Can I Live A Life Without Any Control Inwardly?

**Note: Truth does not always sound pleasant. If the mind is not really peaceful now, it might not be a perfect moment to listen to this podcast, one has to be aware of the emotions or reactions that can block one from listenING ATTENTIVELY and with HUMILITY. This talk is a meditation practice. What one needs to do is listen attentively, without getting stuck in words, examine the mind in silence, not agree or disagree, just look at the mind as it is. Doing so is already part of true meditation.

Transcript

This self-centered society,

This ego-centric society,

Me first.

This petty entity is the uttermost thing ever in this world.

And such life is full of control.

Control my behavior,

Control my thinking.

I need control to have this decency.

Beneath my decency,

There is this restlessness,

There is this burning desire.

I need to control myself to be orderly,

But beneath it is tremendous disorder.

When one sees clearly the ramification and the consequence of this controlling psychologically,

One must ask,

What's the point of control psychologically?

Can I live a life without any control inwardly?

It doesn't mean that one's living a permissive life,

Doing whatever one wants,

Let the stores go wild.

When thinking about having no control,

This wrong association can bring about a sense of fear,

Or if I don't control,

Things will go crazy.

We don't mean the things ultimately,

But inwardly.

Can I have this new control,

New one fragment controlling the other fragments?

Which means that can I live a life totally?

There's no fragments at all.

Where there are no fragments,

There are no controls.

When the life is in totality,

This external control is in the right place.

So if the me is still there,

If there's no control,

The me will go crazy,

Right?

Do whatever it wants.

A life without control inwardly is a life where the me,

The self,

Is totally absent.

So this life is complete,

It's total.

The mind is very alert to observe totally and learn.

So the action is out of this instant perception of situation,

Of the total movement of thoughts.

It is not through the controller,

Which is me,

A fragment of thoughts,

Where the control found me only creates further contradiction,

Conflicts,

Confusion.