Hey!
You're here!
Which means something hard has just moved through you.
A wave of panic,
A full body alarm,
A moment where it felt like the ground disappeared beneath you.
Maybe you couldn't breathe,
Maybe your heart was pounding,
Maybe you left the room and your body and your sense of safety and you're only just now arriving back.
This meditation isn't here to fix you,
It's here to hold you while you find your way home.
Let me remind you that you did nothing wrong and you are not too much.
This was your body trying to keep you safe with the only language that it had in that moment.
Sometimes panic,
It's not just fear,
It's this urgency and the body is trying to hit the brakes before something goes too far.
Before burnout,
Before shutdown,
Before collapse,
You get the point.
It might not be a sign that something's wrong with you but it might be your body asking for something to change,
To slow down,
To be heard,
To not be left behind.
So right now we're not going to force calm,
We're just going to offer your system something steady,
A place to land and a safe space to say I'm still here and I want to listen.
You don't need to understand everything,
You don't need to get it right,
You just need to arrive.
So let's begin.
Let's start by arriving in the body.
If you can,
Gently close your eyes.
Soften your gaze towards the floor.
Notice the space around you,
The air on your skin,
The temperature in the room.
Allow yourself to take up space here.
Let this place be enough.
Slowly guide your awareness down to your body,
Noticing the shape it's in.
Let your body find a posture that feels kind,
That could be lying down,
Sitting with support,
Leaning into something solid.
Let this posture say I don't need to hold it all right now.
As you settle in,
Feel the surface beneath you and let your body be held.
Allow gravity to carry some of what you've been holding.
Notice the places where your body meets the ground,
Your backbone,
Your heels.
You don't need to do anything,
Just allow yourself to feel them.
Let these places become your anchors.
Now it's normal for your thoughts to arise and your mind drift.
Just gently return to these points of contact.
Let this be a reminder that you are safe enough to soften and you are allowed to let go,
Even if it's just a little.
There is nothing else you need to be doing right now.
You're here and that's enough.
Now let's bring the awareness to the breath,
Not to change it,
Just to meet it.
How is it today?
Is it short,
Tight?
Is it barely there?
Is it rising high in your chest?
Or is it resting low in your belly?
Inhale through the nose,
Slowly and softly,
And exhale through the mouth.
Hopefully it was longer than the inhale.
Let your body be reminded that you're okay now.
Repeat this as many times as you'd like.
There's no pressure,
Just an invitation.
If it feels okay,
I encourage you to ask yourself,
What were you trying to protect me from,
Body?
What felt too fast,
Too much,
Or too loud?
If you don't need an answer,
Just let the question echo softly.
Sometimes panic is in the body's way of saying,
I'm at capacity,
I don't feel safe here,
Or I need to slow down.
It's your system pulling the emergency brake,
Saying,
Please don't keep going like this.
It's not to punish,
But to preserve,
To protect,
And to pause.
If that feels true for you,
Can you thank your body for trying,
Even if it was messy,
Even if it did scare you?
Place a hand where the truth feels most alive,
Maybe on your heart,
Your belly,
Your throat.
And I encourage you to repeat this in your own mind,
Maybe silently or aloud.
My body is not the problem.
My body is the communicator.
I hear you now.
You don't have to shout.
I am safe enough to feel this.
I am allowed to pause.
I don't need to be okay to belong here.
I'm not broken.
I'm adjusting.
Even this,
This sensation,
This fear,
In this moment belongs.
Take a deep breath in.
If you feel the need to rock,
Sway,
Stretch,
Or curl,
Let that movement meet you.
Feel back into the room now.
The temperature,
The sounds around you,
The light behind your closed eyes.
You are here and you are back,
Or at least more back than you were,
And let that be enough.
Now before you open your eyes,
You can whisper,
I'm still me.
I made it through.
And I can return to myself as many times as I need.
Wiggle your fingers and notice your breath one last time.
And when you're ready,
Gently,
Gently come back.
Now,
If you feel like staying in connection with yourself,
I have a few prompts that you can gently explore.
What was my body trying to communicate through this panic?
Where have I been pushing too hard and too fast?
What helps me feel safe again?
Truly safe,
Not just fine.
There's no pressure to answer them all.
You can even choose one that resonates.
And allow that pen to be a place to land,
Not a place to perform.
And thank yourself for showing up for yourself.
And you are ready to go back into the world.