Falling In Love With Ourselves - Part 1

Starts with a story and leads into an expansive meditation that reduces anxiety, promotes self love and relaxes you into resting well. If you have been wanting to love yourself more and want to know how to do that. Relax and listen to this meditation.

Transcript

It's interesting,

I'll tell you a story that helped me kind of come to more understanding about what loving myself is.

So if anybody had asked me,

Do you love yourself?

I would be like,

In the past I'd be like,

Yes.

But if they said,

How do you love yourself?

I would have a really big pause because like,

How do I do that?

And I also had an area where I remember one time I was wanting to feel loved.

I wanted to feel loved.

I wanted somebody from the outside to love me.

And I remember taking the time to become still and interact with that part of me.

And previous to that,

If somebody said,

Do you reject yourself?

I would be like,

I get a little mad at myself sometimes.

I tell myself,

You could be better at this,

But I don't think I reject myself.

But as I spoke to that part of me that wanted to be loved from the outside,

And it just wasn't possible for that part to get it,

Because part of who they wanted love from had passed away,

Part of who they weren't connected to this person anymore.

And so there was,

And I had this knowing that I don't have to wait to be loved.

I don't have to wait for that other person to do it.

So I reached out to that,

You know,

Want to call it like that child part of myself or whatever.

And I said,

You know,

I got you.

I love you.

And that part of me looked at me and was like,

But I don't want yours.

I want it from out there.

I want that other person.

And I was just like kind of shocked.

And then I thought,

Oh my gosh,

That's self-rejection.

That's self-rejection.

And I didn't know that I had it because it wasn't so clear,

You know,

When you're talking to someone that's like,

I want it from out there,

And you're,

You know,

Trying to console it.

And you're like,

It's okay,

Blah,

Blah,

Blah.

And I didn't realize the whole time it was rejecting me that by staying focused out there and understanding how it hurt and yeah,

It's okay.

And all that didn't actually get to loving myself.

And I didn't recognize that this was self-rejection.

And here I was 100% ready to love that child part of me.

And that child part was like,

But you're not good enough.

You're not okay.

You're not that I want it from out there.

And if I had it out there,

Then I would know I was okay.

And that child part couldn't understand,

Didn't know,

Didn't see the trap that it was in by waiting for out there.

And that part of me didn't know who I was because had it known the vastness of the love within me,

It would have cared nothing about anybody else.

It would have been just enraptured with the intention of love that I can give.

But the thing is,

Is that when I created that part of me,

I didn't know me either.

So it had no clue because I in that timeframe didn't know that internal deep,

Deep love that I had of love.

I pay attention to the energy grid that we're building together because as a unified field of presence,

And just yesterday someone was talking about coincidences and how is it really a coincidence?

Is it even networking?

Cause you know,

In a business sense,

We're always networking,

You know,

Connecting it to this person,

Let's we can get this to go.

What we're doing is as we network,

Is thinking about flow on a deeper level,

Networking,

We're flowing,

Connecting.

But even beyond that,

That another person mentioned that a new word for that,

For them was that unified field of consciousness.

Are we networking or are we,

Is it a coincidence or is it flow through the unified field of consciousness?

So in the field that we are building right now,

All those joining and listening,

And we're not just a certain number here,

But by activating a conscious awareness of loving oneself,

We're connecting into that energy,

That unified field.

And our exploration today is bringing awareness and consciousness even more to that.

And everything that's in us that says,

I want love,

Is the same that's in everyone else that says,

I want love.

And today the unified field knew that we would gather and we would focus.

And the beauty of the unified field is that it comes to a question with an answer,

That you are not only the question,

But the answer.

What is sought is what you brought.

Because you only occurs to you to look for it because it is within your field of experience.

And so we touch into that unified field with consciousness,

With the power of love.

With consciousness and with joy and gratitude that we bring into lived experience these questions so that our bodies and our minds in the field of consciousness itself acknowledges the answers through self-recognition.

So I'm going to read the verses,

Sort of,

I call it verses,

But it's not so much a verse,

But some ancient texts.

Know thyself inscribed above the entrance to the temple of Apollo at Delphi.

Know thyself.

The Buddha also urged us to polish the mirror so that we may see ourselves clearly and love ourselves as we are.

And that mirror is like body wisdom.

So often our heads turn away from that body wisdom.

Knowing when your arms want to reach out and embrace someone.

Knowing what you love and what you like in your life and getting to know what you love.

And getting to know that you're more than that image in the mirror,

Past the hair and the face and the cheekbones,

Into the eyes,

And into your being,

Which is so vast and so connected.

And then the last one that I had really touched me and launched this.

And if you hear a cat,

It's my cat,

So.

For now,

We see through a glass or mirror darkly.

Then we shall see face to face.

Now I know in part,

But then shall I know even as also I am known?

Shall I know even as also I am known?

Who is there to know us?

And I go back to that to say,

You know,

Who is there to know us?

And I go back to that to say,

You know,

Who is there to know us?

You know,

Who is there to know us?

I shall know myself as I am known.

What does that mean?

What is aware of me that knows me?

It might have an awareness of me that is beyond what I think.

If I look into a mirror,

Is that knowing myself?

Or is that looking externally?

And if I am just looking at my face and my reflection,

What does that know about me?

What can the mirror tell me?

It can only tell me what I look like in a certain visual spectrum.

It doesn't show me the light of my soul,

But it shows how I am perceived in the visual spectrum that works with our eyes.

So it cannot know me.

It's a partial reflection.

And if I look into my eyes,

And I know that there is a being in there looking back for a moment,

I can get a feel for how it is to exist in this world.

Because I am looking at a mirror,

And it's a reflection,

But it's not the whole of me.

I am looking in my eyes,

And I know there is something more there.

And I am looking and observing an object,

Which is the very first step away from who I really am.

My first recognition of separating from myself.

I am looking at myself in a mirror.

Who is looking?

And I move away from who is looking to that object in the mirror.

And I've taken one step away from my centered self to begin to look at something that is myself.

And that's why we look into mirrors or glass,

And it's darkly.

It's not a real accurate reflection.

It's not a real accurate picture.

So we step back from looking at ourselves,

And step into being ourselves.

And I shall know even as I am known.

So if I begin to know as I am known,

The unique aspect of the oneness of who we are comes forward.

Who is knowing me?

Is there another?

If I am known,

Then something is knowing me.

And knowing is an amazing word.

It's not seeing me.

It's not feeling,

Touching me.

It's knowing.

And who could we say actually knows me?

Like if you looked at your friends and you would say,

Now this one knows me,

Can you say it of any of your friends?

This one knows me.

Do they know what keeps you awake at night?

Do they know your deepest fears and concerns?

Do they know how you feel about yourself when you're trying to go to sleep?

Do they know you?

And yet something does know us.

So again we rest into that center,

The center of ourselves.

Let our bodies relax.

So we focus on our breath and breathe into the centered part.

We hear our own breath as we breathe.

We feel our heartbeat.

We're not looking in a mirror.

We're being in our bodies.

And in that space we relax into the concept of known.

Because part of our longing,

Part of our desire,

Is that someone know us.

To be known.

To be known.

That word,

That concept is so deep.

When we consider our own experience,

We might say that no other being knows us or knows me.

But we share every thought,

Feeling,

Consideration that comes through my mind.

I haven't ever told anyone all that I'm feeling,

All of my fears or my hopes or my desires,

My joys,

My blessings,

My sorrows.

And yet we want to reach out and hold the hand of someone who has looked into our eyes and seen past all that to our being and knows us.

And loves us.

And that would know the room is better because we are in it.

Because they know our heart so deeply,

So well.

That they'd be excited to see us just walking through the door.

Because they know who we are and how much we love.

That as we walked through the door we didn't have to worry about doing any particular thing to receive approval.

That just our very presence is desired without any attachment,

Without having to be a particular way,

Act or do a particular thing.

That they know us so well that they trust us and we trust them.

And they honor the trust we have in our own bodies to say yes or no or this is right for me or this isn't.

That they respect our no and enjoy it as much as they do our yes.

Because they know that we are loving ourselves in them.

They love to see us loving ourselves and liking ourselves.

They like to watch us play between what is me and recognizing what is not me.

That they're thrilled at the concept when we discover oh look I was getting caught up in being just like somebody else and I was trying to get their approval and that's not really me.

Or I'm not going to hang on to this belief because that's not my belief.

And they love it when we see that and we recognize that in ourselves.

And they support,

Oh this wisdom,

Yes trust you.

And it never seems to be in conflict with them.

They're always supportive of that discovery.

They like it when we find some piece of joy in a broken colored blue glass.

And we know that we feel it and we notice how smooth it is and oh my gosh why do I just love this little piece of glass and I'm going to put that in my pocket.

I'm going to take it home and I might even make it into something or it may just sit on the counter for like 10 years and every time I look at it I smile.

And they love it when we discover something like that in our passions.

No matter how long it lasts maybe it's just a few times we try something and we're just thrilled that we went out and did it anyway just to do it for a couple of times and realize yeah that looked really cooler than it ended up being.

And when we find something that's our rhythm and we do it for a lifetime and we do it in organizations and we show up in club meetings being that same self with integrity and support because all of that is claiming who we are and they know us.

They know us and they love it.

And they see that even when we do something that in the moment felt really right and then when we go through it again we're like ehh and we're embarrassed.

It's okay.

And they just say keep claiming yourself,

Keep recognizing.

And they always turn us back into ourselves.

And when we look in a mirror we're looking at just our reflection.

That's the moment we stepped away from that friend.

And that deeper part of ourselves just kept watching and saying I'm here and I love you no matter what you do and I know you.

And I know that even though you do something and it turned out to be hurtful that that wasn't your deepest intent because I know you across lifetimes and I know that you are love.

And one day you look in that mirror and you realize that you've been looking at a reflection of you and not the real you.

And you step back into being yourself.

And you feel that knowing.

That knowing that knows everything you've ever done and loves you.

And that knowing that you are love.

And you merge with that.

And you recognize you don't even have to merge because you are that.

You are the knowing.

Beyond seeing,

Beyond thinking,

The knowing that loves every aspect of yourself.

That's gone to sleep with you your whole life and loved you at the end of each day.

And that knowing rests in the unified field of consciousness.

And though it is beyond our understanding sometimes to understand how we are one and many at the same time.

But that knowing is beyond just your individual self.

There is no one separate from you.

That if they reject you,

They're rejecting a reflection from a mirror.

They're not sitting in the seat of knowing.

And that knowing that you are not only loves the individual that you express as a reflection of the one being.

But you're everyone else too.

And from this deep centered state as you open to the love that you are.

You provide that not only to the individual expression of the one but also to the entirety of the one.

Because when we truly know one another we cannot help but love one another.

Because we function from the deepest understanding of who we are.

And we hold this space.

And from here we love all the reflections of ourselves.

The ones that have longing.

The ones that got so caught up in the mirror.

And the reflection.

The parts of ourselves that we're trained to look outside for love.

From this space deep inside we can love all those aspects even if they reject us.

Even if they say no,

No.

I want it from that other reflection.

Isn't it amazing that a reflection can seek another reflection?

And isn't it so clear now why people are lonely when reflections are loving reflections?

And yet we can see the beauty in that too from this space.

Because love that you are is so vast that even a reflection can love another reflection.

That can pour through you.

You can have a relationship that's loving with someone else even though it's only a partial reflection.

And how much love must there be if reflections can love reflections?

So we can see the fallacy of it.

At the same time the beauty.

We can love both of those things.

And from here,

Even when one of those reflections has been taught to not love itself or it's been taught it has to be a particular way or it's been taught that it's responsible for everything that all must go well and it cannot make a mistake and everybody's depending on it and it has to make sure to keep everything straight on the calendar and go to every meeting and be that same thing and hold up and be support and oh my gosh if I fail or if I get it wrong or if I don't do this for the other,

If I don't do this for someone else if I don't be a good girl or if I'm not a good guy or if I'm not,

You know,

All those pressures that we feel we can love those parts of us.

And even as we send that love to those parts and they're like,

No,

No,

No,

You don't understand.

This is really true.

This is really how it is.

I cannot make a mistake.

I have to be good enough.

I have to get this right.

I have to do for others.

I'm not okay unless I'm helping someone else.

And the longing,

The desire for love and the going to bed at night unfulfilled of having that somebody else knew them.

And for a moment,

Even though that part is rejecting you,

It turns and it sees this vast being of love and it knows that it's loved and it's angry because it didn't have it for so long and it's been so close and it's angry that it was lied to and it lied to itself.

And it has to decide,

Am I going to keep being angry and lonely or am I going to fall into love with myself?

And maybe it decides,

I'm going to keep being angry,

But it turns around and that love coming at it and the one being that you are is so deep and never-ending and it softens because it can't stop itself from loving something that's pouring love into it.

And even though it's angry and it's fighting,

It's also dissipating and falling in love with itself because then it realizes,

Oh my God,

I'm a reflection of that.

I didn't know that.

That's me.

I'm this love.

And it just falls into you and into oneness and is loved and is known,

Is completely known and loved.

Not loved anyway,

But loved always.

Not loved even though,

But loved through and through.

And it let go,

It lets go of all of its anger and shame and guilt and pain and receives love and is known.

It thought if someone knew it completely,

It might not be loved.

And now it knows that it is known thoroughly and is loved and adored because it was always a reflection of love.

We just sit in that for a moment.

We share it with the unified field of consciousness.

And we reject no one,

No thing,

That this love expands out from each of us throughout our city,

Throughout our state,

Throughout our country,

Throughout our continent,

Throughout the water,

Touching every animal in the water,

Touching every piece of algae,

Touching the depths of the ocean.

And from those depths it rises to meet us and touches us and is known and we are knowing.

And it crosses the continents.

And every being,

Every plant,

Animal,

Every vibration is known and loved as it is.

No thing is unacceptable.

No thing is not worthy of love.

Because love loves and we love all the reflections of ourselves.

And we spread that across our entire planet and through our universe.

And the unified field of consciousness breathes together in love.

You are known as you are known.

You know as you are known.

And you are love.

And at this point,

We just sit in that.

You can take the time to open this state of love to every thought you've ever had about yourself.

These are all just reflections that you can love from the state of knowing.

Let anything you encounter fall into love with you.

The field of love has no antidote.

Nothing can stop the vibration of love.

And allow yourself to include your own body now in that field of love.

It's a reflection of the field of love that you are that generates the action and activity of this body.

If you lift a finger,

It's from the field of love.

Touch every part of your body with that love.

Every cell of your body.

Every stored memory that is in your body.

Touch it with that love.

Every organ of your body filled with this love.

Allow your body to know you.

And you to know your body and how grateful you are to the wisdom of the body and that you can trust it and it can trust you and you are the same being.

It's a physical manifestation of the love that you are and may every step you take be filled and dripping with love.

Every time you hold someone's hand,

May that feel that love.

And may you feel the love in your own hand.

May you relax and rest into the love that you are.

Let us never be so focused on the illusion of the other that we forget to include ourselves.

And may we never be so focused on the illusion of ourselves that we forget that we are love and are one.

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I needed this open eye meditation today. So beautiful, so peaceful, so true. Thanks

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The last 20 minutes… wow. All so well spoken. Thank you 🙏

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The concept of self rejection took me aback as I realized how much I do that to myself. Gracias!

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Will need to listen when I’m awake to leave a thorough review so job done!

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I feel reborn this morning.
Your words have woken me up from a confused and bewildering dream.
The words thank you feel so inadequate to express the gratitude I feel for the words you have given to me. I am you, you are my and I love you.

Thank you Deana 🙏 i could relate to every aspect of your story. Powerful and profound. I really needed this. 😘