Get in line with the mirror.
If you could sit,
That would be better.
So there's a big full-length mirror that you can sit in front of.
That would be amazing.
And if it's somewhere to stand,
That's fine.
You could go in the bathroom,
Put me on the seat of the toilet,
Whatever that looks like.
Get yourself all set up where you can hear me and you're looking at yourself in the mirror.
And then look at your left eye.
Go right into your left eye.
Take some long,
Slow,
Deep breaths.
Let's look at yourself.
Look into your left eye and just notice what comes up first.
Awareness.
Awareness is so key.
So just notice what you're thinking as you're looking in your own eye.
Allow your thoughts to arise and then let them go.
If you can,
The goal not to add any like power to the stories.
More of like just a recognizing and an awareness of having them.
And this is to support with judgment.
Now,
You may not have this as I'm looking at my cell.
There are things that I am picking apart.
And what I've noticed over time is if I keep doing that,
I really get inside of my head and I'm really unkind to myself.
And I know that that just like isn't helpful.
So while I notice what's coming up,
I'm sending it up.
If I look at different parts of me that I know that the beauty industry,
Mainstream culture,
Anything like that,
Their standards,
I don't match up to them.
I don't match up to the thin story.
I don't match up to lip injections or Botox.
And I'm not judging for those.
I'm sharing where my head goes is like.
I could not have those.
Right.
I go to like.
There are many things I could change about myself because I don't love it.
But like,
Are those thoughts even mine?
Like what?
What's the definition of hell?
And for a long time,
Thin has been the definition of health to me.
But I recognize I hang out with thin people and I am way more fit and healthy.
I'm way more fit and healthy.
So I like I'm recognizing that these stories that I have in my head,
These things I've been believing,
I actually didn't really like agree to them.
So why would I sit here and look at myself,
The unique individual that I am and say mean things?
I would never sit face to face with someone else and be like,
You have wrinkles.
You have a double chin.
You're fat.
You're ugly.
Your ears look like buttholes.
I never say those things to anybody else.
So why do I say that to myself?
And this usually brings me to a moment of like seeing myself from a less judged lens.
If I was looking at myself,
But I was somebody else,
Like,
What would I say to me?
And so then I'm like,
Oh,
Why am I so mean to myself?
So when I think of that,
Like,
What are some things that I could tell myself that I probably want to hear?
And I'd be like,
Colleen,
You're awesome.
Your tattoos are wicked.
Your smile is cool.
Your laugh is completely original.
You have a super cute nose.
You have dimples.
You have green eyes.
Your eyebrows look on point.
Like,
Colleen,
You're a super kind human.
And you don't need to prove anything to anybody.
Because I think you're.
.
.
I don't think there's anything wrong with you.
Other than you have this weird view of what's supposed to be right.
I love you.
I love you.
You're doing such a good job.
Please,
Just instead of me saying it for you,
Take a moment and feel what words you need to hear from yourself.
And I'll be saying them quietly to myself.
And I'm going to give you some space and time to say to yourself.
I would just like to speak to the part of you that is like the true self,
The capital S self.
Remember who the fuck you are.
Remember who you are.
Remember who you are.
Just take a moment,
Talk to yourself,
Your true self,
And tell her,
Them,
What you need to hear.
What do you need to hear?
Stop looking for it from other people.
Because even when they say it,
You don't accept it.
Because you're waiting to hear it from you.
And honey,
This really is a fake it to your make it practice.
If you don't just keep saying it,
Like,
I love you.
You're doing such a great job.
What do you need to hear?
Say it now.
Take it in,
Breathe.
The only way to actually shift your life into like what you want is to speak highly to yourself.
To change your narrative,
To become aware of your narrative.
The beginning of the meditation supported you in becoming aware of your narrative.
The critic,
The default mode network within you that is always looking at the negative.
Please become present to those thoughts that are ongoing and shift them.
Think the opposite.
What's the opposite?
Well,
Definitely,
When I came in,
And I started looking at different parts,
It's the opposite.
And you do not need to change anything.
Clin,
You're perfect.
Clin,
Get another tattoo.
Clin,
Keep doing what you're doing.
Like,
Hit the negative thoughts with an opposite thought.
Be kind to yourself.
Take a few more breaths.
Good job for doing this.
Do this all week.
All week.
Thank you for letting me guide you through your practice.
Namaste.
