Welcome,
My name is Epiphany Mason and I'm a meditation therapist.
It's my honor to guide you through this meditation today.
I'm so sorry that you're going through this right now,
That you've lost something or someone or the idea of how your future was going to look.
I'm so sorry,
It's very,
Very painful to be grieving.
Today this is your grief window.
I'm offering you approximately 10 minutes where you get to release,
Where you allow yourself to feel everything you need to feel.
And this is made easier because after the 10 minutes you are going to keep going with your day.
You can reassure the part of you that resists your grief because it thinks it's going to tackle you down,
That this is only 10 minutes,
It's a window of time and after it you will keep going.
Let's begin.
An invitation to imagine your big,
Hard feelings as horses in a stable and they've each got their passioned off stable,
A little nook for each of them and you can see them all in there.
You've got despair,
Hopelessness,
The part of you that misses.
You've got the horse of self-pity,
There's anger,
Confusion.
You see all of your horses tucked into their stables with the doors closed.
You keep them here because they're quite difficult to manage when they're not confined.
And I understand that,
I get it.
It's important sometimes,
It's how you do keep going.
But you know that these parts of you,
These horses,
They need to have a run around.
They need to get out of their stables and be free.
Every now and then,
This is for their health,
This is for your health.
But when we don't allow ourselves to grieve,
Things lodge and it's through allowing the process of grief that they begin to lift and move through us.
So just for these few minutes together,
I invite you to unlatch those stable doors and let your horses run wild.
Let each one out,
Whichever ones are calling to you loudly today.
This is permission you're giving them to be free.
This is permission you're giving yourself to feel,
To be as you are.
This is your time to express yourself fully,
Use your voice,
Scream,
Wail,
Cry,
Let it out.
This is your time to comfort yourself physically,
Wrap yourself up in a blanket,
Hold yourself tight,
Maybe just place a palm on your heart and see what needs to be released as you call it forward.
Now is the time to say the words you've been holding in.
This isn't fair,
I'm not okay,
I miss you,
I miss what I wanted to happen.
Say whatever you need to say,
I'm angry,
I'm not okay.
Full permission right now.
Release,
Release,
Release,
Let all of the horses out.
Watch them be free.
Watch them run as fast as they can right now.
This is your moment to go all the way,
Go exactly where you need to go,
Scrape your barrel of grief clean by emptying it all out.
I want you to watch your horses,
See how in confinement they were restricted but in freedom there is flow.
They are calming down as they have more permission to exist.
This is the process you are offering your grief right now,
By giving it just a window of time to exist.
It too will soften eventually,
Eventually,
No rushing,
No rush.
You are worthy of this time to mourn,
To be sad,
Dear one,
For I know you are strong too and I know you are capable too,
But I want to gift you this time to not be any of those things.
To feel what you need to feel,
I'm here,
Let it out.
Allow it to swell,
Allow things to flow.
Some feelings and emotions may inflate and wash over you,
Notice all of this.
Allow all of this to happen,
You know you will keep going after this meditation finishes.
But these are your moments and minutes right now where you don't need to hold it together.
You don't need to hold on to anything right now.
Effortless,
You can be effortless here and show up exactly as you are,
A feeling being.
You are doing so well,
You are doing so well,
This is hard.
Take a deep breath inhale,
Exhale big release.
You may have a minute or more to yourself once we finish this meditation.
Take it to soothe yourself,
To cup your own face in the palm of your hand,
To drink a glass of water,
To hold yourself.
Grieving can be fatiguing so take additional rest if you need it.
I'm proud of you,
You've done really well.
You're not alone,
We're in this together.
Beautiful.
Slowly,
Slowly cracking open the eyes and coming back to this space together.
My name is Epiphany Mason and it was a privilege to support you today and I look forward to supporting you again.
