We'll be doing a tapping today on not knowing what to tap on,
Not knowing what to say,
Not knowing what to feel.
If you'd like to close your eyes,
I'm just gonna do a short prayer.
Dear God,
Please do your will for this tapping session.
Please say the words that we need to say.
Please help us release what we need to release and receive what we need to receive.
So I did not prepare what I'm going to say.
I'm going to allow the tapping to lead me and I'm going to allow higher power to lead me.
So we'll start with the Karate Chop.
I don't know what to tap on today.
I don't know what to feel.
I don't know what to say.
All I know is I want to feel some relief.
Eyebrow.
I don't know what to tap on.
I don't know what to feel.
I don't know what to say.
I don't know.
I don't know how to tap.
I just heard that tapping was good so I'm trying it out but I have no idea what to say.
Am I even doing this right?
I'm confused.
I don't know how to tap.
I think I feel some emotions.
I think they don't feel very good.
I'm not sure because I'm so used to feeling these emotions.
Are they good emotions or bad emotions?
I'm sorry.
We'll add in the back of the hand.
I don't know what to feel.
I'm confused about the emotions I have.
I'm confused about what to do with them.
I just know I have emotions.
I wish they would tell me what they are.
What are your name emotions?
What are you feeling right now emotions?
Am I supposed to be feeling this way?
Is this good emotions?
I just know I'm confused right now.
I don't know what to say.
I don't know what to tap on.
If I really didn't know what I was going to say then how am I saying words right now?
Maybe this is exactly what I had to say.
Maybe it's okay that I don't know.
I don't know but I'm still doing an action right now.
And this action I can just do it mindlessly.
I can just tap and not say anything if I don't want to.
I can just tap and not feel anything if I don't want to.
Because I know while tapping something is happening inside of me.
At the very least I'm gonna be able to breathe better.
At the very least my blood will flow better.
So even if I don't know what I need from this tapping right now it's okay that I'm just tapping.
I don't always need to know everything.
If I need to know something I choose to trust higher power.
The higher power will just tell me what I need to know.
So right now I don't know.
That's okay.
Because I'm still doing a loving act for myself by tapping on my body right now.
I don't know what to feel.
Maybe I can talk to my emotions directly.
Maybe they just want to be quiet today.
That's okay.
I can still ask them what's going on if I want to.
Or I can just tap and not say anything and that's okay.
I'm just tapping on my body.
I'm just tapping on my body.
I don't need to know what's happening.
I just know I'm tapping on my body.
I don't know what I'm feeling but I know I'm doing a loving act for myself by tapping on my body right now.
Maybe I can try asking my emotions.
Hey emotions what are you feeling right now?
What are you going through right now?
And if my emotions tells me what's wrong then I can just sit here and listen.
I don't have to do anything about it.
I can just listen and that's okay.
I can just sit with my emotions and that's okay.
Maybe my emotion told me what's wrong.
Maybe my emotion decided to be quiet.
Maybe my emotions are happy.
Maybe I'm not used to being happy.
So it's kind of weird if my emotions are happy.
But I decide to be happy for them.
I choose to let my emotions feel what they need to and I can just sit here and be happy for them.
I can just sit here and listen to them.
If they don't feel like talking that's okay.
Because at least I'm bettering my breathing right now.
At least I'm working on my better blood flow right now.
Whatever emotions needs to feel I'm going to choose to trust that they will feel in the right time.
If I don't feel anything right now I'm going to trust that that's what it's supposed to be.
I am choosing to trust.
And choosing to trust does not mean that I already trust right away.
Trust takes time.
Even trusting my own self.
Even trusting my own body.
And even trusting my own emotions.
Trust takes time.
So I will give myself that time.
I will not give myself a deadline.
I will allow the trust to flow on its own.
But the first step of trusting is choosing to trust.
I choose to trust.
Because I deserve my own trust.
My emotions deserves its own trust.
So whatever I'm feeling right now,
Whether I know what I'm feeling or not,
I'm going to choose to trust that that's exactly how it's supposed to be.
If I feel some numbness maybe that's just my way of protecting myself.
But I'm going to tell my numbness right now you are allowed to feel.
Whether you think it's too painful or whether you're just scared to feel,
I'm giving you this space right now and telling you that it's safe to feel.
And just because I know it's safe to feel doesn't mean I'm going to feel it right away.
Feeling safe also takes time.
But I'm doing the first act by letting myself know that it is safe.
By letting my emotions know that it is safe.
I am building a safe space for myself right now.
And one way I'm doing that is by tapping on my body right now.
I don't have to do anything else.
I can just continue tapping.
I don't even have to say anything if I don't want to.
I can just tap.
I can just tap.
I can just tap.
I can just tap.
I can just tap.
I don't have to force myself to feel.
I don't have to force myself to say anything.
I can just do what feels good to me right now.
Allowing myself to do what I want to do or not do what I don't want to do is one way I am building trust with myself.
That's one way I'm creating a safe space for myself.
By giving myself the freedom and by trusting the decision I have made in this freedom.
Whether it's to say something,
Whether it's to feel,
Or whether it's to just quietly tap.
Whatever I'm doing in this moment is exactly what I need to be doing.
And how I know that is because I'm doing exactly what I'm doing right now.
If I were meant to be to be doing anything else,
I would be doing that something else.
But I'm tapping on my body right now so this is exactly what I'm supposed to be doing.
And I choose to give myself that freedom.
I choose to love myself and choosing to love myself does not mean that I already love myself.
That's okay.
Love takes time.
Love should take time.
Because I want to feel safe when I love.
And safety takes time.
And trust takes time.
And therefore love takes time.
I do know I deserve my own love.
Whether or not I feel that love for myself right now,
That's okay.
Because I am deciding that I deserve my own love.
And that is a very big and first step to loving myself.
I choose to love myself.
I choose to trust myself.
I choose to feel safe with myself.
Because I deserve that.
I am connected to higher power right now.
And I know that because I'm breathing in oxygen.
People say that higher power gives us life.
Well I know that oxygen gives me life.
So if I don't know a higher power yet,
But I do know that oxygen gives me life,
Then maybe to some extent,
Maybe I do know what higher power is.
At the very least higher power gives me life.
And right now I am alive.
And I am breathing in oxygen.
And so maybe I'm connected to higher power.
At the very least I'm connected to oxygen.
And I am grateful for the oxygen.
Because of the oxygen I have life right now.
And I know the oxygen that I'm breathing,
Other people are breathing it too.
And maybe that means we're connected.
Or maybe just means we share something.
We share the substance that keeps us alive.
We share what gives us life.
That means I'm not alone.
And whenever I do feel alone,
I can just remember that I'm breathing in oxygen.
And I'm going to remember that billions of people are breathing in that same oxygen in this very moment.
So I'll choose to remember that I'm never alone.
I'll choose to remember that I'm always connected.
And choosing to remember I'm not alone doesn't mean that I don't feel alone anymore.
It just means I'm taking the first step to believing that I'm not alone.
Taking the first step to believing that I'm always connected.
So I choose to believe that I'm always connected.
And I choose to love myself.
And I choose to feel safe.
And I choose to trust.
And all that came from just this tapping session.
And whether or not I feel all these things doesn't matter yet.
Because I'm taking the first step to feeling them.
And taking the first step can sometimes be hard.
But all I have to do is tap on certain points in my body.
I don't even have to say anything.
I know I'm already taking the action.
And I know I'm already taking the step.
And I choose to trust the process.
And I choose to love myself.
And I choose to accept myself exactly as I am.
And I choose to love and honor my body.
I choose to love and honor all my emotions.
I choose to love and honor myself.
And I choose to love and honor life that gives me life.
In my body.
In my mind.
In my heart.
And in my soul.
And if you'd like to take a deep breath.
And breathe out.