Hi dear friend,
Welcome to this insight chat about equanimity.
The mind reveals its luminous nature to see truth.
Desire,
On the other hand,
Is the glue that sticks thoughts,
Ideas,
Feelings,
And perceptions to the mind.
Notice its impermanence and its stickiness will start to fade.
What is this you,
Quote-unquote,
Losing and gaining through experience?
It's not really there,
It's just experience rising and falling.
The mind builds a wall around the fragile body with good intent to protect it,
Failing to realize that it traps itself and habituates itself to search for a permanent identity due to the qualities of reality that are impermanent,
Dissatisfactory,
And selfless.
Even identity comes and goes.
You are not a teacher 24-7.
Just the hours you are teaching,
You are a teacher.
You take on that role or the absolute appears as a teacher.
When you go home,
You might then be a mother or a sister or a friend or a housemate.
The roles of identity changes often,
More often than we like to admit.
Yet the mind is always hopeful and always looking for that permanent identity that will be there forever and survive all conditions.
Hence the strong affinity to defend identity forms which are challenged in situations.
Noticing this is enough.
Being honest with yourself when this arises is crucial.
There is no need to feed the protective mechanism.
It is entangled with effort and stirs up a lot of resistance to the innate flow of impermanent existence.
This is then experienced as suffering,
A polarity of this and that is created with a seeming split or separation between the two.
The buddhi of the mind,
Meaning the intelligence of the mind,
Sides with one as aversion and the other as attraction or put in other words,
Likes or dislikes.
This then creates a pseudo-responsibility to strive for the likes and push away the dislikes.
As if the one is more favorable than the other.
Also creating a doer of this act of pushing and pulling,
Not honoring the other qualities of reality of dissatisfactory and selflessness.
Protecting the open-mindedness without attaching to it is vital.
Your mindfulness,
Attention and concentration work together to see the impermanence,
Unsatisfactory and selflessness,
Which are not thoughts but more so activity in the mind and body,
Behind or beyond any thought forms.
The best experience,
The impermanence of something while experiencing it,
Before or after,
You are merely intellectualizing it as impermanent,
Using logic reasoning and conditioning,
Hence mindfulness,
Noting while it is happening.
Being here,
Now,
Fully and undividedly,
Right here.
Dear one,
You see the path to purification,
You can only burn something when it is present,
In a direct experience,
Not the thought about it.
You cannot burn it when it is no longer present,
When your mind seems to be seeking or grasping for it in the past or the future.
Defilements have influxes and outfluxes.
They flow into the mind and they brew there,
Becoming more and more potent.
Then they flow out with even more force,
Leaving an aftertaste.
They can manifest as harsh words,
Deeds or perceptions.
You can burn these fluxes,
But not with logic and reasoning,
That is mental masturbation and the mind and the ego trying to preserve themselves by avoiding or distracting in the moment.
And then comes the constant thought about it afterwards,
Tainted by the perception of the mind and the ego.
Only with deep,
One-pointed concentration can they really be burned and purified.
For defilements to burn,
They must arise naturally and organically in the moment,
Not per se the mind.
The mind can go and read the moment,
So it might be channeling through the mind too.
They must also be burned as they are arising,
Not denied or pushed away.
The three roots of these situations that allows it to ground either in the body or on all six hard drives or some of the six hard drives where we store information are greed,
Delusion and hatred.
Awakening can occur when the mind is free from these three roots,
As well as other hindrances,
Resulting in crystal clear mental states.
So,
Please know that clarity does not arise or reveal itself when all your questions has been answered.
On the contrary,
It is actually the dissolving of all the questions that leads to clarity.
So,
Is it possible to realize why mindfulness is so important and why practicing real mindfulness is not always easy or comfortable,
Yet it is so beneficial?
The senses are the gates into raw reality or unfiltered reality,
Meaning that the story is dropped and it is simply experienced directly and exactly as it is,
Instead of perceiving it through the lens of the mind,
Tainted by the expectations,
Desires and everything else that comes along with that.
So,
If you are looking for equanimity,
Dear one,
Meaning mental calmness or an evenness in your temper,
Especially in difficult situations,
Instead of seeking,
Give up that seek and notice that it is a natural state of mind.
Just like the rose cannot help to smell like a rose,
Your mind without story cannot help but be calm,
Empty.
Else,
How do things arise there?
So,
When it comes to equanimity,
It is also important to realize that patience is a virtue,
Trusting that life knows better than your expectations of life or your image of how life is supposed to be.
If you want to purify these constructs,
These beliefs,
These patterns that have been imprinted in your information,
Your data programming systems,
Then patiently waiting for life to magnetically bring back when it is the right time,
But also trusting that with pure intent and the willingness and the readiness to let go what no longer serves at that point in time,
That is strong enough and that is good enough.
Only life knows what to say to itself,
To help itself.
So,
Allow it to flow freely,
Openly,
Willingly,
With curiosity and genuinely be curious about what is alive in this very moment.
