Welcome beautiful souls,
Powerful beings,
Spiritual leaders in this world.
Welcome back to another guided journey and meditation from my heart to yours.
Today's experience holds a special intention to help you with family emotion,
Supporting your big heart within family dynamics that may feel heavy,
Tense,
Triggering,
Especially if your parents are aging,
If there are deep attachments,
Expectations around how either they should or should not be right now and even how you should or should not be in relationship to them.
This practice is here for all of it to give you the space,
The clarity and the compassion to step forward.
So with all of that,
Let us begin and you can start this meditation and this experience either sitting or lying down in your beautiful meditative nest,
Place where you feel safe and calm,
Closing your eyes,
Letting your body settle,
Letting all the thoughts moving through your mind either continue and you accept them and allow them to move or maybe you start to notice them already starting to come.
Either way,
Take a big deep breath with me in through your nose,
Out through your mouth and start softening,
Loosening,
Freeing yourself up as you drop a little bit deeper into the surface that holds you,
Whether it's a bed,
A mat,
A cushion,
Bringing your beautiful attention,
The observer that is you,
Bringing attention to any tightness,
Any heaviness in your shoulders,
Your belly,
Your jaw.
With each inhale,
You create space in these areas and every exhale,
You let go.
With each inhale,
You invite in more of your presence and each exhale,
Release any heaviness.
Continuing to a breathe at your own pace with ease,
Bringing awareness and your attention to any current family expectations,
Projections or stories that bind you and allowing your breath here in this moment to be a breath to be the conduit in which you transform and alchemize these expectations,
These projections,
These stories.
As you breathe with so much light and love,
Allow yourself to acknowledge that family,
Your family always has the possibility to bring up deep emotion,
Deep tensions,
Triggers,
Resistance and often unspoken expectations.
You may find yourself wishing things could be different,
Wishing that things could change.
You may feel the ache of unmet needs or perhaps like most of us,
You carry the burden of responsibility,
Especially with a parent or this particular loved one starts to get older,
Starts to fall deeper into their old ways of being.
So it is here we can take a simple breath to simply acknowledge.
This simple breath helps you to acknowledge that you do not have to fix it.
I repeat,
You do not have to fix it.
You do not have to judge it.
You only need to witness it.
And within this witnessing and this creating of space and injection of loving observation,
Allowing your presence,
Your knowingness to take up more space.
With me now,
We're going to continue this guided experience,
A bit more internal visualization.
So I invite you in your mind's eye to imagine yourself standing in the middle of your family home.
Around you are all the people,
All their energies,
All their expectations,
All of their stories.
Now with me,
See a beautiful golden light wrapping around you,
Wrapping around you like a shield,
A cocoon,
Protective,
Loving,
Steady.
In this cocoon,
In this shield within your family space,
You are allowed to be yourself here.
You are allowed to breathe.
You are allowed to step back when it feels too much.
You are allowed to speak that which is on your heart that you were restricting.
And as you continue to see this,
Notice how the golden light softens the edges of any tension.
It doesn't erase your family or their feelings or even their stories or expectations.
It simply reminds you that you are whole,
You are safe,
And you are the creator of your reality,
Even in the middle of all of this.
Breathe in deeply.
Breathe in deeply.
And this time as you exhale,
I want you to imagine,
Still in this room,
Still in this house,
Imagine letting go of every should,
Every should that connects to,
They should act differently,
Every should that connects to,
I should be able to handle this better,
Every should connected to,
They should understand me.
Let all of these shoulds dissolve and release through your breath into the air,
Like a water vapor moving towards the sun.
Here in this moment,
You do not need to carry them anymore.
Your role is not to control.
Your role is to love yourself through all of this,
To hold yourself through all of this.
And as you love,
As you hold,
Is here we can apply one of our super powers,
One of the petals of our heart lotus,
That of compassion to our parents,
To your parents,
Your loved ones,
The ones that are aging,
The ones that are stuck in patterns and stories and expectations.
We breathe in compassion and send it forward.
Breathing in,
Breathing out,
Sending it.
Breathing in that compassion.
Breathing out,
Sending it.
As this compassion is sent to your loved ones,
To your parents,
Continuing your visualization,
I invite you to see them as children.
See them as the once vulnerable,
Once learning,
Just as you are forever still learning.
See the ways they may have been shaped by their own wounds,
By their own fears,
By their own limitations.
Remembering that this compassion and this deep seeing does not mean agreeing,
Does not mean abandoning your boundaries and where you draw a line in the sand.
It simply means recognizing their humanity,
Recognizing their sameness while honoring your own.
With ease and grace,
Breathing this in.
Continuing with softness here,
It's time to bring your beautiful awareness back into your heart center.
This time,
I guide you,
I invite you to see to the left of your heart,
The left of your chest,
Your maternal,
Your mother line portal.
This portal often is a circular glowing sphere,
Holding the threads of your mother energy,
Of receiving,
Of nurture,
Of all that we hold onto in relation to cords down our mother line.
Observe it,
Acknowledge it,
And now continue this time,
The other side,
To your right,
To the right of your heart,
Feeling your paternal portal,
Your father line,
The opening that connects you to your father's thread,
Holding that energy of direction,
Of protection.
And with deep sensing of both of these energetic containers,
I invite you to breathe in and as you do,
Expanding and allowing any stagnation to flow out.
So breathing into these portals with me,
And breathing out,
Clearing.
One more,
Breathing into both of these portals,
Breathing in,
And breathing out,
Clearing.
And continuing here for a couple more rounds of that same breath,
Each time inhaling love and light,
Expanding these portals,
And each time exhaling,
Releasing any burden that is not yours to carry.
Letting these two streams,
These two energetic openings,
Maternal and paternal,
Find and come back to harmony through your heart,
Softening into balance through your heart.
And now with me in your internal dialogue,
Let us repeat these family emotion affirmations.
I honor my feelings,
Even in the presence of family tension.
I release what is not mine to carry.
I can love without losing myself.
And I allow compassion and boundaries to flow together into my heart.
In balance.
Allowing these words to echo through you as we begin to close today's portal,
Today's experience with some gratitude.
Continuing your breath slowly and easefully,
Offering gratitude by placing your hands on your heart,
Firstly to yourself for showing up,
For giving yourself permission to find peace,
Even in the midst of family storms.
Offering gratitude for the safe inner home that you always carry inside of you.
A home that no matter what your external home is reflecting,
Is here to come back to your truth.
And a final gratitude,
Not for perfection,
But for the lessons,
The mirrors,
And the love that continues to guide your path.
When you're ready,
With so much appreciation and celebration for yourself in today's experience,
With ease and grace,
You can begin to gently wiggle your fingers and toes,
Bringing your awareness to your body and open your eyes,
Carrying this presence with you today.
