Miracles Happen

This is an account of a true miracle and how In the Hands of God played a part in finding much-needed hope in difficult times. I talk with Father Carel-Piet van Eeden about how the process of how my life partner died for 15 minutes and came back to life. I also talk about the power of prayer. Miracles do Happen

Transcript

I am so happy to be here with one of my dearest friends,

A wonderful counselor,

Father coral Pete van Eden,

It's so good to see you,

Shining face there from South Africa.

You're,

You're,

You are so many things you are counselor.

You're a metaphysical counselors well,

You're with the white robe.

You better say it right for me.

Yes.

And I've learned a lot about them,

The white robe monks of St.

Benedict.

One of the things that you practice is listening.

You should do so very well.

And it's a good thing because I talked a lot.

We need to be there for people to unburden themselves.

And I did this week you you know that,

Oh what a week this week.

I mean,

I think I'll go through the story maybe a little bit and how you've been involved and helped me through this as well.

And then,

I mean,

Truly,

Something miraculous happened this week,

Truly something miraculous did happen.

And it doesn't always happen when we ask for prayers to be answered.

We never know the higher plan,

And maybe the whole complete higher plan but this week there was a huge,

Huge miracle that had happened.

And it's so amazing because we're recording this on April 17.

My sister Pamela has her birthday tomorrow her heavenly birthday now tomorrow.

And she passed away July 29.

And I started work on In the Hands of God with your help,

Your music and inspiration for months in that creating of the music and song process.

And then going about finding,

You know,

How to proceed and finding Stephen Malillo doing just heavenly arrangements so beautiful and then finding a vocalist and finding Grammy Award winning Darlene Colton came home and it all started coming together.

There were some issues with CD Baby that were rather frustrating.

But we just we just found out that it's now on here now.

And that's the I'll show a couple of pages.

This is here now for people watching on video.

This is part of the miracle.

This just happened I just checked,

Literally moments ago.

And now In the Hands of God is on all the sites to stream.

And that happened just in time for my sister's heavenly birthday.

And I'll put that and it's available also on the website.

So this is really a miracle in itself because you know,

And I know we went through stuff trying to get this done.

And I couldn't tell you how many times are going because I have my name Reverend Cindy Paulus on the CD for some reason this year.

They wouldn't allow that on CD Baby because I have my name is Cindy Paulus with them and on the music and you know,

Writing the lyrics.

But thank you God it came out in time for what I wanted to be out with.

I never ever expected father when I was doing this music with him spirit coming through me that it would have the journey that is taken even intensified that as it did this last week.

It's interesting because I think I've talked to you about Reverend Mary Omwick,

Right?

Yes.

He's an amazing Unity Minister.

Very very close friend of mine.

She wrote the opening of my book Spiritual Tools for a Better Life.

I'm wearing her jacket.

She gave me we've had prayer circles together.

She's encouraged me in so many ways and we would go out and celebrate each other's birthdays and go out and meet and he was one of the few people who understand you are in the same situation where you understand how spirit is so important and she understood that and she understand my love for Mother Mary.

And it's so nice when we find people like you and her when that understand the spiritual side of ourselves because a lot of people are not open to exactly what we're talking about.

You know what I'm talking about?

So she had been dealing with a lot of health issues for a couple of years and I sent her the In the Hands of God music that I only had actually by center through Hytale as files before the album came up and she got to listen to and she loved it and she shared it with some people.

I didn't tell her she wasn't supposed to really share with anyone yet because it wasn't really out yet but she loved it so much.

She shared it and she just told me how heavenly it was and she was an ICU with my life partner and she passed away Thursday morning.

She passed away and you said to me something because I've been calling you right?

I've been calling you many a chat and since I get up early I call you after I meditate and it's about usually seven o'clock in South Africa and it's seven o'clock here and I've called you in tears many weeks this last week many times in the last week and when I told you what happened with her you said you thought that Reverend Mary Ohmwick had a hand in what happened and I think I think so too and what happened was we have radio stations.

I've been with John for ages decades and decades 40 years plus and he goes in early to the station while I'm still meditating and he went in 6 30 last Friday which would have been April 9th and had a heart attack right there at the station and his heart had been racing he'd asked for a glass of water took a couple of gasps and literally his pulse stopped someone there started trying to give him CPR and then thank God the emergency personnel came very quickly within about three minutes or four minutes but he I raced over but it had been that he'd been there with no pulse for about 12 minutes when I got there and I started calling his name I mean I was calling his name like you call when you're trying to really really reach someone and he got his pulse back but he'd been dead literally dead for about 15 minutes when they brought him back then we went to I drove to the ER and with COVID I couldn't go inside they wouldn't let me in and I was very at that point I'm not an emotional person I don't usually cry but I was in tears I said let me in please you know it's a matter of life and death and they said no but they sent a beautiful chaplain out named Amy Amy came out and she was so lovely and she'd heard of your organization the group you're with the white robe monks of St Benedict and I told her how you wrote this music with me and I played her in the hands of God and I was sitting there crying with my mask on her with their mask on and she started crying listening to the music and as I was playing in the hands of God I looked up and there's we have egrets the white egrets do you have them in South Africa yeah they're big I saw I mean I just for a moment pause and I saw this white egret fly you know it was a very blue day blue sky white egret flying across the sky I went oh my that's John's spirit right so into ICU no response they brought his temperature down basically almost frozen right where the body still I don't know what you call that you you know what they call that I post them yeah I put that's what they did hypothermia and then they started on Sunday to try to bring him back but he was they were doing it very slowly because his heart would race and it took about eight hours to bring him back to normal temperature and then they said within a day or two they should start seeing some response they were not seeing any response and when they tried to take him out of sedation because he has intubated and everything that down his throat the tube his heart would start racing after they took him off sedation and his heart would raise so much that they had put him back under again so after crying every day this you know I talked to him by you can only do the chat face time and I told him I knew that when I looked at him there was something there and I said to him on Wednesday John if you're there I really know that it's probably very beautiful where you are on you don't have to come back if you don't want to but I'd love you to come back and if you want to come back you're going to have to start responding to voice commands because they're saying that you're not there in fact after that call the doctor called me and said listen we're not seeing a response we only keep the tubes in intubation for about 10 days it's already been six days I just want to prepare you it's probably time to let him go he said he's had 78 years he's had a good life a successful life you know only about four to five percent of the people who go through this with being dead for that long can ever come back and then we don't know what happens to them even if they do come back so you know the only thing we could do is put them on a tracheotomy and then a feeding tube and I don't think you'd want to do that and I talked to you about this right I called you in tears the next morning saying you know the doctor's saying you know that that and I was just I don't cry like that I was sobbing saying yeah I have to and I wrote him a goodbye poem you know it was touching and it was really felt like goodbye at that time and then I called ICU and I talked to the night nurse because it was at that time about 6 37.

I said how's John doing he says he's responding to voice commands I said what that's amazing everyone's saying he's not responding not just that like three hours later they were able to take the tubes out they were able to take the sedation out enough where he was able to talk and he said I want to come home now you know and I know that I'm going part of me is thinking does that mean he wants to go home to heaven yes because he was there or did he want and and he did know my name there was still a lot of questions but he continued to do well and I did FaceTime with him a couple of times I played him in the hands of God during that week two times on my computer while he was doing the FaceTime with me on my phone then he got better and he was able to swallow water he was which is one of the big things they needed to make sure he could eat on his own and swallow water because if you can't swallow you're in big trouble right you can't eat so he's doing that slowly and then this morning I got a call from the doctor who told me it was impossible that's nice I got a call from the doctor and he goes I said now do you believe in miracles now and he and I felt kind of bad because I he says well yes but you know I said no no but you said he says well you know but you never know I said no no no but you said he was going to be going and I had to say goodbye and I wrote him a goodbye poem he says well sometimes I said please just admit this was a miracle and then he said it was very hard touch he said that same night two other people in the unit died of a heart attack and I felt so bad for him you know I really did I felt so bad for him I said I can't even imagine you know that he said it was and he said I cried he said I cried one of the women who died had made it back many times and I said I'm so sorry I said I have a CD I want to leave for you to listen to in the hands of God so this morning I spoke to him again and he's going to be going over for work on getting an angiogram etc but he was talking much more coherently you know okay so that's that's that story and and you know what's amazing is that in the hands of God played a role in all of this now when we did this we never could have known we never could have known right and and I mean um when was it on on last week's Sunday was the first time that I used in the hands of God as part of mass and it completely threw me the energy and the the power in that song and the message in that song and we we got so used to the music and and to to the words and and to everything and listening to it over and over and it's beautiful and it's everything that we wanted it to be and yet when we started using it for the original intent and that was for other people to hear it it just took on a life of its own and that message like you said it went we we never thought it would and it is so beautiful and it's such a honor and privilege to be part of that and to be able to make a difference in one last person and it's more than that and more than that and I believe that there's spirit working through so many angels in this one my sister for one and now my my beloved friend Mary Omwake I have to tell you I was out doing yoga this morning and the red cardinal that I love and it's always been a sign for John and for me a red cardinal came and they're very shy birds they usually just peep and find and spent at least three minutes there and then a white egret flew right over my head and landed in the palm tree on the property right across and they don't usually do that egrets you know will sometimes be around but not often so I went one of the egret that flew away that morning from the ER has now come back I mean it's it's there's so much that happened here and I have to say it's interesting I did a video series on talks at the East Asian Center in Oahu handled by some professors and people and in one of the talks the professor who talked about death was teaching and a little Asian lady raised her hand to talk to him and she says I just have to tell you professor I've been taking this class for months and I just found out that I have cancer and I have very limited time and it's very very different talking about death and what happens and when you're actually dying and I always remember this was like 20 years ago I did this series you know and you know I've done a lot of talking about life after death and of course my father and of course now with Mary many friends many messages but it is when you're going through it with someone intimately like that very involved with the calls of trying to deal with the doctors and the nurses and the and the details and the plans and what you do you're dealing with so many levels that you have to you know people said how could you go through all this I don't know how you're dealing with all this because there's been some other things going on as well you know having to deal with work and and the house I'm in they want to sell it and then I figure out moving and it's like wow all at once and the only way I've been able to survive this week is with friends like you and I've been calling you every day and what's happening you and also with the prayers and with meditation and being able to call upon God to be there I know the prayers I know the prayers made a difference you know there's no doubt in my mind there's been so many people praying you know including you you know so we can't ever discount I think a couple of things one that miracles can happen but they don't always happen miracles are not on demand yes well they don't always appear the way that we thought they would absolutely right absolutely right I wrote this this morning there is an ever present prayer that brings the heart's bright sphere remind us that God's love is always with us here a prayer of such compassion for our earthly ways as we try to survive with all the challenges that we have to face you can hear this prayer that is alive in our spirit here it speaks to us inside and brings us peace of mind it brings us hope when we are down it lifts us up to heaven's higher ground there is an ever-present prayer you can hear that sound that echoes so profound that is God's prayer that is the love in us that's found and and that is true there's this ever-present prayer and we've talked about this because I pulled out a Jesus deck of cards and and it said I pulled it out not once I would pull it out and then put it back and then three times I pulled up pray constantly is there a pray continuously constantly I think it was I think it's pray constantly and we had to talk about this right yes definitely and I mean the thing is that all of life is one prayer we just forget that we are busy praying and and that's when we tend to miss out on on the glory of the Lord so every single moment is prayer because why else are we here why else is any living being there or any non-living thing for that matter everything was created for the glory of God and that is done through prayer so so it is a constant thing and in some of some of the the monastic communities as well that constant prayer is what they focus on work is prayer and it's such a beautiful thing to become aware about and what you spoke about earlier about the the dying and having to to face death it is such a blessing when you get sick sometimes to be able to face death and to be able to face your own mortality because the fact of the matter is we are all busy dying and if one gets really sick and I see that almost every day I work a lot with people who have dreaded disease and cancer and autoimmune disease and all of the bad things and those people start living because they are made aware of the fact that life is finite this life is finite and we're here for only this period of time and then we're going to go into glorious adventures yes but this adventure is there to be taken hold of and and to be lived and we forget about that and that is the biggest thing that I learned from from people who are facing death is that you know every morning wake up and be thankful for being alive and that then spills over into every moment being pray and it's something to it's easy to sit here and to say that it's not I'm not constantly in that space at all but I try to be and I think that's all we can do is to try and remember that what I'm doing now what I'm doing to somebody else even is a form of prayer and when we face that life kind of takes on a different shade of holiness and in that same way isn't that what Christ consciousness is is is holding that consciousness of Christ so that you are always in that state and which is then tying in and able for people who know about enlightenment and Christ consciousness to be able to tie in that it's beautiful to be able to meditate and it's been for me an amazing thing and it brought the words about for all of this work I do with CDs and music and working with you but it's bringing that also from where that we learn to connect in spirit into our life so it is constant in our lives and believe me that's that's the real challenges is not just sitting by yourself and meditating and that's a challenge because you have to get past your mind and all the illusions and the darkness and but to be able to live it in your daily life especially when I've been trying to negotiate everything that's going on this last weekend trying to inform people what's happening still doing my work at the radio station still doing my shows and boy you know if you bring that energy you have from prayer and meditation into your life it is a way surrendering to God totally it is and that is the next step is is once you become aware of the fact that everything is prayer then we start asking so how do I pray and how do I live a life of prayer and that's when the inner work happens that is when the meditation the prayer the only just sitting that we try and practice and giving up of the ego so that God's will can be done through us and it's that that's the ultimate of the prey I think is that we do what God's will is and that is thing to live in the compassion of the cross consciousness and to shave that love that is without limit and that's unconditional well love is the ultimate prayer I mean and it is the ultimate form of compassion and healing even if the healing can't take place in the way we think it and that's again where we have to understand and it's come so clearly to me in this last week being in the hands of God you know and and I did a poem on that CD as well that we did with the beautiful music from Stephen Melillo because I felt I wanted to do a poem as well from my sister and that was called the journey home and that one I talk about that in the journey home as well you know that that that journey home boy the light at that time I could see it this morning on Mary's journey home I could see that amazing light that you you leave as you leave there's the word in a beautiful song called calling all angels which I put on my last CD and it was sung by my friend Martha break radon and and it's you know talking about calling all the angels and boy I felt like I've had to call all the angels and in that song it talks about life and it talks about death and it talks about still that would you ever take away that experience of living in the beautiful light that you get after living of leaving you know and and that's what I've been experiencing this week and it's really beyond words and it's also been I mean mind boggling yes emotional yes you know and at the same time just a sense you get this sense when a miracle happens that is like well how could this ever even be I mean no one could ever even in a drama plan that Mary oh my could be in the same place there and I see you leaving her body as John was just coming back to his I mean how could that ever be orchestrated even thought of you know and and how could it even be that after there's like so small percentage and the doctor says no I'm sorry there's no hope that and finally there is that hope and and you know still not knowing you know there's been so much I've told you this week it's only don't know I'm at the Zen Korean master said did a book called only don't know and I've been in that state this last week of and it's not comfortable if unless you can totally give it over to God because you just look at I just I didn't know what I didn't know what was going to happen to John I didn't know what to do about my house or where I was gonna live I didn't know what to do about work or anything you know and um but still getting through getting through this last week yeah I mean as human beings we have this innate ability to survive almost anything and I remember two days ago it was two or three days ago when the doctor told you you need to start preparing to to let John go we the only option and the only chance was a miracle and the the discussion was about you know if one thing just falls into place then you can start focusing your energy on the other things without the worry because all of these worries just compound and it makes life almost unbearable up to a point where and I think you might you might resonate with this feeling of just wanting to step back and say enough oh yeah I don't want to I don't want to maybe just for a day not to think and just be and almost lose oneself in a state of nothingness and that's not an option for many of us so and we asked for the miracle and there it happened and in this time it did happen in the way that we prayed for still I mean there's these long roads ahead yes it's not um you know life carrying on it is an opportunity though to change a new beginning and change yes absolutely and I love the way you brought in and wove into that that the emptiness and nothingness of course that's the heart sutra which I imagine you've been studying and the heart sutra can be very helpful when you get to that point where you get beyond because no eyes ear nose no you know no death nothing you know you get in the heart sutra those statements you know that take you beyond all illusion and it's so interesting because that is a beautiful and real place and but at the same time when you're dealing with your life in the details you have to have both and that's the human the emptiness and the form form is emptiness emptiness is form and that is where the miracle of life has to be played out between this nothingness and this form you know that we are dwelling in and in that space it's a I mean are the miracles and life that happens in so many millions and billions of ways you know and still dealing with the the details I think we're going to have another CD coming from this father I think we have enough words here that there might be another CD coming from this I feel that as well it's it's it's starting to brew you start to feel that there's another one brewing there I do and it's got a different energy yes yes completely different I don't want to say more hopeful because in the hands of god was it is a hopeful CD it is a I think it's a very introspective CD whereas maybe the next one is going to be slightly more sharing of joy and sharing of expressions of god I like that that's a good title maybe that'll be our title expressions of god I like that that might that might be it all right I've got lots of words I'm ready for you and I have a meeting with this group of people that do writing songs and they're having where you can spend money and I didn't want to spend the money you know I really didn't but it's called the American songwriter meet with your mentor and I went okay well you know I can really improve my songwriting skills and and then I went to see who they had for songwriting skills and there's a guy named Dean Fields I said oh well I'm gonna check and see what he's done and I think I'll see and guess what he's he's worked with he's had he's had songs recorded by Laurie McKenna ooh beautiful yes and others so we'll see where it leads to this journey this journey that god is leading us on in the hands of god and people can go and now it's there and here now the city policy are now in the hands of god and it's streaming everywhere and you can go to in the hands of god and there's a link to it in the hands of god.

Com and father do you want to give up because you're now on inside timer I am I am life is taking us in in on many different journeys and god is opening up a lot of opportunities and he's reminding us all of callings that we might not have listened to up to now and so so with your inspiration about a week and a bit ago I finally registered on inside timer and I uploaded one of the mass recordings that we did for for last week Sunday because you mentioned that people on that specific app don't like the word god and a lot of people want to shy away from that and look at the purely spiritual thing because of hurt and past things that they've experienced and I just felt that I'm in a unique position we we can try and bridge that gap and we can show people that even if you are if you've been hurt by your institutional church it doesn't mean that all church groups and all religious orders are the same you know there's there's always a thing to be said for extremism and not all Catholics are bad and not all Catholic priests are the same and and saying that I mean I love all Catholics I love all people so so but there is from the the the more spiritually minded people there is this thing of if you are linked to a specific church group or a specific religion then you are working with lower level energies and you yes in a prejudice absolutely I've seen it and it's such a shame that the shadows been cast you know and and and I have to say you are an amazing counselor and I also encourage you to do that because I've been able to talk with you like I haven't been able to talk with anyone else I know and I have a lot of spiritual friends and I love them nothing against that but you just have a beautiful way of listening and I encourage you in that counseling field as well because you are an amazing counselor and it is your practice I think that is brought you to this point and what you're doing that you've been able to it's not like I'm going to confession but I am confessing a lot and and the thing with that I mean it's about three years ago now I did my first homily exam homily and it was about sin and you know I have spoken about that on a previous recording before but the thing with going to confession and going to see a priest for that is not necessarily to be absolved of your sins because what is sin and if we are moving towards a concept of non-dualism then sin and it doesn't really gel so sin for me is times that I've forgotten about God times that I'm not in prayer or in communion with the Lord and in those times I then misstep and that is what the priest is for it is to go to the priest and to say not forgive me father for I have sinned those are the institutional words but the meaning behind that for me is guide me give me advice so that I can learn and that is the job of the priest and by doing that turning you back to that amazing power acting as a servant of God to be able to be embraced by that love that God is and and it's so big it's so I put that in that end of that poem that I wrote that is a spoken word in the hands of God the last words of that poem is there's such love in the hands of God and that's the truth I well we kept we could talk forever but we'll have to do this again soon I'm just very thrilled that you're there I'm very thrilled that the miracles happen I'm thrilled that the CD came out and I'm sending that energy to my sister Pam saying it's out what words you brought to me and through me is now out thank you God and for the miracle of of John's coming back from the dead literally Lazarus you know you know and for you being there throughout this week such a comfort such a comfort to see me through when times where I just had no one else that could really understand what I was going through I I can't ever thank you enough it's just really been an amazing blessing having such a spiritual good friend and counselor as you and and people go to you you're on inside time or at what what's your name there if so father okay and to retain the difficult Dutch name yes and people can find out more you also on the in the hands of God so god bless you lots of love wonderful talking to you my friend until next time

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Very interesting! Thank you!