound can be ordered from beyond so that's how that's to be interpreted and with that the what is called the Aditi layer it is not the Hindu goddess it is the Aditi layer the boundless the innocence the pure speech is the ones that have united the heart and the brain into or the heart and the mind into the cheetah the heart mind of the bodhisattva goes forth with the innocent speech and that opens up the layers to the Davis and to the different Dakini's not the Deva Kini the the multiple realms of the Davis so that's the that's where things become boundless and that is part of the first mastery of the limitless inner experience where cosmos yes it's just it's entering into the limitlessness that's the best way I can put it here as far as this one goes I need to check up the realms of the Buddhist cosmology my best guess is that these 12 rounds they are connected to the Deva realms but it also adds in the nine layers of the bio field that goes and if we add that up then it's the first 21 rounds so the question is the nine layers are they part of the the lower levels of the realms or is it behind and or above so I need to check that one out which I haven't so that's for later investigation but the first step here is to enter into the state of being boundless or limitless and at the same time also have innocence or the purity that goes with innocence and that is the meaning of the Hindu goddess which of course has been personified by the Vedas or the Vedic priesthood into a goddess which it isn't but it is a female energy and that's the first one that allows us to connect to the Devas which Deva means actually a male energy but it is this is the female version of the Deva kinis or the female Devas so you can say the Hindu gods are probably some kind of personification of these Deva energies which I will investigate further of course we have the Bela material that indicates that that works with the Bodhisattva and by that also talks a lot about the Deva energies as coming from Neptune and these kind of other realm the experiences that are connected to with what they call Bodhi but I will I will not begin to use that conceptualization I will work within the Buddhist cosmology as it has been presented to us so that's another level of this understanding so with this layer of boundless limitlessness and innocence which is a Trinity that is worth contemplating upon I will go further into the contemplation on these three words functioning as a Trinity that becomes a triangle that again vibrates and in each one of the corners of the triangle which is actually a Yoni a downright triangle the female vagina symbolizing the female energy or the force of that Trinity also sometimes explained as the void so that's interesting so we are here having the the downright triangle as a Yoni the female vagina but it's also the void from where their boundlessness can emerge with limitless innocence or the innocence of the limitless boundless energies anyways I'll look further into that one after checking the cosmology now becomes clear that the five rings around the center of the brain or the human realm and the administering of the five skandhas that are around their center point in the middle of the brain and since it is the Sun then it is the solar teachings of course that I am working with the five rings around the heart field is also the human realm the mastery of these the sixth ring that goes both with the heart field and the mind field are part of the first realm of the Davis both the female the males but mostly the female that are connected to nature we have the innocent creatures there all the nature Davis all of the little spirits the fairies all of these little beings that are under the four world corners of the four kings of the world which I have worked with for years as part of my own bodhisattva practice and then where kindness and innocence plays a huge role where sexual abstinence is a huge part of being able to connect to these beings so that the innocence and a non pervertedness are kept intact which is one of the reasons why it's often perceived by children children that have the abilities either due to past life experiences or on the path of the bodhisattva are already entered into the the six layers and the beginning layers of the the Davis that are under these realms the next layer is the 33 I see them as Buddhas because they are sitting in this meditation position but they are a type of Davis which I now know a class of Davis that are first solidified and via the different work as I have worked with here today as well becomes the cones of light that are a type of energy as well so we're here talking technically forces Davis our forces as well they can be personified they can take on features that the brain can interpret as a being as an entity but they are technically different forms of forces that are imbued with different forms of remains of original genetics from other places such as as I work within Wales some of the nature spirits are actually astral entities that have remnants of pleiadian genetics in them so this is also important to understand that that series of material I did there I have not posted that on YouTube mainly because working with the nature spirits demands a pure heart and a pure mind and many people have the tendency to pollute with their human features when they begin to work with these entities and this is why it all forces this is why it's called innocence and boundless and limitless because only the one that is pure heart and pure mind and have the voice of an angel as it said can work with these nature spirits and work with them in a proper manner that's the only way they trust you so these are again going into so so with that we also understand that the 6 plus 6 give 12 and then the throat gives 13 and we also understand that the seventh is the realm of the 33 positioned Davis that are meditating or contemplating on the realms of existence and the secret teachings as they are called the teachers in my my understanding of them so they teach about the concepts of if we go with the build-up again well then if the nature spirits are part of their sixth realm and the seventh realm is about their what we call the mental capacities then the sixth realm is about the vibrational field around the heart that goes with the innocence so these things are interconnected and again as when we work with the realm the spheres within spheres so thereby we add up the numbers and come up to different forms of classifications where we can jump between the different states of existence if we add 5 and 6 well then we get 11 if we add 6 plus 6 we get 12 if we add the throat we get 13 if we work with the 7 and the 5 then we get 12 so there are different variations of this that leads to the understanding how to work with the different layers of existence so that is also important to take into consideration and if I look up the the understanding of the different realms which I keep forgetting because it's it's a kind of build-up that's not natural to me but the kamaloka goes until the 11th realm and then the 12th realm that's where we begin the rupa lokas and the rupa loka is also divided into different which probably goes with the mind the nama loka as well as the the the rupa loka is as in the more subtle type of energies that goes with the heart so these are the different classifications of the devas that operate within the different types of systems so we are having if we're saying well the seventh is the the 33 gods as they are called the Tattava Timsara Deva which I call them the teachers the Yama Devas I have not much knowledge of they are within for me the eighth realm so they are a free of all difficulties I've not encountered them yet the ninth and the the tenth at the eleventh are not something I have worked with right here apparently Mara is part of the 11th realm and then 12 the retinue of Brahma and 13 the ministers of Brahma and 14 the great Brahmas so this is this is where we talk about 12 13 and 14 these are the Brahmas which would add up with how the Kalanthas are classifying their original realms and the different groupings that they claim to be the origin of where they come from because I'm pretty sure that the Kalanthas are similar to the ahats and or the dashi path which they call which goes with the Brahmans which goes with the Aryans so that's the lunar orientation of it and then we have 15 up to 21 that are Davis of different types of radiation energies different glory radiation and unbound and then from 21 and upwards there are these different types of beings that I don't know of either and then from 28 and upwards we go into if we go with this this cosmology the Arupa Loka where we have the formless beings that are the highest classification or actually where they cease to be beings since they are formless so in a way they become concepts of infinite space infinite confident consciousness nothingness and neither perception nor non perception so so this is these are some of the highest levels that comes from that so according to this we are again after the Brahmas we are having another class of Davis which are the ones that begins at level 15 and upwards so these are also interesting things to ponder upon whether or not they they will align with the information I'm beginning here in my meditation that's the good question right now I'm apparently going through what I already have achieved as part of when I've gone up in energy I've gone up to the spheres above my head where I've utilized that information both in meditation but also in practice but it had demanded type of altered state when I'm now beginning to integrate them as part of the fields that are now integrating into this physical vessel which is part of the the reconfiguration of the organic form and have transformed my bio field then it's taking the spheres above my head that were prior aligned with expanded fields that goes into the different realms the different types of other worlds and now beginning to work with it inside this physical form from where I will be able to achieve some of the different layers of knowledge and the principles of these knowledge and how to work with them in the practice of observation and focused attention meditation object envy and the resolving of envy vision first encounter Lord of the Rakshas Ravana coming up through the solar plexus and stomach area earlier today a very large snake very tangible Ravana or the Lord of the Rakshas is cannibalistic demonic feature with dark underworld sexual evil perverted energy black hairy got fangs bones around his neck hence the cannibalistic and he is also the the main antagonistic force that instills envy because he's counter all the Rakshas have a counter the Yaksas as well they have the positive side and the negative side the negative side is this underworld creature that rules envy and the wealthy in fairness is ruled and governed by him and his counter is this beautifully young-looking male that holds the this is part of the Thunderbolt path holding the the Vajra the Thunderbolt in one hand and the the bell in the other one of the bell is that the symbol of the yoni or the womb from where all phenomenon rises as we ring the bell or we we hit the ball the ball of the sound bowl then it it stirs up the underworld but it also creates the the phenomenon of the understanding of the rise and fall the cessation of all phenomenon so that's why we ring the bell that's why we we hit the bowl the meditation bowl both to to call in the four four kings of the four world corners which are also called the original or the the the five buddhas of compassion or the the exoteric call them the the activity the buddhas of activity that governs the four world corners including the one in the middle and the adi Buddha on top of that one so six they governed the womb of compassion from where all phenomena arises so the meditation is both the envy and the in fairness of the the distribution of wealth in the world as well as the wisdom to dissolve envy that goes with the womb of compassion from where all phenomena rises that leads to rebirth so that is the meditation object the mission is the five going into the place of the realm that is associated with this meditation and there are two dark black crystal pillars and the middle is a sphere of bluish white energy and everything around it is darkness that's the womb and then the challenge is do you dare go in there before that I came to that there was the scalar or the scale with my my heart in one and the feather in another one which is an interesting conflation of mythological creatures and a new business while meaning I was just again leaving a hell realm and crawling up and today earlier the snake told me that each religion has their own underworld and their own creatures to deal with so whenever we go into different levels of the the different approaches then we also go into the different cosmology of these different approaches since most of it is astral in a way the the great snake was a Naga and it kind of gave the feeling of that it perhaps or one of the snakes that were also teaching Naga you know in a ways I just solved it because it was very tangible the Lord of the Rocks is very tangible as well but the weighing of the scale again my heart is more golden the feather is light and that led me to this dark realm where I could move on and then the next test with these two black crystal pillars and the sphere of blue is white light in the middle and the test is do you dare enter and of course I don't care and the whole feeling of again when the weighing of the scale and who is asked if I'm ready for death and I say yeah if you want to kill me please do and that led to the next level so just as a if that's the case that's the case nothing I can do about it if they feel that that's the punishment that needs to be done then that's the punishment that needs to be done very indifferent and that is the correct approach to this it is in between the two oppositions it's not over emotional it's not over rational it's indifferent it is out of my control anyway so if these deities in the different realms have their and their test in there there are things they want to run me through the mill then so be it including Raksha which is a different type of the thing that is constantly making it difficult for me is is one of the one of the Raksha's actually that covers the northern hemisphere and he's tied to aggression and sexual energy so that kind of goes with him so this this is a matter of dealing with their opposition dynamics between the the four negative forces of the the technically the five negative aspects of the five positive aspects of the the forces that governs the world and these are often called the Dhyani Buddhas or the the activity Buddhas or the Buddhas of compassion all depending on what level we're working with them the when there are the at the Buddhas of activity they are put in the wheel of samsara in motion due to our wrongful choices when they become the Buddhas of compassion the releases of our karma and by that we can then move beyond and that's the medallion dollar I'm in right now that that cosmology that world that is governed by these Buddhas and the understanding of how to approach envy that has been instilled and is part of my life in my childhood I was in primary school with other kids that have a lot of wealth and I came from home with a little wealth which you know I was bullied by it being ridiculed for wearing the same type of clothes every day and not having enough money to have a huge wardrobe so my life has been this growing up in poverty and being in my robbed in my face that everybody else has more than I had and at the same time there's the other way around that people say you have more than we have and that is part of the envy envy for wisdom or envy for wealth the envy for wealth that's governed by Raksha the envy for sexual encounters the ability to be in meaningful or desire driven phenomenon as well as this is where the word phenomenon comes in because it's all about the forces drives us into different phenomenon where we get entangled in the forces that then drives forth different phenomena we are then to make the right choices similarly as when we talk about the Buddhas of compassion then it's the understanding that they again as we see the the rise and fall of these phenomena which is one of the four exemptions is that way that's the second that's where we understand that the way to weigh these things out it's not again I've the whole the symbol of the reason why I bring in the Thunderbolts because the last thing I got in the last meditation was the Thunderbolt symbol of my joint heart and brain which is the representation of male and female the masculine female forces that goes into the yoni or the triangle that then begins to spin and connects to the heart of the throat and by that sound sound changes as the unified field arises from the heart line and that's what's symbolized by the sound by the mantras by the chanting and you had by asking that chanting technically one of these fractures also going in heresy and I asked it has I in any ways or forms violated the original teachings and the answer is no and I ask have you in any ways or forms and the answer was no what was technically was the group that did it they had performed heresy and by that were not allowed to do that chanting so so that's that's one of the reasons why some of the things I'm dealing with right now so the trial is out on this understanding of envy and by chanting a very high leveled type of chant with people that have not yet mastered their own desires is seen as heresy because it's attempted to reach a level of knowledge that does not belong there so that's one step of it and that one that was just a warning which I dealt with but the other one is mine the envy that's mine and that was there too and I think that's the foundation of it's when we talk about money my foundation is the in fairness and envy so that's my meditation object so that would be the first one I will dive into so when we meditate upon the void as the womb of compassion the void of being this dark empty space where and then have this this seeing it with our third eye actually and with our heart mind and seeing it from the aspect of this is where all phenomenon arise and everything comes out of that similar as we have it in the the book of Genesis where the tahoma the void the chaos powers they rise they give rise to phenomenon and this this is where the Elohim they created light to to be the counter of this phenomenon of all of these chaos powers and the underworld forces and all the rakshas and the yakinis and all of these different deities or non-deities sewers and asuras and whatever we have of the the four realms beneath the human realm which is the fifth realm and that's why we've got five Buddhas of activity because they govern the human realm so we're having the sequence here of number five but we also have the four previous realms which are of course connected to all of the shells of whatever types of civilization that got lost in the negative energies and negative energetic outcome of the previous cycles but also of the timeline event as you know I am working within my teachings but they are they are what's got stuck in the different realms because of their choices because of their actions because of their wrongful use of energy that came as an opportunity from the timeline event so what is the timeline event what is the void the void is the the singularity that's where it arises that's that point in the cosmic realm where the effects of the timeline event comes and that's where the phenomenon that we are dealing with arises from so so that's the that's the scientific high order scientific explanation of that one but if we work with it as a meditation object to contemplate upon and understand a vital dynamic a vital force between behind the phenomenon and using this to not see it as the the the dragon's mouth from where all evil is spewed out but see it as the womb of where compassion can flow then we then we give it the right accretion the right type of energy we can gather from that understanding and feeling that deep compassion of we have been born we have been put into existence and we are here and as we get caught up in all of these emotional upheavals which I solved by going into the deep emotion and releasing it by feeling it and sensing it and with that then confronted raksha that was behind that that were trying to stir up these envy energies these energies of why does it have to be so difficult why is it so difficult to master the energies of this world and why do others apparently seem to master it so much better than I do and what do I have to do to live up to the standards of what I have put forth as part of the way I want to live life and what I have of understandings of what life could be compared to what life actually is and how do I balance that envy that comes in the the the lack of understanding because it's a lack of understanding I don't understand it so I feel victimized I feel empowered disempowered I feel envy envy is feeling disempowered feeling victimized feeling deprived and that goes then we desire when we feel deprived we then begin to desire we begin to crave something to fill the gap of being deprived so I allow myself to feel deprived to feel victimized to feel unfairfully treated as I also felt as a child remember feeling that plus the whole in fairness being reborn I thought I had mastered it in my previous life as a Buddhist monk I thought I had achieved what I needed to achieve I had pride so deprived deprived or deprived or feeling this in me feeling this unfairness and at the same time having the opposite of feeling no I was entitled to something else why haven't I achieved it facing that one head-on and say okay if I have that as a foundation then then of course I will feel envy then of course I will have these feelings of in fairness of course I will feel sadness and I will feel the victimization I will feel angry and I will feel all sorts of emotional ups and downs because of that foundational why am I here I should not be here in fairness I did everything right right I did everything right in my past life why am I still reborn who has done that who has pushed me into this rebirth not that I went out thinking I was enlightened or I had achieved Buddhahood or I had been something grand on the contrary I thought I had pushed myself into complete non-existence and by that were ensured by the other way of using the Thunderbolt path into complete non-existence that I would not be reborn and yet here I am again so envy of the ones that have moved on why am I still stuck here and that's what's behind the money issue who would have thought that being forced into existence which is with the teachings and with what one of the Buddha one of the 33 Buddhists as they turn into light cones gave me that exercise of feeling gratitude of being born gratitude of existing gratitude of yet again have come into existence so I had that I yet again can feel the compassion so I yet again can be the womb of compassion from where all the worldly phenomenon can find a resting place can I be in that compassion can I feel that care being a woman woman having the womb can I be that Yoni that Bell that sound that tone that goes in and give that enveloping safe space can I contain that so that chanting that you're actually I don't know of it but what I'm getting is that that chant I forgot what you said that could actually be a chanting on female energy in a monastery with overwhelmingly much a energy just a thought back to the the still point the abyss okay I will I will do the I can see it so I will do the exercise of literally walking into it I acknowledge I did not master the void yet I am reborn because of that I take full responsibility for my ignorance and my in capacity to fully grasp what the teachings were all about I acknowledge that I were ambitious that I thought I had it under control that I thought that I could master that there is also a bit of pride or perhaps feeling better than my own master which I treasure dearly there is a pride that goes in and as I get closer to the void there is a pride that because I get closer to this dark energy then I these energies spur up in me and then I can see this is this is what I had when I died I had also pride because I thought I had done better I had gone up against the Chinese government I had practiced at an attempt to achieve a balance point in the outer world as well I had perhaps tried to convince this is one of my themes in this life to really assure that we cannot teach others anything they're not ready for my master told me that my teacher told me that and yet I was still out there perhaps perhaps it's me perhaps it's someone else perhaps I'm picking up on some kind of perhaps that's why Raksha the Ravana he ended up there because that's his pride because perhaps he has instilled it in me he touched my stomach so perhaps it's his energies perhaps it's his pride that turns him into this cannibalistic devourer because he didn't deal with his pride perhaps as an affinity between my pride in my death moment and his pride that got him tied up to the underworld perhaps we're tied together through that pride to through that level of thinking the the ambition of thinking that we had achieved higher places of mastery than we actually had perhaps that's why he's targeting everybody who has this it's kind of a feeling of being allowed to administer a higher level of Buddhist thought and practices than we actually are entitled to because we have not reached that realm where these forces are ours to use in meditation and contemplation and in our practice of observation perhaps we're not entitled to use these powers because we have not rightfully earned them and in that we cannot claim the wealth of them so so that's also what I'm getting when I'm focusing on and as I do that I see him turn into a man and I see him turn into it's sad because in at behind as I'm also dealing with behind my anger there's sadness behind his anger there's sadness so that's the affinity so what is behind this pride this feeling in death moment where I thought I've done it yes I met the ultimate evil in forms of the Chinese soldier so since I die by the hand of the ultimate evil then I must have reached the ultimate compassion and by that these two forces will nullify each other and I can go into the void I can go back into emptiness I can cease to be a phenomenon in the world I can become void I can become empty I can cease to exist what a pride because that's not what enlightenment is is it that's the opposite that's using the power of knowledge to cease to exist in a manner that is self-destructive similarly as the Buddhist monks that are depriving themselves of food depriving themselves of everything instead are encountering why is it that they have the cravings does the depriving of the cravings lead to the enlightened state of the understanding of the craving or is it to go in and understand the craving what is the craving not chanting it away pretending that we can push away the evil forces that are the administrators of the cravings because the reason why we abstinence from the cravings is because we know there they are connected in the cosmology to the four rounds before the human realm hence the five Buddhas of compassion that are sitting there administering the realm of the humans because the human realm is where we exercise compassion that's our realm through crisis through phenomenon through different types of of testing through different types of mirages through different types of illusions through different types of entities and what have you so that we can rise up to the realms above us in this practice of mastering the realm of compassion so with that we also understand that the that void there is is a gate to the underworld it's a gate to the previous states of existence which is also another word of saying with the the underworld so if I go there I will go back in time I've been here before years and years ago I stood in front of the abyss which is another realm similar to that one the dark one the abyss is kind of where everything's get sucked into evaporation and cease to exist but the void that's like a black hole it's full of energy but it is it is an energy of nothingness of non-existence of being and non being of perception and non perception it is the ultimate place that we must go close and and see do we have affinity with that have we devoided ourselves of all of these cravings once we have mastered all these cravings then there will be no rising of all of these negative forces because they go with our cravings all of these entities they are craving something they're hungry ghosts they are the the the sexual beings the aggression the ones that wants to take things with force with violence with things that are not theirs to take because they do not master the understanding and the gratitude of being where we are in this moment in time and what we have become as another another place for us to learn to master compassion not compassion towards others that's just part of the journey but compassion to the process of rebirth itself the rise and fall of phenomenon the second exemption understanding that that being a phenomenon ourselves coming into existence ourself coming into manifestation as phenomenon of all the choices that we have made before of all the actions that we did based upon these choices based upon our cravings of trying to solve something to master something in itself to crave the ability to master something is a craving too that's also based why do we want to master this what's the point of mastering this do we want to master this because we want to elevate ourselves into a position where we can claim to be more than we actually are or is mastery the understanding of abstinence of trying to reach a master being a master or masterhood is it the the true understanding of even the achievement of trying to reach enlightenment is also a craving so can we crave the path of exemption and go into the path of liberation and go into this path of trying to achieve the highest possible state of mind in the practice of observation in the practice of reflection and in the practice of expressed wisdom and the practice of being in what we could call the true compassion the state of true compassion and it is rhetorical because of course that's a craving too why do we crave that what is it that makes us crave the the the the master mastery of the practice of observation why do we practice that what is the foundation reason reason for us to do that that's where all of these dark forces come in and play on our innocence but also on our secret desires to reach so we need to look into why do I want to reach this the truth of everything there is why do I want to reach this still point why do I want to go into the womb why do I want to experience all of these subtle phenomena that goes with the higher realms what is it that when I've experienced all the physical manifest realms of the human realm and I experienced all of the realms of the manifest the phenomenon of the four realms that were before the human realm the for the hell worlds the what's beneath us and I'm now mastering what is here in the fifth realm and I want to master what's in the sixth and the seventh and upward what is it that I'm craving and is that the true what we could call commitment to the work and the answer is again rhetorical of course not now this becomes very mental in these understandings but that's the practice of expressed wisdom so so how how do we in this contemplation and in this eradication of envy understanding that is driven by an entity itself that suffers tremendously from that the first compassion is of course for him so I need to find the that type of energy that is in the solar plexus that is tied to Ravana that leaves him to the the place where he can get his exemption where he can leave this reality where he can cease to be because the the realms beneath us they cannot release themselves they need they need guidance they need assistance they need someone who can shine that light without having that energy themselves so in that understanding as I I relieve him of his pride and I relieve him of his cravings and I acknowledge his hunger that constantly is there that constantly wants more that wants to devour whatever he can so he can keep himself in that position of believing that he still has the right to enter into the human realm because he's still interacting with humans even though it is in all the wrongful ways that he's getting his sustenance so in that way I'm looking at him I'm looking from my place of my third eye and my throat with the compassionate sound the vibration of the understanding of innocence and with the unified heart and mind in the balance point between male and female understanding the two female energy of compassion and sustenance and caring and where the new version of phenomenon can take place as again compassion itself rises and fall and comes to be and cease to be it is also phenomenon itself it's also forced like everything else so thereby we also understand the nature of compassion as being another force that also makes us realize that that's also based upon a type of craving exercising compassion is also a craving and as that is realized then Ravana ceased to be the monster because that was apparently his mistake seeing that if he only practiced that enough and with that come if you crave the the mastery of compassion and you practice that all the time and you let make that to be your life and then everybody else is not then naturally there will be that kind of moment later on at some point subconsciously or consciously perhaps in the moment of death where then the next phase the next state the next realm is not presented then anger must rise then some kind of distortion will come then some kind of opposition will rise up and that is what the rakshas and the yaksini are they are these dual forces that on one hand are like the carrier the giver the compassionate one and on the other side if they kind of swap around shapeshift they become demons and underworld creatures because they have a foot in between two and they can't really decide which one they are and by that they attach to human and create the dramas of the polarity because they are both so they can enter into humans that are both still that are both the craving and the pride the need the desire governed by the forces of the world and at the same time are seeking the compassion one of the other forces similar to going into when we talk about the thunderbolt path that we go between the womb of compassion that is the realm that we exercise compassion to master the challenges of the world what what a kind of ignorance that is and at the same time we're also seeing that we have the diamond realms the purity that where the adi Buddha the sixth Buddha presides because that that's again an exemplification of the five Buddhas of the realms we have one in four world corners the one in the middle and as they summarize themselves and center themselves in the middle then they rise to the highest level which is the adi Buddha or the adi Buddha can only have existence because the adi Buddha the first Buddha then unfolds the energies of pure wisdom into the other four Buddhas which then are utilizing this as the compassionate matrix that is superseded upon the fifth realm of the humans from where this can be put into action by the ones that are ready to enter into the mind stream the understanding of the true knowledge and the true practices of observation of reflection contemplation compassion and exemplified wisdom so the adi Buddha gives us this download from where exemplified wisdom will be the next ring in the middle of our head around the center point of our head where the power of the mind which is also an exemplification of this Thunderbolt will then be unfolded into true wisdom and then we have the Yoni or the bell we have the Yoni the triangle that is expressed as female force of caring compassionate the voice of the compassionate and we have the heart that is the bell sound of vibration that exceeds out as a breath out breath in breath life no life existence non existence being non being all of these a phenomenon that rises and fall and I have compassion I am compassion and here we can say I am but not as in in the word of of taking it as a personification but because we there go in and become part of that force of compassion that force of compassion resides in my heart in this heart that I have now as the beating life organ that is keeping this body alive and what keeps this body alive is in its basic foundation gratitude kindness compassion that's the path of the bodhisattva we keep getting reborn because we can hold this gratitude kindness compassion every time we get reborn in a world of in fairness injustice struggle all of these hungry ghosts all of these shells of lost lives all of these distortion of wrongful choices all of these cravings for mastery and power and the wrongful use of the forces all of these ideas and constructs of mind of why we exist and why we should exist and why we're being reborn and why we how we can do to not be reborn all of our foolish attempts in all of our rituals and our practices and our studies and all of these different crutches that we cling on to so that we think yes I can then supersede that yes I can then go beyond that yes then I am better than that miserable state I feel inside of me and that's where the compassion of all of this misery in all of these beings in this body itself turns into gratitude of existence in a world of struggle and misery and with that light I go to the void and say yes I have once more been spewed out of you and I remember being spewed out of the void earlier in earlier times and it is kind of when you go into the void it's kind of pralaya and you get spewed out and you come back into existence so I go there now and I look at it and say if it's my time now you consume me once again and I will be reborn one more time not because I know this is trick not because I know this is a kind of mental construction that if I do the opposition then I will master that energy no I seriously I am glad I'm grateful I remember being grateful for being reborn that was one of the things that my teacher told me in the meditation one of the first meditations that are when we recall that we are Bodhisattvas is the meditation object of gratitude of being in existence and with that we connect to the five Buddhas of compassion then we become the middle point from where the Adi Buddha then the wisdom path can unfold into our heart in our mind but with the thunderbolt we also have the tool of transformation it's not just about sitting there being a cone of compassion as many Bodhisattvas are they sit in meditation so that they connect to the Adi Buddha and by that becomes the exemplified wisdom and compassion in their meditation practice so that was the first thing my teacher told me but also that once we master that then there is this power of gratitude and the power of the understanding of the forces and how to work with the forces as I work with these forces I get very very warm because Ravana is struggling he is willing to go but have denial it's difficult for him to let go it's difficult for him to acknowledge his failure and I get closer to the void and with that me being ready to one more time entering into the void and be again reborn as another phenomenon as another life in another cycle in whatever form that will be appointed to me having this death moment not with pride as I did the last time and in a way I'm replaying my death at the time what I should have done replaying that one because in the the infinity realms there are no beginning there is no end there's only infinity there's always the possibility to go back into the original the initial choice replay it again acknowledge what was experienced there and what should have been experienced the exemplified wisdom going back into that moment of death where where we in that crossover in that transition made a choice and that's the choice I'm going back into as in go instead of going to the void with pride I now go to the void with compassion and the understanding am I to be reborn again then I will be reborn with compassion I will be reborn with gratitude because then I can one more time be at service for this world and I will one more time exemplify what it means to be truly compassionate without the craving without the ambition of being compassion but just by being compassion itself having that force in me because I understand that force of that force has chosen to reside in me from the womb of compassion the five Buddhas are in agreement with my energy system because I have become the same type of energy so I can reside in their compassion as well and by that I become a transmitter of that compassion and that I am enormously grateful for and if that means that I will be kept rebirth again and again and again because I can hold that energy then I am grateful for that too but I will also have compassion for myself and that makes me sad because that's a very heavy burden do I feel is it victimized do I feel victimized with that sadness yes why have I been chosen for that that's unfair that I am forced to ten times more rebirth than anyone else because I can do that then there's anger what's the point of that why am I being kept that why in fairness I don't want to be I don't want to have that that position I have not asked for it it's been given to me why is that part of me so so that's that's another conundrum and then there's another level of envy others don't have that I envy that they don't deal with rakshas that don't deal with your kidneys that don't deal with the underworld they don't release all of these shells and ghosts and distortion energies and lost souls and what is out there they're going around their everyday life they're happy apparently they are having all the human issues yes but they don't deal with this they don't sit as the carrier of this compassion and this weird conundrum of the same time dealing with these forces and at the same time being grateful for having the ability to do so the dichotomy in between states in between polarities what they have what I have so I think I had that issue with my teacher as well and I don't think he completed I have this feeling that when I was 13 or something he was he was taken away and I felt angry about that too I think that threw me off when I now look here at my death moment and look back what threw me off what made me go into politic activity which would go with the understanding of why I saw early in this life recognized that politics is all about personal desire and cravings as well it has very little to do with actual real governance of the world so perhaps I joined politics perhaps I left the monastery let's call it that the place where we lived because he died because I was angry because again in this world where we are practicing this for the joint good of all for the greater wholeness of our existence for being these these humans that are again and again choose to get reborn again again choose to go in with compassion and gratitude and take that burden on to us so that the world at least have these nodal points of pure compassion under the Adi Buddha cones of light exemplified wisdom and here I now reach a kind of still point resolving that anger because it wasn't fair and it was unfair and there was no reason for it now my stomach really makes a lot of noises hunger comes back up and I have to dissolve these thousand faces of all of these hungry rakshas and ghosts and underworld creatures push them back where they belong and anger comes up they come up to that's the burden of the bodhisattva because the the point of sitting in that compassion is that we're actually sitting in between what is beneath us and what is above us that's the whole still point in the vertical line of the meditation practice so when I lose my footing then I lose my still point and then I get torn into the different powers that I am trying to transform and transmute then I become aligned with these powers instead of actually trying to change mute them and then I lose my footing and then that leads to the the complete being dragged in to these different realms where these beings preside so I will do that clearing work right now it is said that sexuality is the attraction between two opposite forces that wants to unify so we have the physical attraction between males and females in biological forms the matter attraction whether that attraction is to create an offspring or it is to create a higher version of what males and females can be as representation of two opposite forces inside this world the point of the attraction of opposite forces is that they want to create a third either the point above that leads to the higher level of rising up elevation or the point below that drags it into the four realms beneath the human realm so the the work with forces as part of the Thunderbolt path is that deep profound understanding of how to transmute and elevate or transmute and dissolve so we have the physical attraction and then we have the the subtle attraction of the forces the subtle forces that are also attracted we can say the more gross or gross or dense form of attraction is in the physical form that leads to cravings and desires they can be transformed into a more subtle type of what is called aspiration and then again it is a desire but it is a desire to resolve it is desire to reach a higher type of energetic practice of how to make the different opposite forces meet up in a conjuncture in a still point in a meeting point where they become unified and that's the eightfold path that we then go into when we talk more about the subtle forces where we can see the in between state the middle point where we are not tying the bow too strong or making it too loose so if we're making it too loose we can't get any sound out of the lyre if we do it too strong then we break the the the threads that are producing the sound so we have to get it exactly right so we produce that sound that tune that tone that is also exemplified both with the bell with the the the singing bowl with the chanting with the producing of OM or whatever it is it's about reaching the perfect tone that rises reach this top as elevation symbolic representation of elevation and then subside and cease to exist because everything comes into being rise up for the next point of where we can reach higher or we just a low point from where it can cease to exist so that's the still point where we literally so the analogy of the the lyre or the bow that is put if if we use it as a bow we have still if we want to fire an arrow to reach what we want to fire to focus it that's another analogy so we have with the music instrument that leads to the correct tone that leads to that higher elevation processes of a vibration where we understand where compassion comes in as a vibration of energy as a force that fills our heart so that the tone we emit is strong if I can put that word it's it's it's the lyre is is completely fine tuned to come with the correct tone that leads to elevation so that's the heart feels the the process of the heart field is to reach that balance point of where the tone and that's where indifference becomes here indifference is not used in tranquility the balance point of true knowledge of true understanding of really knowing what this is that leads to that calmness that is the tranquility of exact knowing of exemplified wisdom expressed in that fine-tuned tone of gratitude of compassion of nurturing that aligns us with the Buddhas of the four world corners from where we get a true strength of the heart field also exemplified as the key asm where all past present and future gets unified in that tone of the true knowledge of our heart and then we have as the arrow as a bow where it's not used to hunt it's not used to kill but it used as a simple representation of the mind that that where the bow has to be tuned in a way so that when we do fire the arrow then it will go steady straight to its target wherever we pointed at that's the third eye that goes in and creates that type of force that springs forth it is soundless it has a slight whoosh as it moves through space where the tone of the Lyra is the circle around us that's our energy field whereas the arrow is moving forward where we set the arrow technically the the typical one how it symbolizes not it's not a horizontal shooting we actually shooting it up into the air where the whole exercise when we do that in meditation is that we shoot it up and then we see how far up can it go by our focused mind that sees how the arrow arrow just rises rises rises rises rises into all of the layers of cosmos until it reaches the endless nothingness where that itself also sees to exist as nothingness and then we still have our focused mind in that feature that is no space it's nothing and this is the difficulty of explaining what that is because that's another still point that is understood and acknowledged for what it is but again is beyond the ability to express it so we can use the Lyra as the symbolic representation of the perfect sound of our heart of knowledge that has that perfect tone that is so fine-tuned that it leaves us in the correct vibration all the time no matter what comes in that both can be used to dissolve but also can be used to elevate and it's also has the rings of the vibration of gratitude of compassion of kindness and most of all the true understanding of what it actually means to be that perfect sound in the world from where the four Buddhas around the four wheel corners will find themselves attuned and aligned with that perfect sound of tranquility and tranquility means true knowledge true understanding true wisdom so that we are certain so that we are balanced so that we are in the know and we know that in our heart and that gives us the strength of the heart and that makes the tone stronger when we doubt then the tone gets weaker and then we are no longer fine-tuned and we need to do the the exercise of fine-tuning our instrument and find out where is it that dissonance comes in what is it it is in our emotions this is our thought processes is this biological what is it that makes this sound I have in my heart this fine-tuned instrument what makes that go off and what has weakened the lyre or the strings of the lyre what has weakened its capacity to carry that tone so that's the the process of observation and the process of reflection and the process of introspection when we're talking about the heart field we'll talk about the mind and the mind to to shoot the arrow with our very fine-tuned bow as an instrument to reach the highest point of existence from where we understand all the realms because we focused on lifting ourselves higher and higher using the abilities of the center in the middle of our head the different types of rings around our center point in the brain that becomes more focused then that's the practice of another form of observation another form of reflection and another form of introspection where the goal is then the the true knowledge and wisdom that is in our minds that allows us to truly acknowledge things as they really are because we have the sharpened instrument that we call our ability to observe and reflect and understand and derive get to the goal of what we are seeking and looking for not as this is the end goal but understanding everything everything we reach and everything we touch and everything we focus on will become clear in one moment and then dissolve in the next but it can only dissolve if we truly understand what it is not that it evades our mind and slithers out and and we lose focus on it because as the true master of the arrow we can always create we can always move so we still have it targeted so we still have it in our light of focus and that's the third eye that's what that's for that focus focal point so we have these two another version of two opposition forces of the the feminist tone and then the masculine focusness so this comes into a focus which is the unification of that one as well that goes in and creates another level of the throat another level of what we're saying another level of what we're expressing because sound goes with tones goes with what we're coming out on mouth and at the same time also knowing that speech should be focused speech that's the speech of wisdom we talk for a purpose we are when we when we talk it's a focused arrow that has a specific function that is an alignment with true compassion and is an alignment with the true tone of knowledge in the heart so that's where compassion and wisdom can unify through what comes out of our mouth through what is going on in the midpoint of our throat chakra or the middle point between these two whatever we would wish to call that huge energy center that there can be the devourer of worlds as this big open mouth that consumes everything and destroys everything and distorts everything or it can become the life-giving Sun that gives sustenance and energetic assistance to all living beings so that's also part of the combination of the two forces where we could say that the opposition are attracted to create a different form of sexuality where the end goal is not desire but the own gold is the ability of focused attention focused contemplation and focus acknowledgement of who and what we are the last one is the the highest realm of sexuality where opposition forces are attracted to reach an either renewed state of existence or cease to exist altogether and that's the third exemption that goes into past lives and rebirth and the process of rebirth where we have where we go back in our death moment and investigate our death moment and look at what were the choices I did there what led what was who I was on one side of the gate compared to what I was to become on the other side of the gate that is I now leave this life I go through the void I'm being reborn again so that's the the opposition where the void is the middle point between the exit and the entry and the entry and the exit they are drawn together and technically creates the void so the craving of existence creates the void so that's why when we reach the the death moment and are standing there looking at the void if we go with gratitude and if we go with the compassion and if we go with what we could say forgiveness and if we go with the understanding of letting go and not clinging on to anything when we stand there and just looking at it and acknowledge see your life as it that's part of the life passing by the review of our life but in that before we go into the void not rushing in not not lingering on because then we'll just be pushed into limbo but taking that time that is demanded before we go not into the tunnel of light but the void is actually going into blackness so it's into something that's devoid of everything and it's very fear-provoking to stand there that's why many do not dare it's not about being afraid of going into the light who wouldn't go into the light that's easy-peasy no go into the void the darkness go into where you can see everything cease to exist you don't know what's the other end that's the challenge that's the gate and then knowing that whatever you are now what you ever you haven't achieved whatever you you have you are standing there in front of the final judge the true threshold between a threshold between this existence and the next the one where you really will be judged for everything you have chosen and every type of energy you have created and you then know at that moment it's too late because it's showing you this this is also what's called the guardian of the threshold because once you see that one in front of you it will literally mirror to you everything you are and that for some can be this horror show that then is what will push them into the underworld because they have created a type of energy so that the void cannot even consume what they have so they will be left in the previous cycles of their existence they are waiting for the rebirth because they can't go through the void so they are stuck there because of what they have done and since they're stuck there and they forget why they did what they did so they get completely lost and that's why some of us that are being reborn we keep afoot in our past lives so we have an opening to the underworld so with that also the understanding that those of us who choose to have that work we are always in between lives we are taunted by the void the void is part of us it's like the void lives in us it's as if we become the gate from where judgment can take place from where we can be the ones that looks upon these beings and still mirror to them you have still not learned your lesson you have still not acknowledged who and what you are you are still creating the same type of energies I now show it to you and in that also having the other side where the dichotomy says this is what you could be the duality showing them the other side of the coin which they know they are but they choose not to remain there they choose to slither back into the opposition of it and not understanding that these two sides of them can be unified like a genius head that can be unified into one whole head but then if they do that then that's where that then they reach their mid point of their dichotomy and that will drag them to the void where they then will be reborn with what they have achieved and many fear that so rather be a shape-shifting duality of two forces that has not unified they have not unified their their extremes they have not unified their deeds in inner contemplation and correct observation and the practice of what it means to release all of these distortion energies by see things as they truly are by working to achieve and the fine-tuning of the heart as well as fine-tuning the sharpness of the mind so that it becomes a clear arrow that goes whoosh again through the air without leaving anything than just the pure movement of focused thought that's the one that doesn't create distortion same with the tone of the heart that just emits out in vibration of a kindness and a compassion that also if it's the void of ambition and aspiration and I'm doing this to achieve something or I'm doing this to avoid something or I'm doing this because I'm too afraid to see the void so we need to look at death all the time to understand this is the void death is from where the next life arrives once we face death and once we do the practice of working with death in contemplation and not just as a kind of crumbling of our bones and the dissolving of who and what we are so we go against the fear and the need for preservation but actually go into a death moment and look at the void and say here I am again ready to go into a conscious entry and a conscious exit where I understand that everything I now take with me is something I have achieved in this life so that's where the stream of consciousness comes in between what we were and what we will become and what we are right now so that's where we can say that life as we live it to its fullest in compassion and wisdom we also understand that death is always in us we are the exemplification of the void as well because we as beings it gives rise to phenomenon we give rise to cause and effect we give rise to what comes and what cease to be we get rise to the existence of who and what we are by giving offspring producing offspring by producing thought forms by producing emotions by producing words whatever we produce we are constantly producing something using the opposition forces the attraction of oppositions for something that is selflessly oriented so the transformation of these attraction of opposite forces as man and woman biologically from heart to heart from mind to mind from within ourselves is this unification point of all of the oppositions to the highest version of what they can be and I'm not going to slip into here's the highest purity rate and high standards and highest progression rate but because it that is what it is but here we're working with the concept of what we could say is there the the processes of what it means to be a bodhisattva and what it means to be a Buddha and what it means to achieve both of these forces because not mastery it is the attainment of the correct practices that leads to the correct understanding of these forces that leads to the correct administration of our scandals and that's where we use sexuality the unification of the different forces where we lift them up to the highest possible version they can become we purify them in that process and we purify them with compassion with the right tone that comes from a heart from tranquility from being harmless and we purify it with the sharp mind with the right vibration of or the right radiation of the mental power in the understanding of a sharp mind produces enlightenment it produces true knowledge it produces true understanding and we are the exemplifiers of this but we are also the ones that unifies all of the forces that are working against this in ourselves and outside of ourselves so that's where I want to end with this one