When smiling is hard,
And the mind starts to race,
Planting confusion and chaos,
Hopelessness demanding space,
Convincing it will never leave.
It took an entire day before I was ready to lay it all down at his feet,
The intelligence in my body revealing the emotions entrapping me,
Abandonment,
Depression.
I asked Yeshua to set me free,
But they didn't budge,
Not immediately.
More information was needed,
The roots in my mother's womb.
When a therapist asked me many years ago if I perhaps had lost a twin soul,
My body cried,
Remembering the doom.
For a long time I couldn't stop.
Why would there be such an emotional response if it was all made up?
When I told my mom she recalled opening an egg with two yolks while she carried me in her womb.
It never happened before or since.
Immediately she knew,
She carried twins.
With the cord wrapped around my neck,
I came into the world alone,
The memories of my twin fiercely buried,
Until they were triggered from within.
Many years I had pushed them away,
Forgotten,
Neglected,
But right now out loud I say,
I surrender,
I forgive it all.
Tears filling my eyes once more,
After commanding abandonment and depression to go,
The wounds heal in my soul.
I thank Yeshua and realize it took mere minutes to come out of my depressive disguise.
I decide to no longer let it continue all day when discouragement comes my way.
In spiritual reality we are free,
But without applying the blood of his sacrifice,
Without binding the lies and declaring the truth,
He cannot and will not go against our free will.
Without our consent he cannot move.
Repent,
For the kingdom of heaven is at hand.
It means a complete turning away from the lies,
The words of death spoken to or over ourselves.
Coming out of agreement legally by announcing it verbally is needed.
I genuinely feel different and no longer in pain and know that when I choose to hold on I've got no one to blame but me and truly I realize my beloved,
My friend,
He has done it again,
He set me free.
