Welcome to La Ve Homme Living Change with Colleen St.
Michael's.
I'm an intuitive development expert and spiritual guide.
My intention for this podcast is to offer support,
Guidance,
And information to help you bring your light and inspiration into the world.
Welcome to episode 8 of La Ve Homme Living Change.
I have died a thousand times in choosing to live.
As I have walked the enlightened path,
I have grieved myself each time of growth.
Like the pages of an unbound book,
My stories created my identity,
My human existence,
And all that I knew about myself,
I felt,
Was just what it was.
It just is.
Until I learned that there was so much more to me.
Untapped,
Limitless love,
Limitless compassion,
Limitless joy,
Limitless creation.
And as each page turned,
I grieved the woman,
The teenager,
And the girl I once was.
The journey to you is not always easy,
But it's not as hard as we make it out to be.
The fear has a strong hold on you and can often make you believe that you're limited.
Fear has the ability to be the bully inside of you,
And your ego feeds off this fear.
But what are you afraid of?
Are you afraid of your greatness?
Are you afraid of failure,
Of criticism,
Of judgment?
When we ask ourselves not just to be present in fear,
But to investigate it,
As we start to investigate it,
We realize that the beliefs of others are just that.
They belong to others.
We've grown from our past.
We've grown from the witnessing of life that led us to this point.
And we can use our past as a great guide of what we do and do not want to repeat.
But we cannot allow ourselves to stand in a place of discomfort any further.
And as you grieve the versions of yourself,
Allow yourself peace,
Compassion,
And forgiveness.
Often when I sit with clients,
It is not today's stories that wreak havoc on their emotional and physical lives.
It is the replay of events that have happened that their mind keeps bringing up into today's mental movie theater,
But manipulating the details and the actual events of the story,
And often creating a horror story.
Rather than creating a story of victory,
It pulls us deeper inside into the victim.
It pulls us deeper inside into the villain.
It pulls us deeper inside into the false belief that we can change events.
We have seen the end of this movie and cannot rewrite a script that has already been released.
And as you allow yourself permission to just sit in your truth,
And our truth is we understand the past because we've lived it,
And now we must let it go to build into our future,
Investing in a life that you choose to live,
A life that you have the desire to live,
And a life that brings fulfillment of abundance,
Health,
Wealth,
Love,
And happiness.
As I have gone through this process over and over again,
Each layer that once was satisfying is now sour and needs to be let go.
But often we're not shown how to let go.
We're not shown how to offer ourselves forgiveness.
We're not shown how to offer ourselves compassion.
We're not shown the tools to living wholeness,
As our world that we have been living in is incomplete.
It is only focusing on the parts of societal standards that are using only the logic,
But we're robbing ourselves of a rich wisdom,
Of living in wholeness of mind,
Body,
And spirit.
Unblocking and unlocking our intuitive wisdom,
Unlocking the communication of our inner being and our guidance system,
Which offers you the compassion and the forgiveness.
As I was learning how to work with all of the parts of me,
I discovered that I always had been very intuitive,
But was never taught to trust it.
And as you explore within your own being,
I'm sure you'll notice moments where you've been given nudges or twinges,
Or little hints that you felt or heard or sensed within your being that a situation was not of the best outcome for you.
So when you revisit those moments,
Don't look at yourself with a state of punishment and say,
Oh,
I should have known that.
Look at it and say,
I have an intuitive connection.
I just didn't know what it was.
And praise yourself for that because that offers a building block in how we develop trust with ourselves.
And when you start to trust yourself,
The voice of our intuitive being becomes much more expressive and much more easier to trust and an allowance of the information.
It's like a valve.
If the hose has a kink in it,
It doesn't mean the water is not on.
It just means we don't have a flow of water.
And it's the same other intuition.
When there is a kink,
Which is a blockage,
It blocks the flow of information.
When we attach ourselves to how things should look like or what we felt life was going to be,
Or living should haves or should have been or this should have come out this way,
We limit ourselves in what is.
So an exercise that you can do to practice this would be to sit down and ask yourself,
What is it that you want and what is it that comes up when that question is posed on the paper?
Write everything down because when we start to move into the flow of writing,
Our mental chatter becomes less because we're now using pen or paper or computer.
So think about it.
What is it you want and then what emotions surface?
Does your first instinct share with you that you're not worthy?
Or,
Oh,
This doesn't happen to me,
It happens to other people.
When you recognize the unconscious dialogue that has been playing out,
You understand as where these blockages come from.
You understand that where the limit was being is being stifled.
So if you had a free world to just dream free,
Write free and be free,
What would you write on that page?
That is a starting point of allowing yourself to be open and to be willing to be willing to be connected to something outside of discomfort.
So as you move into this exercise,
Practice this,
Use this on a daily diet of enlightenment,
Where it's allowing you to start building that relationship to saying,
I am worthy,
I am capable and I am limitless.
So as you find your limitless,
Grieve the parts of yourself that you let go.
It's creating space as to what you're letting in.
Honor all feelings as we have to feel it to heal it.
We don't need to marinate in it.
We don't need to roll in it.
We don't need to keep hitting the replay of the life that we've already lived,
But yet isn't serving us moving forward.
So use these little exercises daily as you are stepping out of your darkness and stepping into the light.
The shadow work,
And we'll talk about that later,
But the shadow is the part of us that is hurting,
Is the part of us that needs the most attention.
And shadow is the hidden,
The shame,
The vulnerability,
The anger,
The frustration,
All the parts of us that we have never been shown how to feel through.
So we stifle them,
We hide them,
We create this illusion that if we do not show the world this side of us,
Then it does not exist.
But it's actually hurting the most important person,
And it's hurting your inner world and it's hurting you.
So the shadow takes us into the dark to be transmuted into the light.
And the dark is not the evil.
The dark is,
If you walk into a room and it has no light,
It is hard to navigate.
And as you bring more light in,
The path becomes more illuminated so you know what direction to take and you know what steps to follow.
You become one with the parts of you that were hurting.
And they don't become your triggers,
They don't become a guide to you.
The ego feeds off of the hurt parts of you as it stores the memories that have held you back.
It's now time for the emotional,
Mental,
And spiritual freedom that you were birthrighted to live.
Ask yourself the question,
What if everything turned out well?
And what if I was worthy?
And what if I am capable?
And what if my purpose here is greater?
And my inner being knows it is greater than my fear?
I'm too determined not to try.
I'm too determined not to explore.
And I'm too determined.
You are a strong,
Infinite being.
It takes an enormous amount of emotional courage and strength to live life holding on to these illusions.
It is with life with ease and grace that we embrace the ability to break through the limits and live.
