So I'm gonna little egg chair,
Which is fun.
Please find a comfortable position for you.
Let's get through that noise.
All right.
Oh,
Yeah.
Okay.
Roll your shoulders down your spine.
Rest your hands on your knees or your thighs.
And start with your breath.
Long,
Slow,
Deep breaths in.
And long,
Slow,
Deep breaths out.
That first minute and a half to settle in and arrive by focusing 100% on your breath.
Today's practice,
I have spent the whole day talking about emotion and emotions being stored in the body.
Let's do a little mindful based practice.
Connect to your physical body.
Most of us spend our time and our days in our heads.
And the idea is to come into your body and then scan your body.
Check in with your body.
Are you feeling any tension?
Or any certain way in any part of your body?
So I've had an injury in my shoulder for quite some time now.
But literally,
I'm not feeling that at this moment.
What's coming to me is more of like a space around my heart,
My heart center.
It feels almost like my heart is beating.
But it's like more like radiating.
Like I feel a sensation of tightness.
And I feel that radiating.
So I offer you the opportunity to tune into whatever you might be feeling in your body.
And maybe you feel nothing and that too is okay,
Tune into that.
And I offer you a dialogue,
An opportunity to have a conversation with your body and or the sensations in your body.
Just ask like,
What,
What are you?
What do you hear for you?
Who are you?
What are you doing?
And maybe you get answers.
Maybe a vision,
A thought,
What's happening for you?
Right now,
With the sensation in your body.
And I just had like a,
An idea pop up.
And one of the things that I am focusing on putting my attention towards right now is about like,
Not people pleasing,
And it's about speaking up.
And exactly what I'm worried about happening when I speak up is happening.
So at first,
I thought I was like hurt in my heart.
But now what I'm seeing is it's actually like my heart trying to build a protective barrier around it.
Whoa.
So no,
That's not allowed to happen.
I can feel my shoulders like slanting in and myself like sinking.
So it's gonna open up.
Open up and stay connected.
And let this all be okay.
It is all okay.
I am okay.
I don't need to build a wall around my heart.
So why don't we unbuild it?
Open up,
Keep the heart open.
These are literally just words coming out of my mouth that I need to tell my own body.
So maybe there's something for you to say or to share.
And you know,
It's amazing.
It's like,
All of a sudden,
I just had this pain in my right.
Like right above my collarbone.
And it I have this pain in my right shoulder as I started the whole meditation with.
But I wasn't feeling I was feeling my heart.
And now I'm feeling my shoulder.
So to me,
I feel like there's this direct connection.
And I just felt it I felt it go from the center of my chest all the way to exactly where the tendon is injured.
Like like a radiation boom.
So I think by not closing down my heart,
I just had like a direct insight into the wisdom of my body that this closing of the heart is what is actually causing the injury in my shoulder.
I'm slumping my shoulders,
I'm protecting my heart.
And I'm hurting myself because it's just like not a healthy way to stand my posture is off.
Oh,
Yeah.
Connect to whatever's coming up for you.
You know,
I'm really in it right now.
So sometimes I'm like,
I don't feel anything.
And that's okay.
Like,
What is that?
What are you?
Why are you nothing?
What does that mean?
Is that apathy?
Am I not feeling anything right now?
Why am I not feeling I'm shutting down?
Why am I shut down?
There's always a conversation to have.
Breathe.
Breathe.
Open up and expand.
A few more breaths.
What do you need?
What do you need to hear?
What do you need to do?
In my head,
What just popped up is like I'm sitting in an egg chair.
And that egg chair is only making like my rounding of my spine even more.
So sit up.
See,
A yawn is like a purging.
This is amazing.
I'm literally just like transforming in front of you.
Yawning is a purging.
So by connecting to what I was feeling and dialoguing,
I got an answer,
I got an insight.
And then I got direction and I followed it.
And literally,
There was a shift.
I hear that again.
Nice.
That is a tool that's a somatic practice.
It doesn't necessarily mean like this is going to happen every time.
But right there,
I hope that you can take that and put it into your pocket of tools to pull out when and if you're having emotions.
Something that people ask me all the time is like,
How do I also release the emotion in the moment?
This was a tool to work with.
Come on out.
Come on back.
Thank you so much for sharing with me and for being here and I'm gonna go
