Falling In Love With Ourselves - Part 2

Starts with a story and leads into an expansive meditation that reduces anxiety, promotes self love and relaxes you into resting well. If you have been wanting to love yourself more and want to know how to do that. Relax and listen to this meditation.

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And I'll start with a story about a friend of mine and she's quadriplegic.

And I remember asking her as we were sitting down to dinner and we have these really,

You know,

Super deep conversations and I asked her,

I said,

What do you think the theme of your life is?

And I remember her since I was nine.

So we've been really close friends for about 25 years now.

But when I was nine years old,

She was my fourth grade teacher.

And I remember she could walk and she was so cool because we'd go to recess and she'd play with us and she'd come back in the room just as sweaty as we were.

I was going to say sweaty and stinky,

But I don't remember her stinking,

But I remember stinking.

So I'd come back in and I'd be all like sweaty and she'd be playing with us.

And she is six foot tall.

And I think she enjoys our relationship because I remember her when she could walk and do things.

And so I asked her one time,

I said,

What is the theme of your life?

And she said,

Acceptance.

And I sat back and I looked at her and I said,

So you're satisfied.

And she smiled very lovingly at me and shook her head,

No.

She said,

Satisfaction and acceptance are two very different things.

And that sentence has taught me so much over so many years and it comes up even now.

How do we separate the concept of satisfaction from acceptance?

Because in our minds,

We accept if it's,

Well,

That's working for me so I can accept that.

That's good.

So I can accept that as if acceptance has anything to do with agreement or liking it.

So acceptance,

When we think of it relating to loving ourselves,

It allows us to take the resistance and the constriction in our body.

It allows us to let that go.

Because when we don't accept,

We constrict against something.

And that cuts off the flow of energy.

So in that,

I'm thinking about the unified flow and unified field of energy,

Unified field of consciousness and its continuous flow,

Allowing flow in our bodies.

And when we don't accept,

We pinch off that flow.

And it's only because we've been trained to think about acceptance as you accept what you like and you don't accept what you don't like.

Which is not acceptance.

And acceptance is recognition and acknowledgement of what is.

This is what's happening.

And I think that acceptance is way closer to forgiveness than people think.

Because we're often taught,

Okay,

We got to forgive.

And then they think,

Well,

If I forgive,

Then I'm saying this was okay.

And that's not the case.

When we forgive,

We're just accepting and acknowledging that something happened and accepting and acknowledging our feelings about what happened.

And when we do that,

And we work through whatever those emotions are,

Then forgiveness moves through ourselves.

And it has really nothing to do with the other person.

That person,

At some point,

Is going to redeal with this over and over until they accept and acknowledge.

So it's not saying what you did was okay.

And it's not saying whatever I'm seeing right now and acceptance is okay.

I accept that it happened,

I acknowledge.

I recognize this is the truth of the matter.

And how do I deal with that truth for myself?

What awareness does it bring up in me?

And when I have processed a situation fully,

Then I don't have that emotional load on it anymore.

And I can clearly see what is inappropriate or appropriate about the situation.

Again,

Acceptance doesn't say,

Well,

That was appropriate.

It's just this is happening.

What we're seeing across our world,

Because I know when we speak about acceptance,

We're thinking about the treatment of people,

Humanity,

Most of the time,

And the treatment of our planet and what's going on there.

And so it's those situations and they're popping up all over the place.

It's like,

If it's not a war,

It's a hurricane or a scenario of that sort.

And there's so much of that going on.

And it's almost overwhelming to look at all the data.

A long time ago,

You couldn't see what was happening in other countries.

So you didn't really have to deal with like,

My gosh,

What's happening in Iran,

What's happening in Myanmar,

What's happening in Hong Kong,

What's happening in North Korea and South Korea and Israel and Palestine.

And just the list is just like what's.

.

.

And again,

That's an externalization of ourselves because what's happening in America,

But what's happening inside of me and everything I can do to work towards acceptance.

Again,

It's acknowledging because when we don't accept,

We're just piling on thoughts about it,

Our judgments about it,

How it shouldn't be.

And even worse,

It's like,

Well,

There's an awareness inside of ourselves when we have acted in those similar ways.

Maybe we haven't shot somebody,

Maybe we haven't done that,

But where have we not been accepting of someone else?

Where have we judged them and thought something about them just like earlier,

Just as I was sitting on a porch during our break and I saw this person jogging by.

And I'll be danged if I didn't have a thought about how they were jogging,

Like as if that had anything to do with myself.

And then I thought,

Isn't that interesting?

When we're not in the mode of acceptance,

I'm layering on my feeling about it,

My judgment about it,

Et cetera,

Et cetera.

And then something inside of me knows that I probably wouldn't make it very far.

I've run before and had people walk past me as I'm in a full on run.

I'm not a good runner.

And so if I'm beginning to judge them,

It comes with all that on myself as well.

I remember another time,

I was talking to a woman and I was judging her.

She was telling me about something she was doing.

I had all these deep emotions about it.

And she talked to me and then she went in the door and I thought,

The only person really suffering here is me because she said something and walked in a door.

She's got no other thought about me and I'm over here stewing.

And it's like,

I'm feeling all the energy of that judgment.

She's gone on and on with her life and I don't exist anymore.

And I'm sitting here rolling in anger and hmm,

And it's like criticism.

And it's like,

That's what my body is feeling.

And she's already gone through the doorway and ordered a croissant and something else and is not even thinking about me.

And part of it is mixed up with our training and what we've been told is how we are supposed to act about it or what we think is true just because of how we've been raised.

Because in another culture,

What that person did would mean nothing.

But in the culture I was raised in,

It meant something.

And every time I think I'm right about it,

Then I began to believe that other people's judgments of me are right.

Because if I'm right in my judgment of someone else,

Then someone else can be right in their judgment of me.

The importance to every person on this planet is becoming aware that they can do this themselves.

And at first,

Just like anything else we do,

It's hard to,

That's the benefit of habits.

We don't have to think about how to drive anymore,

Except for in a situation where something goes different than we were expecting.

And then all of a sudden you got to avoid or defensive drive.

We want to put on to automatic that feeling of love for ourselves.

But first we have to build the strength of that in our own systems.

And even then,

Once we begin to truly live in the present moment,

There's no two alike.

So it's not something that's going to be standardized.

But will it be easier to be in that state?

Yes.

And that grows with every time that we do it.

And the importance is knowing that you don't need anybody else to do this.

That is not something that you're taught,

Something you remember.

And nobody can get between you and remembering it.

But you have to take the time to remember.

And then as we remember and we build the state within ourselves and the ease of joining that state and remembering that state,

It's more present for us all the time.

So I definitely want to look at how do we continue this inside of ourselves without anybody else?

Because it's not dependent on another person,

Your ability to be in that state.

For me,

To begin to move into that state,

To fall in love with ourselves is to move into that state.

Otherwise,

Who are we falling in love with?

A reflection or an image of what we think is us.

So just beginning to feel our own presence in our bodies and to allow ourselves to be comfortable in our body and to sit comfortably,

Relaxing,

And trusting.

Those are hard words like trust.

How do I know I'm going to be there for myself?

How do I know I'm going to love myself?

What if I can't love myself?

Those are all questions that come from beliefs.

And loving yourself isn't a belief.

Falling in love with yourself is acceptance and allowing.

It doesn't matter what you've done,

If you accept you,

If you allow you,

Then you'll fall in love with yourself.

And the only part of you that's actually falling in love with yourself are the concepts of who you are.

The real you is love.

The real you's natural state is love.

It does not function in opposition to itself.

There is no part of nature that functions in opposition to itself.

It is always self-supporting.

It is always opening.

And through acceptance,

It realizes if it needs to evolve.

If a plant is growing in shade and it needs sunlight,

It'll either evolve or regrow in sunlight.

It'll either move,

And how many of us have seen a plant or a tree that actually grows out enough to reach to what it needs?

It would not have survived if it didn't accept that it must bend or torque.

And that bending and that torquing still allows flow.

It's all about acceptance to evolve,

But no part of nature is in conflict with itself or self-despising.

It is always presenting,

Expressing itself,

And shifting with acceptance to do whatever is most appropriate for it to continue to grow.

Only our man-made conditions have decided that it would build a house on sand.

Everything in nature doesn't try to grow there unless it's very light and very short term.

And even when someone builds a house on sand,

It can last for a while.

It's allowed and accepted to do that.

It may not sustain for as long as the person who built it wants it to,

But it isn't not allowed.

So loving ourselves,

We do not have to fear,

Will we?

Our natural state is loving,

Expanding,

Accepting,

Moving towards what feeds us,

What sustains us.

And we see that in animal migrations,

Adaptations,

And in plants.

And we are not separate from nature.

And just as the sun accepts the entirety of humanity on this planet,

It shines on every being in total acceptance,

Giving the life energy that is needed to evolve and accept.

And it doesn't darken on a place because it disagrees with how humanity is evolving or what humanity is doing.

It gives the same energy 24-7 of absolute acceptance,

Support,

And growth.

Every plant manages that different.

Every animal manages it differently.

And every human manages it differently.

So we're all doing it and sustained by the same loving field of energy.

So we can be relaxed as we settle into our bodies,

Knowing that tomorrow the sun will rise and it will shine on us the same.

And that even though we don't see it,

The reason we are not frozen is because the sun is shining.

Even though it's dark outside,

The sun is warming the earth.

And the fact that we're not boiling is because we're rotating.

So we're not getting constant sun all the time on the same spaces.

So we allow ourselves to accept and trust that we are love and that we are loved and supported.

And there is no inclination ever given to us by nature that we aren't loved.

Humanity may say,

Do it this way.

Be like this.

Be like me.

I can't accept you unless you do A,

B,

Or C or act a certain way.

And that is man-made belief,

Which is not our nature.

So we return to our bodies and sit comfortably and breathe in and relax without pressure of having a specific experience,

Meditation,

Or even the thought of loving ourselves.

Once we decide,

Now this is what it'll look like,

It'll feel like this.

And I'll know it because I'll recognize it because it'll look a certain way.

And that's a setup because how often have we encountered unconditional love from others?

Now we have encountered it.

We have experienced it,

But not in a way that we could quantify it,

The way we think we're going to experience it,

The way it'll look a certain way if I get it.

Then you've already kinked the flow of it.

So it's okay to sit in the unknown.

It's just the concept of my intention is to love myself.

And I'm going to relax into whatever that experience is like.

I'm going to breathe through wherever there's tension in my body.

Maybe it's in my stomach.

Maybe it's in my shoulders.

I'm going to imagine those areas in my body that the breath is coming in and out of those areas relieving the tension that's held there.

Because the very breath that we're taking in is infused with the frequency of love.

The oxygen of this planet comes from the photosynthesis and the workings of trees and greenery and plants.

The air you're breathing in has been exhaled by those plant beings that were receiving support and love from the sun and gifting it to the air.

And as you breathe in,

You breathe that love and support in.

That love and support isn't just the frequency of the trees or the plants around you,

But the physical concept of love as created on this planet.

Source wanted us all to know that at all points we are loved.

And so the breath infuses our bodies with that love.

And our mind runs to say,

Well,

Now what if I wasn't breathing?

What about when I die?

Inhale and exhale is a rhythm.

And the rhythm doesn't end with the last breath.

The last breath here is an inhale of that same support and love in a different form and frequency.

So at no point are you without support and love.

And I wonder,

Do I have to be aware that there's something given this to me,

Something outside of myself that's given me this?

Do I have to be beholding to something outside of me?

You are source and you are giving yourself love in each breath.

You are the sun,

You are the trees,

You are the air,

And you are the one breathing the air.

You are the one giving support and receiving support.

Like an infinity loop,

You are presenting to yourself the breath of love and you are breathing in that same breath and exhaling and presenting out more love.

You are both the source and the receiver.

So should I feel gratitude?

Yes,

Source is so vast that it is beyond the individual reflection of source,

But it is never separate from that reflection.

So be grateful to yourself and source and relax into this body that you cannot fail,

You cannot get it wrong.

And there is nothing between you and the love and acceptance that you seek.

We are both generating it and receiving it.

And it will not be denied to you and you can trust it.

And even if we have been injured by friends and family and society and beliefs and we think,

I don't know if I can trust,

I don't know if I can,

Like,

You know,

Life has let me down.

I've experienced things that have caused great sadness.

I've done things that have caused me sadness.

How do I trust?

It's just like breathing.

You do not spend all day thinking of how to breathe.

You just do it.

You do not create the air.

You just breathe it.

And even though we can say the truth from ourselves that at times I trust myself more than I trust anybody else.

And sometimes I don't even know if I can trust myself.

I mean,

I've even seen me lie to me.

How can I even,

How do I trust anything?

Because there is a field of existence that is beyond the thinking mind,

Which the thinking mind has concepts of trust and what does that mean?

And trust would mean that you would never fail me and I would never experience pain and I would never experience sadness and I wouldn't do anything to hurt anybody and nobody would ever hurt me.

Then I would know I could trust.

And that's the house built on sand because change always happens.

But underneath those concepts,

Because it's only a concept that says,

I know I could trust if I was never failed.

It has the concept that failing me means a particular thing.

And some people that have told me no,

They didn't fail me.

They inspired something inside of myself,

But it didn't feel good.

But if I decide that means failure,

Then I can't trust them.

So trust has lots of concepts that are built on sand because people want promises and guarantees and securities.

And the universe says you were never unsafe.

You never needed guarantees because you're never unsafe.

How can I be not unsafe?

Look at what's going on in the world.

Someone could hurt me physically.

Someone could hurt me mentally.

Someone could hurt me emotionally.

And yet life has continued on this planet for billions of years.

And time is a concept.

Well,

That's great,

But it doesn't make me feel good.

It doesn't make me feel safe.

Acceptance.

Accepting that I do not know,

But I am held.

I do not understand why I see pain and suffering,

Why I experience pain and suffering.

And how can I be safe while experiencing those things when they make me feel unsafe?

How can I trust?

How can I accept?

Through accepting that my mind has created buildings on sand by the name of trust and safety and security.

That underneath the structure of my own body and underneath the structure of my own mind,

That underneath the structure of this planet is a vibration of source energy.

That though my mind doesn't understand that I'm safe even if I die,

That my knowing self understands that.

And even though I cannot put words to it,

I can rest in that.

And my body is tuned to that frequency.

And if I tune into my own body,

I can tune into that frequency that lets go of thinking.

And the only thing between me and peace and love are the buildings I have built on sand as concepts.

So as I tune into the frequency of my body,

I search inside for that vibration.

And it may be a feeling vibration.

It may be a sound.

It may even just being able to just feel an aliveness and because I cannot grasp it and because I cannot hold it in my hands and yet it built my hands because it is formless,

I cannot destroy it.

And nothing can destroy it.

And it is the part of me that notices that I'm breathing in,

But is also the part of me that's creating the support and love and the breath that I breathe.

And that infinity loop is coursing into my body,

Through my body,

And back out to everything that's around me and back.

And those loops come from trees as they touch the air,

From the sun,

From a child blowing bubbles.

And that bubble floats past me and burst and that little child's breath was in there and it's released near me.

And I inhale their joy and innocence,

Their lack of fear.

I breathe that in and I sit in a relaxed state inside of my body,

Not looking for this to look like anything in particular,

To not feel a certain way because I don't know.

And yet I know and I am known.

And I relax and rest into that space,

Knowing that my deepest thoughts and concerns and fears and joys are known and accepted,

Not judged by the unconditional vibration that is the underpinning of life,

Not only on this planet,

But throughout this universe.

And that I am a natural part of that and I cannot be separated from it.

And the idea that this formless energy has to conform to any mental concept is what is creating the suffering on this planet.

And though I do not have in every second the perfect answer to questions that come from structures built on sand,

People love hypothetical questions.

They build a structure on sand and then say,

Now prove to me.

And there's no proof in it.

It's a hypothetical thought.

It's not real.

What is real is the vibration that's under it all.

And I focus on that vibration.

And that vibration sees and accepts every concept that's been built on sand.

It doesn't agree with it,

Doesn't try to fix it.

It just loves it.

And that vibration is you.

And you accept you,

All your thoughts,

All your ways of being,

All your habits.

You're safe with you.

You're safe to love you.

And you're safe to trust loving you.

And all you have to do is breathe in and feel for the vibration inside.

And any structure of sand built on sand that wants to come up,

You don't have to ignore it.

You don't have to shove it down.

You just accept it.

So just breathe in.

Love any thought that comes up.

Accept it.

Let it go.

It's a choice to join it or not.

And find the rhythm of breathing in,

Feeling the vibration of who you are,

And exhaling out any thought that comes up.

Breathing in,

Exhaling any thought that comes up.

Breathing in,

Feeling the vibration,

Exhaling out any thought without judgment,

Without making it greater than it is,

Without buying into its logic.

This logic is built on sand.

Its structure can only last so long.

And even though you can slam the door of the building it's built and you can stomp around for a while,

It will collapse because it's built on the sand.

That formless vibration that you are is eternal,

A natural state of love.

And feed that to your body.

Breathe it into your stomach.

Breathe it into your hands.

Breathe it into your sacrum.

Breathe it into your feet.

Breathe it into your chest,

To your throat.

Breathe it into your forehead.

Become the breath that you're breathing in.

Breathing in the gifts to yourself,

Exhaling out anything that's been confused.

You are that breath.

As real as the inhale.

You can feel its pressure inside your body.

But where does it go when it's exhaled?

You're still there.

You're still present.

You're still conscious.

Even if you pause breathing all together.

And then resume breath.

You're there through the entire cycle.

And in this state,

Remember that you are that frequency,

The very breath that you breathe.

That you are consciousness and awareness and your beingness.

That you are beyond the structure of thoughts.

That the words truth,

Trust,

Acceptance are concepts.

That your vibration is beyond those concepts.

And that anytime that you get lost in words,

That you can just breathe and return to that vibration.

And that there is nothing,

No person,

No thing between you and this space.

And the only thing that can interfere with it is a thought.

So if you have a thought and you get concerned about trust,

Embrace it.

Be grateful.

Yes.

Oh,

There's a thought.

And I know I'm not that thought.

I'm closer to my vibration.

So accept the thoughts because they can only play in the field of consciousness that you are.

And as you embrace them,

You become more that conscious field that you are.

And then everything you do from this place of vibration is efficient,

Is exact,

And is specific and is founded in love.