Exercise Your Feelings

Today,

I want to focus on exercise and not exercise of the body,

Although that is much needed.

We know that we have more energy and more happiness and more vitality when we're running and walking,

Swimming,

Dancing,

Moving.

It fuels us,

Motivates us,

And it makes us feel fine.

So I'm not talking about that,

And I'm not even talking about exercising the mind,

Which is also needed for us to stay sharp,

For us to have confidence that we can solve problems and step into challenges.

It faces for us to be able to express our creativity in a way that is meaningful for us.

I'm talking about exercising feelings and how this is a gap with a big hole in the middle,

Because often when we're talking about exercising our feelings,

We do it from polar opposites of extreme exuberance or extreme anger.

We can express those in fleeting moments that seem to pass too soon and often forget what we say.

But when is the last time you've sat with your feelings?

Swam with them,

Walked with them,

Moved with them,

Have them move through you,

Have them run through you in a constant stream of deepening and folding,

Learning,

Yearning.

I think that we could all come back into balance if we were able to express ourselves more from the heart,

More from what is important to us.

The earth does that naturally with its agreements,

Its karmic cycle,

Its balancing tensions of shadow and light.

We can do that as well.

Think about the ocean,

The ocean moves,

Its ebb and flow,

Its undulating waves.

And with each wave carries that momentum with it and crashes into the shore and starts all over again.

This movement is a generation of energy.

It carries thoughts on the wind.

It evokes feelings just by looking at it.

And even the ocean has times when it's in its fields.

You know,

The high tide that comes in soaks through everything,

Navigates new streams,

Covers the road and envelops us.

There are times like that when we are so in our feelings that we can't see the other side.

Again maybe just that one spectrum of polarity of our feelings and then the ocean ebbs back to low tide and we go to the other side of our feelings.

What I'm talking about right now is for us to find that agreement.

Where is that balance?

Where is that feeling that reminds us that it's okay to have another feeling,

The opposite of that feeling and what that feeling evokes and how that feeling makes you feel in your body.

Not what your body,

Not what you're feeling about your body,

But what you're feeling in your body.

Sometimes it's easier for us to talk to others,

People we don't know,

Total strangers about our feelings than it is to those that we love the most,

The ones that mean the most to us.

Is it because we don't want to upset them or upset us or upset the status quo that's going on between us that's just easier to fill with the ease.

Sometimes it's easier just to listen to music and find our feelings in their music or have the music validate our feelings than those around us.

This is not how I want to live.

I don't want to just call out my feelings,

Silent prayers offered up on a whisper,

Offered up silently to angels,

To guides,

To God in hopes that they're heard.

Of course they'll be heard.

We're sovereign beings,

We have agency over our bodies and our bodies are filled with emotions.

I want to move these emotions through my body,

Move them through,

Not allow old memories that are stuck in my body to cause blockages based off of feelings that weren't addressed,

That weren't acknowledged,

That I gave too much power.

This is not healing,

This is her.

And how can we work through her?

How can we ascend above her unless we move into our true self?

To rise above the darkness,

To rise above the uncomfortableness,

To rise above the shame or the viewpoint of weakness or worry about worthiness if we were to share our emotions freely.

Why do we hold ourselves back?

Why do we only show our true selves to us?

Those who are around us,

They love us for our authenticity yet often we shy away from sharing that full authenticity with others for the sake they were too much.

Oh it's inappropriate or what if they don't like it?

What might they think of me?

That matters not in the world of feeling.

Feelings don't have to be private.

Feelings don't have to be public.

They just have to be felt,

Acknowledged,

Heard,

Nurtured,

Released.

It's all different.

Sometimes it's so different we don't know how to step into it and work through them.

There's no protocol because it affects us physically and so what do we do?

We often put up our barriers or shields,

Our armor to protect ourselves from getting hurt.

Our boundaries and then what happens?

Those feelings never get shared.

They never get acknowledged.

They start to just fester,

Suffocate and lay dormant or die within us.

What's worse,

Being numb to the experiences around us,

Having so much pent up desire to share yourself but never doing,

Never every actualizing a life well lived.

You're putting yourself out there.

Put yourself out there.

Take a chance and see how it's received.

Here's the kicker.

It doesn't matter how it's received if it felt right and true for you to do it,

To say it,

To feel it.

Feelings aren't wrong.

Feelings aren't facts.

No one can judge you or judge you for feeling what you feel.

What you feel is what you feel.

It's so beautiful,

So beautiful to see a goddess in her wrath,

To see a goddess in her joy,

To see a goddess sharing gentle love,

All of those feelings are equally beautiful.

Our armor suffocates all of that.

It doesn't give us any air.

The only light that peeks out of us is a sparkle now and again out of our eyes.

When someone tries to evoke those feelings and bring them to life,

So many mask,

So many mask.

Why do we wear them?

These rules of engagement,

Who are they helping?

There's so many,

So many conversations left inside of the people in my life that I love that I wonder what was stopping me.

I wonder what was more important in those moments that we were together that I couldn't just share fully what I wanted to say.

Was it because I didn't think they could receive it?

Know how to receive it?

I probably told myself that.

Was it because I didn't want to fully digest what they had to say in return and what those feelings might be?

I probably told myself that.

I really,

I'm just scared.

I was just scared.

I didn't want to rock a boat.

It's just the stupidest thing ever.

Probably the stupidest things I've ever done.

It doesn't really matter how people perceive me,

It's how I perceive me.

If I want to perceive myself as living fully,

Embracing life,

Then I need to work through my feelings.

The only way through is through.

Not ignore them,

Not put them aside,

Not overhash them,

Not deliberate them,

But feel them,

Express them.

Understand where that nexus point is and understand where the points of connectedness are and what they're bringing me to.

I want to be the night of my salvation,

It's not the armor that will save me,

It's the unmasking.

Yes,

I want to unmask and reveal this interior life of mine.

We live so much in the exterior world of status,

Of goods and materials.

I'm watching shows,

Listening to music,

Reading.

What if we spent that equal amount of time interacting and exchanging in our interior lives,

This vast,

Rich landscape of emotions,

Of thoughts that we have to share and around us,

And all these thoughts and emotions,

Where they should be,

Because we are feeling beings,

And opinions are great.

What's better than opinions is why they're important to us,

How they impact us,

How they affect us,

What we desire,

What we don't desire.

This is a life I want to live,

Conversations about real things,

Not about logistics,

Not about how the day is going,

Not about what we're up to,

But what makes up the meat and muscle and cells of us,

The somatic realness of our lives,

The presence of our feelings,

To sit in that presence and just be with ourselves.

If we have the luckiness to have someone sit and listen to us,

Or for us to sit and listen to someone else and be in the presence of their true divine spirit,

Well,

That's realness.

That's love.

And it's not about being right or wrong or having answers or solving problems,

But when we can share and tap into our true feelings,

That is the first step of trusting the knowingness that's found within.

Sometimes we feel like we have to reflect,

To process our feelings,

To be in solitude,

To take a silent retreat,

To be with ourselves,

And that's lovely,

That's needed,

That's regenerative.

But we don't have to be only on this island of one to explore feelings.

Think about it,

That island had two,

And we shared with another,

And they reflected back to us,

And we reflected back to them,

And this cadence of mirroring made the feelings grow,

Multiply exponentially to some place we didn't even think they could go,

Broader,

Deeper,

Diagonally.

Think about the theater that would be created on that island then through this dynamic.

And that's what I love about feelings,

To exercise them.

It's this give and take,

Different perspectives,

And how they make us express.

Feelings are in many ways so much deeper than thoughts because we actually feel them in our body.

We don't feel thoughts in our body,

We feel feelings,

But yet we give accolades to the thoughts.

We call it rational,

Pragmatic,

Factual.

We call feelings erratic,

Emotional,

Dramatic,

And then we put them down.

It's like we let people put us down when we express them,

That we're being crazy.

That no,

That's not the case.

Only someone who would say that is in total denial and total block of their own feelings.

And that's the whole point of exercising feelings is so that we can remove the blocks within our body,

Remove the areas that are stuck,

Let the energy flow through us from alpha to omega all the way to source so that as we're flowing energy on that wind,

It's the feelings that are associated with it.

As energy is vibrating within us,

It is creating feelings within each of ourselves.

This is exercising your feelings.

This is the core vibration.

We can't have expanded consciousness,

Ascension without also expanding our feelings.

For what is consciousness without feeling?

Just avoid a oneness.

What does oneness feel like?

What does oneness not feel like?

We can acknowledge that we're all interconnected on this earth,

In this great earth contract.

What makes that acknowledge is skittles,

If we don't know viscerally how that makes us feel in our deep core.

It truly is the heart that feels,

That gets pierced with love's arrow,

That gets dumped on with cleats,

That gets twisted,

Jealousy,

Rage,

Shame.

Or is it our body?

Is it a result?

What I love about love is that for centuries,

The world's greatest poets have tried to tap into their feelings to express it.

Being expressive is often good,

And we can't do that without feelings.

Love is the act of feeling so many different ways.

And that's what's beautiful about it.

I think that's why we all try to find it.

We can't find it if we're not in our feelings.

We can't find it by putting together some type of strategic equation and getting there.

And oftentimes we kill it by avoiding our feelings,

By masking our feelings,

By trying to control our feelings,

Or that of another.

And what a shame.

You can't force love just like you can't force feelings good or bad,

Desire,

Denial.

It is our body's truest signal in response to how we should move forward.

We don't need validation from without,

And we have all of the keenest insight within.

And a little thing called feelings.

Sometimes feelings have colors associated with them,

And they can feel dark or gray or moody or black or anger,

Red with anger,

White,

Hot,

Or the chill tones of passion,

The pastels of ease,

The turquoises of relaxation,

The black of drama,

The white of purity,

The yellows of happiness,

The oranges of sprightliness,

The browns of cleanliness.

And yet we know so little about how to perceive them.

And as a culture we've given men the opportunity to check out of their feelings because it's not masculine.

So sad.

And as a culture we've imprinted women that they can't share their feelings at work because it's not professional.

So sad.

As fathers and mothers we're told our sons that they can't cry.

It's not what a man does.

So sad.

As fathers and mothers we're told our daughters that they can't get angry because it's not leading work.

So sad.

It's time to pierce this bubble of perfection and peel back the layers to the core,

To the center,

To the heart and breathe in there.

Breathe in there with the magic of all the springtime fairs.

Yeah.

Why?

Why because they are constantly living pollinating and they are pollinating for rebirth and with rebirth comes new vision,

New sight,

New feelings new perspectives,

New insights and as we share all of that we blossom through the power of those spring fairs and we can't blossom without really tapping into our feelings because they are the core nectar that allows us to blossom that is the reward of us blossoming and who wants to be around a one note?

God,

Not I or it's the dimension,

It's the layers it's the peeling them back and seeing them open and finding our way within each of those layers amongst us and amongst those that are closest to us and finding those connection points in our feelings or where we differ that allows true reflection and true knowing to take place curiosity is a beautiful word if it's used to explore,

Not to justify exploring feelings,

That's what exercising them are all about justifying your feelings,

Well that's for the lame because no feeling ever needs to be justified if someone doesn't understand it,

It doesn't matter because it's not theirs,

It's yours when was the last time you looked in the mirror and just expressed your feelings to yourself and wrote those feelings down or told them to someone else,

Or whispered them to the wind or even acknowledged that you had them it's just so much easier to listen to other people's opinions but it's not as fruitful it's not as healing,

It's not as worthwhile it definitely doesn't give your life more meaning we all want to make our mark on this world we can do that partly through our talents and partly through our skills but mostly through our principles and our principles come from what we value and what we value comes from what we feel and when we're manifesting,

I know the phrase is what we think about comes about but truly,

I think it should be what we feel about comes about because what we feel for something,

That sets off that chain reaction after desire to either make it better,

To make it worse,

To make it never happen again,

Or to make it happen always it's desire that sets off the chain reaction,

Not the thought,

It's the feeling behind it that matters so today,

Exercise yourself,

Exercise yourself with your feelings think about how you would have loved to have been nurtured to share your feelings and have them heard with respect and open and honesty how can you do that for someone else today?

How can you do that for yourself?

For your children?

For your parents?

For your coworkers?

How can you provide them a platform to share their feelings?

And for you to hear them in the way they want them to be heard?

Do this in love,

Always