I Trust My Process

Trust is a velvet dark space where we can create freely and openly, without bounds we may rebuild our desire and ignite the senses. My hope for you is that this practice will open a space in your heart, body, experience or mind that has been closed for too long. May all beings be wild and free.

Transcript

Spiritual practice requires patience.

Mm-hmm.

Spiritual practice requires patience.

So true.

To relearn how to be patient with ourselves as we've developed outside of our lines.

Outside of the way that we feel like we should be.

Or when we have feelings that diverge from everything that we're told to become.

If you have dreams that don't match your family's desires.

If you have ideas that are different from your culture.

If you have friendships or relationships or work ambitions that are different from what you think you're supposed to have.

You need patience to invite in the universe for co-creation.

So that you can re-pattern all of these fear-based decisions.

All of this scarcity consciousness.

Exchanging it for abundance in your energy field.

In your personal field.

And so we all have a space around our body that we can claim.

Regardless of everything else,

There's always the space immediately surrounding you.

And the space on the inside that is infinite.

The inside space.

And so the outside space has a lot of opinions.

The outside space has a sense of obligation.

Has a sense of responsibility and doing and producing.

It's very yang.

The inside space is very different.

It's softer.

It's more forgiving.

It's very creative and very yin.

It's more about receiving.

You're an antenna on the inside.

When we practice meditation,

We bring this beaconing outwards.

We start to learn how to demonstrate that which we desire on the outside.

Because we learn as children,

As young adults,

As humans,

To show a certain side of ourselves for certain situations.

And we have a lot of trouble reconciling the different sides of ourselves as they get more and more separate.

So if you have a very creative spirit and you're in a very linear place of work.

Or if you have a very linear spirit and you're in a creative family dynamic.

These things will create a sense of conflict.

And the inner being,

That space inside,

Magic space inside,

Wants to reconcile because it knows that you are already free.

As we chase liberation with our money,

With our time,

With our person,

Place or thing.

We regret to notice that there is always freedom on the inside.

That there's an ownership that we can take in that space that's ours.

And so today our practice,

Working with trusting this process.

And so trust is something that gets broken with life experiences and needs to learn how to be repaired.

And so perhaps you've had a seamless life.

I'm very happy for you.

Most of us have had one or two,

Maybe 208,

Blips on our radar.

And our beacon has been interrupted.

Our inner antenna veers towards the safer choices rather than the authentic choices.

And there are times that the authentic choice is the safer choice.

Sure,

That happens.

But most of the time when we're walking into the fires of self-discovery,

We feel that heat and we become afraid.

Mijee,

Spiritual being from the cosmos directly,

Speaks of this.

He says something like,

As you walk into the fires of self-discovery,

You have to trust that what's burning away isn't you anyway.

And so as you practice meditation,

As you develop your own method for your own madness,

There are these moments where the heat gets really intense.

And we have to accept that that which is burning away isn't us anyway.

And the mortality and the ego and the persona,

The,

Well,

If I change,

Everything else has to change kind of pressure,

Will prevent us from diving into our practice in an authentic way.

And so allow the eyes to close here,

Find a seat and allow the eyes to close and just see how it feels on the inside.

See how it feels to look behind the eyes into this velvet dark space,

Into the space where we can't see,

But we know,

We feel.

And so the eyes are closed now,

But when the eyes are open normally,

There's a sense of distance between you and the object.

When the eyes are closed and you're on the inside,

There's not as much of a gauge available.

It's as if you were the same as the object.

The line between you and other thing is either non-existent or not definable.

It's easy to manipulate.

You can become it.

This is why when we live in memory or when we live in projection,

When we use our past or our future to define our now,

We don't feel connected to it.

This is why we disembodied so easily and we go towards our coping mechanisms.

We go towards our comfort zones.

It starts to get a little bit hot and we go for the cooling.

We go for the stop it,

Please.

I'm not ready.

But what you're really saying when you do that is I don't trust myself to handle that which the universe is giving me.

And that's because of a few things.

It's because you don't trust the decision that you've made because it wasn't authentic.

It wasn't what you really wanted to do and you don't feel confident.

Or it's because it's someone else's energy and you're trying to use it as your own.

Option C or option three is a combination of those two.

And so notice this in your body right now.

My eyes are closed.

How am I feeling in this moment?

How am I feeling in this moment?

And if there is a sense of unease,

We'll breathe with that.

And if there's a sense of confidence,

We'll breathe with that.

If there's a sense of trepidation,

If there's a sense of hunger,

If there's a sense of curiosity,

We'll breathe with all of that.

And we'll repeat internally in the region of the heart.

I trust my process.

We'll pair it with a breath meditation.

And so first,

With the eyes closed,

We're scanning our body.

We're finding the feeling.

We're finding the adjective about what's going on inside as our mind can offer it.

Scanning,

Scanning,

Scanning.

You might already know.

Breathing with that.

Holding that in the space of the heart.

And then as you breathe in,

Internally repeating,

I trust.

And as you exhale,

My process.

Breathing in,

I trust.

Exhalation,

My process.

You keep breathing.

I trust my process.

Just working with this phrasing.

Feeling it in the region of the heart,

The space of trust.

Space of forgiveness.

And space of openness to the limitless nature of the wellspring within.

I trust my process.

You keep going.

You keep repeating.

And I'll keep time.

And I'll come back in just a short minute,

A short little bit,

While you reprogram your inside.

I trust my process.

I trust my process.

I trust my process.

I trust my process.

I trust my process.

Taking the attention to the region of the heart.

Feel your heart.

See if you can sense your heart beating inside your body.

Inside your body.

I trust my process.

Three more rounds of breath.

I trust my process.

I trust my process.

I trust my process.

And like a wave washing on the shoreline,

Release your breath.

Release your practice.

Keeping the eyes closed.

Remember the room around you.

Remember the room around you.

If you feel called to stay,

You could stay.

Otherwise,

Softly let the eyes start to open.

Let the gaze soften.

Just notice how the open eyes see and how the closed eyes felt.

A few more exhales before you start moving.

This is Freedom from Moonbeam Meditation.

I am so honored that you practiced with me today.

Thank you for offering me a piece of your practice.

In gratitude to you,

I bow forward.

Namaste.

Reviews

Incredible clarity I gained throughout this meditation. Thank you for showing me a new perspective on what I’ve been feeling and experiencing lately!

Thank you, Freedom. 🙏 I really enjoyed this simple practice, affirming trust in my intuitive process. 💜

I began with some caution, as so many mention a long intro. But your approach, your wording and the calm that enveloped this meditation revealed new ideas, new ways of looking. I will bookmark this and return to it. Thank you very much.
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I wrote that review two years ago. Today I feel the same way only stronger. I was tied into knots yesterday preparing to teach a class. I was frightened. But this meditation, and Freedom's measured, loving meditation changed everything. I will return ! Namaste.🌿

Interesting style of meditation, using the closed eye difference in perception. It resonated for me. "I trust the process" mantra also struck me as a teachable moment. It took me deeper. Different types of meditation guidance is a nice change.

Loved this one! Thank you for helping me remember to trust myprocess, rather that I can trust it.

That was the gentleness I needed to continue with my process. Thank you 🙏

Excellent guiding practice. Thank you Freedom for this gentle awareness of connecting within. ✨🙏🏼😌

Really enjoyed the tone of this. Warm, kind and patient. Will return when in need of a meditative hug! Thank you, Freedom 🙏🏽🌸

I treasure this! I’ve had difficulty trusting MYprocess This exercise is answered prayer .Thank you Freedom 😊🙏🏻💗💫

I really enjoyed this session, it lead me to think about topics that I'm looking forward to express through my sketchbook!

I really enjoyed and opened to a deeper connection with this meditation. Thank you!

Love the pace, volume, length, message. Everything. Thank you!

I feel more grounded than ever thank you for helping me journey back to myself!

Wow thank you so much🥰. I did something so difficult today, I actually followed my heart which left me feeling so scared and a little hurt. I didn’t understand why, but I think it’s because we’re not used to making decisions following our hearts. This beautiful meditation gives me the motivation to trust again, to remind myself to trust that following my heart was the right thing to do.

Beautiful voice, good guidance, wonderful affirmation. Perfect for my morning. Thank you 🙏🌸💚🤍💙💕

Very grateful for this meditation, your voice is beautiful 🌟 thank you!

...I can feel the trust inside my heart..thank you so much..

Love this one : )
Thank you and Namaste, Freedom ~
Hope to see a book one day...
~Andy

Love the meditation. Sometimes there were some distracting sounds in the recording. Content was lovely. 🙏

Thank you 🙏🏼♥️