This meditation has been created with the intention to help you access self-forgiveness.
When you don't have access to self-forgiveness,
It means that there are programs running within your subconscious mind that are based in the guilt and the shame that you are still carrying from the past.
These thought patterns and beliefs are contributing to feelings of low self-worth,
A lack of self-acceptance,
And not being deserving of what it is that you desire in your life.
So it's really important that we shift these programs and access love and compassion for ourselves.
Without this,
You will continue to carry those feelings of not being deserving or not being worthy because you haven't forgiven yourself.
So it's really important to address this so that you are not ruled by your past or by perceived mistakes.
You may not have known then what you know now.
You may not have had the strength or conviction to follow through with what you knew,
Even if you felt you knew better at the time.
You are meant to learn your own lessons as you move through your own journey.
You do not deserve to continue to punish yourself for your past,
Especially if you know that you would choose differently now.
We are constantly learning,
Growing,
And evolving.
It's important that we give ourselves room to make mistakes,
That we give ourselves grace.
So in this meditation,
You will begin to liberate yourself from those feelings of guilt and shame.
You will be able to free yourself from that heavy burden of the past,
And you can move forward in a more empowered way where you feel deserving of all that you desire.
So let's begin.
I invite you to find a comfortable position and close your eyes or soften your gaze,
Allowing the thoughts in your mind to fall away naturally as you tune into the rhythm of your inhale and your exhale.
Following the breath in and out,
Continuing to follow the rhythm of the breath as you come into a place of stillness within your body,
Within your mind,
And within your being.
Now imagine that you are in a beautiful,
Lush forest.
You hear the birds singing and you feel a soft breeze on your skin,
And as you look around you,
You notice that there's a small pond in the distance,
And you begin to walk towards it.
As you get closer,
You can feel that this pond has a mystical quality,
That the bright turquoise water has the capacity to heal and cleanse you.
So as you draw close to the edge of the pond,
You lie down on your stomach in the grass,
Overhanging the edge so you can see your own reflection.
Notice how you feel gazing into your own eyes in the reflection of the water.
How do you feel about yourself in this present moment?
How do you see yourself?
Create space for any thoughts or judgements or criticisms that come up,
Simply to be honest with yourself and acknowledge where you are now.
It does not mean that there is any truth to these thoughts.
It doesn't mean that you need to give them power,
But to just simply be aware of what is coming up for you in this moment.
Allow yourself to look into your own reflection and observe how you currently feel about yourself.
Not judging it as right or wrong,
But just being aware of what is.
And now your reflection in the water shifts to the version of you that made this mistake that you are seeking your own forgiveness for.
Perhaps it was only recently.
Perhaps it was a long time ago.
See that version of yourself in your own reflection now.
What was it that caused you to make this perceived mistake?
That perhaps caused you to act out of your integrity or out of alignment with your values?
Were you afraid of certain repercussions or how others might view you?
Was it an act of self-defense?
Was it to try to gain validation or affection from somebody around you?
Was it because you were afraid to face the truth and living in denial felt easier?
Take some time to look at what it was that motivated your behavior.
Can you put yourself in that position again and feel what it is that you are needing in that moment?
Was it love,
Safety,
Protection,
Or comfort?
Maybe you wanted to feel seen,
Heard,
Or understood.
This is not to justify or excuse the behavior,
But to acknowledge that it was driven by something and you had your reasons in that moment.
While this doesn't make it right,
It helps you to unlock more compassion for this version of yourself that acted in this way.
In recognizing that you are looking to have a need met,
Can you feel more love,
Grace,
And compassion for who you were when you made this decision,
When you acted in this way?
Bring your focus to your heart.
You may choose to place one or both hands on your heart and feel this love and compassion growing within you,
Within your heart,
As you look at this version of yourself in the reflection of the water.
Taking a few deep breaths,
Nourishing breaths,
Breathing into the heart space,
Feeling this love and compassion expand with each breath,
Sending it out to your reflection with each exhale,
Breathing in forgiveness,
And again sending it out with the exhale.
As you channel your forgiveness towards this version of yourself,
You begin to feel the energy shifting within you.
You know that the past,
Present,
And future are all interconnected,
And so by intentionally healing this part of your past,
You are not only influencing how you feel about yourself in the present moment,
But you are also expanding the realm of possibilities that are available to you in the future,
As you no longer feel this sense of guilt and shame,
And you begin to move from a place of personal empowerment and from a place of self-love.
As you continue to feel the energy within you shifting,
You remember the healing and cleansing properties of the water.
You step into the pond and fully submerge yourself for a moment.
When you come out of the water and take your first breath,
You feel like a newborn entering into the world.
You feel this new beginning,
This fresh start,
No longer burdened by the heaviness of the past,
By the weight of your own judgment,
Guilt,
And shame.
You let that go.
You let the water transmute that energy,
And you carry forward with a newfound sense of peace.
You make a vow in this moment to integrate the lessons that you have learned from this experience,
That you will use the wisdom you have gained to guide you forward and to help you choose differently next time,
In a way that won't require your own forgiveness,
But in a way where you will make yourself proud.
You feel this vow resonating within every cell of your being,
Bringing ease and comfort in the knowing that you are choosing to align with your values and your integrity,
Knowing the inner peace that that will bring when you use that to guide all of your actions moving forward.
And while this will help you make better decisions in the future,
You also recognize that you are human,
That you may stumble and fall and slip up,
But through it all,
You deserve compassion,
Love,
And forgiveness.
So remember to give yourself grace.
It takes repetition to reprogram the subconscious mind,
So if you have been punishing yourself for a long time,
Feeling unworthy or plagued by those thoughts that feed those cycles of guilt and shame,
Come back to this meditation.
Repeat it as often as necessary so that you can fully reprogram those thoughts and anchor into this new reality where you wholeheartedly love,
Accept,
And forgive yourself.
You are not your mistakes and you are not your past.
You are loved,
You are strong,
And you are worthy.
