This meditation will begin with a small journal reading and end with breath work to help you process your emotions.
It will support you in finding peace with your current state of being.
I hope this is a calming session for you.
I am trying to honor this space in my life where I don't feel like myself.
Most days I wake up to an anxious pit in my stomach that tightens with each breath and broadens with each flicker of my eyelids.
It twists and turns until I lay in bed for a while longer,
Waiting for the uneasiness to subside.
I am so used to labeling myself as someone happy,
Optimistic,
And excited about life that when I feel the opposite,
I believe there must be something wrong with me.
I find myself fighting against the winter storms that wrestle within,
The tide that comes in high,
And the night sky that waits for dawn to return.
I can never sit with my shadows.
I can never allow myself to be in pain.
I am always trying to swim upstream and float above the waves crashing down on me.
The harder I resist,
The deeper I sink.
I fell asleep crying last night.
I held my face in both hands as the tears flowed down my arms to my elbows,
Until I couldn't hold myself up any longer,
Until I struggled to breathe.
It was the first time in months that I let myself feel loss,
To grieve a life that is no longer mine,
To miss someone I love.
How long have I been drifting asleep?
I allow the waters to flood.
I want to be swept into the eye of the storm.
I am no longer afraid.
My defenses are down.
Life please do with me as you will.
Please teach me what I must learn.
I will not hide from you any longer.
How often do we disregard uncomfortable emotions?
How frequently do we run from our pain?
Why is it difficult to sit in our discomfort and simply be in it?
Sometimes in our lives we are nudged to beckon our unfolding.
We are asked to let go,
Surrender,
And relinquish all expectations of who we should be,
How we should act,
Or what steps we should take next.
A great mystery lies beyond what our eyes can see.
A new life waits for us when we walk into the depths of the unknown.
Take a few moments to sit with yourself and whatever state of being you're in.
Create space to welcome your discomfort.
Invite your worries,
Stress,
And fear into your heart.
It's okay to experience these emotions that we label bad or wrong.
You are human.
You are allowed to feel everything,
Both good and bad,
And light and dark.
We are here to feel all that we can.
Take this time to simply feel.
Allow yourself to be as you are.
Take a few deep breaths.
Breathe in through your nose,
Creating space for your pain.
Exhale deeply through your mouth.
Take another deep inhale through your nose.
Breathe in your current state of being.
Exhale deeply through your mouth.
Do this three more times at your own pace.
Let go.
Say the following statements to yourself or aloud.
It is okay for me to experience all the emotions housed within me.
I love and accept where I am in my life right now.
I love and accept myself.
I am a beautiful being with the capacity to grow and expand.
What I'm feeling now won't last forever.
It is only temporary.
I welcome the unknown.
I embrace darkness.
It is through this darkness that I step into the light.
I am allowed to flow within and without my inner worlds.
I am free to be me as I am now.
Before we close this session,
Place both hands on your heart and hold yourself for a moment longer.
This is the current moment of your life.
Your next steps may be unknown.
You may not be able to see the road ahead.
But all you must do is be with yourself exactly as you are.
Lovingly as you are.
Perfectly as you are.
Cultivate gratitude for being able to feel so profoundly.
You are beautiful as you are right now.
I send you love and blessings.
May you stand forever guided in your truth.