Listening To Your True Self With Samantha Ruberto

In this episode of And The Net Appeared, Chelsey is joined by Samantha Ruberto, a Transformational Mindset Coach, Podcaster & Travel Junkie!

We talk about how our challenges are often our greatest lessons, the power of meditation and journaling, finding growth through traveling, creating a personal brand, and so much more.

Originally published Nov 17, 2020.

Transcript

You know,

There's so many things that are in stories,

Like you said,

In our head,

Perfectionism,

Being scared of being seen,

You know,

Not feeling like you're good enough,

That sort of keeps you there.

But it's when you leap into the thing that you know is on your heart,

And you take that chance that all the other pieces come in place.

Welcome to the Anne the Net appeared podcast.

I'm your host,

Chelsea Bensel,

Intuitive mentor for thought leaders,

Coaches and content creators.

In this podcast,

You'll hear from badass humans who have taken big leaps of faith,

And the net appeared.

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Hello,

I'm so excited to be here with you,

Samantha.

Me too.

I'm so excited for our conversation.

So I'm here with Samantha Roberto transformative mindset coach and host of the Hello,

Be you to full podcast.

I love that name.

I love how you spell it.

Yeah,

You're always always most beautiful when yourself right.

So it's like if you can just be you and let your true self shine.

It's like being beautiful is easy.

Confidence inside game.

Totally.

And there's so much with that around,

Like getting visible online.

Oh my goodness.

I've really been thinking about this because I'm just right now I'm putting together this new course called that's all about showing up as the leader that you're meant to be.

But when we get into that spotlight position,

Especially online,

When there's so many people doing something similar to what we're doing,

I know for me and like my clients and just stories from other entrepreneurs that I I talked to,

It's like a lot of that feeling of a lot of it goes back to inner child stuff or like actual childhood memories of wanting to fit in with the cool girls wanting to be like someone else wanting to be accepted.

And so we like change who we are ever so slightly.

But it's true.

Like when you are you,

When you can tap into what makes you who you are,

It's easier said than done,

Perhaps,

But that's where your power,

Your magic,

Your radiance,

Your magnetism lives.

Totally.

And it's so funny because I actually recently,

Really recently,

Like in the past two weeks,

Just launched a rebrand with my podcast.

And if you looked,

So I first branded the podcast,

I launched about a year,

Maybe 14 months ago,

Did it all myself,

Like figured out all the technical things,

Did the branding,

Did the podcast cover,

Like literally one on one,

Did everything.

And then I went and got the professional branding thing back in January.

And it was great.

Like I went through my first experience with branding and putting a website and all of that's on there.

But then after a couple of months,

Not sure if you saw my old branding,

I noticed I'm like,

I realized through doing the deep inner work,

I'm like this version of me,

Because it was a version.

It was very California,

Hot pink confidence.

It was almost like the realtor version of me.

It was the corporate version of me.

And I'm like,

That's a part of me,

But it's not all of me.

And there's so much more that is spiritual,

That is into energy work,

That is into like the deeper inner work,

Like you just said.

And I'm like,

And that girl isn't really conveyed through my marketing,

Like through my branding and my messaging and everything.

And it was a thing with being seen.

So just recently in the past two weeks,

I did a whole rebrand.

I sort of like came out of like,

Not the spiritual closet,

But like really went out hard and was like,

This is it.

This is my jam.

Like this is essentially like my,

Like what I'm all about.

I relate to that so deeply.

And I think you nailed it when it's like that realtor,

That like corporate,

Perfectly polished,

Like always has the right thing to say type of like,

Almost I think of it and feel like a goody two-shoes when I'm in that vibe.

And it's a transition.

It's like,

When I realized that that's what fell off in my business a while ago,

I didn't,

I couldn't even put my finger on that's what it was.

I just knew this doesn't feel right.

This doesn't feel like me.

And I know I can't keep showing up like this.

Like my nervous system wouldn't allow me to continue down that road of being like censored and to fit into this box to be accepted,

You know,

Because I hadn't been able to fully access the,

The wholeness,

The realness of who I am.

So it's a journey.

I think it's such a journey and the beauty and also the terrifying thing about it is we get to do that very visibly.

Totally.

And it is a beautiful journey because it is like sort of layer by layer peeling off the stuff,

Like the version that I am right now,

Like even though I'm feeling so aligned and feel really good,

You know,

Life is going to happen.

Life is going to throw me shit.

Like things are going to,

You know,

Like,

Like things are going to happen that are going to bring up other pieces that like a year from now,

I might look back at this version and be like,

Oh my gosh,

Like I had no clue.

Like,

It's just a,

You know,

A beautiful evolution.

And I think when you look at life that way,

It's just with no attachment and curiosity,

It's like,

That's the sweet spot.

That's when you can have fun and when you can play and where you can be creative and and yeah,

It just,

It's,

It's fun.

It's,

It's really important.

I think too,

When we,

Like everything you just said,

You nailed it,

That you're growing and you're stepping into new versions of who you are.

So that doesn't make who you are today wrong or bad or ignorant or naive or whatever.

Like for me,

It's really easy to look back on my old stuff and be like,

Oh God,

You know,

You want to cringe,

You want to hide,

You don't want anyone to ever stumble upon your old stuff.

Or at least that's how I have felt.

But I've really worked on embracing that part of me,

Like had I not gone through that really cringey to me phase or like just been on my journey,

I wouldn't be where I am today.

And if I didn't allow myself to show up and go through everything I'm going through right now,

I won't get to who I'm becoming,

You know?

So there's a lot to be said for having compassion for yourself along that journey.

Totally.

And having compassion with like,

And this is what I love about your platform and your whole concept is leap and the net will appear because so many people like they're on that edge.

So many women I know are on that edge and you know,

There's so many things and on stories,

Like you said,

In our head,

Perfectionism,

Being scared of being seen,

You know,

Not feeling like you're good enough,

That sort of keeps you there.

But it's when you leap into the thing that you know is on your heart and you take that chance that all the other pieces come in place.

And you know,

There's it's the journey.

It's a beautiful evolution,

Like we were just saying.

And you know,

To be honest,

It's like the hard times.

Like on Hello Beautiful,

My podcast,

We talk about the vulnerable moments,

We talk about the challenging times and every single one of the women that I've interviewed,

And I've released,

I think 58 episodes,

It's going to be this week.

Every single one,

When they talk about their hardest thing that they went through,

They look back and they wouldn't change it for the world,

Because in that challenging moment,

Lied their biggest lessons.

Yeah.

There's so much beauty to take away from those challenges,

But when you're in it,

It feels like the worst possible thing could be happening.

You know,

You can look for the silver lining,

Because you know,

It should always be there.

But it feels like,

Yeah.

Yeah,

But if you don't take life too seriously,

Like if you're like,

You know,

Like I have so many moments where it's like,

Okay,

Like,

But but and I just kind of went with it and it all worked out okay,

Right.

But it's a matter of just not taking it too seriously,

Not being too attached to an outcome and just realizing that like on a deep level that life is fleeting,

Things are going to change,

You're going to screw up,

You're going to learn,

You're going to grow,

Like at the end of the day,

It's all experience,

Like,

Who the F cares?

It's my approach.

I don't know if it's right or wrong.

It's my approach today,

In a year's time,

It might change,

But we're going with today,

Because we live in the moment.

Absolutely.

Yeah.

Can we go back to what you said about when you leave,

That is when,

That's when everything happens.

Only so much growth or forward movement or manifestation can happen when you're stuck on that ledge.

And to be fair,

Sometimes we have to stay on that ledge for whatever reason,

Like maybe that's part of the growth.

And that's that like pain that we need to endure so that when we finally do get to the other side of it,

There's that contrast and it feels so much more rewarding to be there,

To have made it or whatever.

But even through that fear,

Like,

So you're standing,

Let's picture you're on the edge of the cliff or the ledge or whatever.

And it's like,

That is to me,

The most painful part when you're just thinking about it,

Sitting there thinking about all the things that could potentially go wrong,

Why it's a bad idea when deep in your soul,

You know,

You need to be doing the thing.

You need to take a step forward.

You need to take a big crazy leap and do something that people around you might think is crazy,

But that you know,

In your soul is so aligned with what you need and where you're heading in your life,

What you want to create.

And once you take that action,

It's like all that pressure that was building up all of those doubts,

Fears,

Whatever the stories were,

They don't really matter anymore because it's like,

Well,

I'm doing it.

Whatever the outcome is,

Is what the outcome is,

But I'm actually doing it now.

And there's a level of like,

Power that you can get from like,

Okay,

That's pretty sweet.

Like,

I'm pretty proud of myself for just taking this step.

And it shifts you into a new vibration where you're like,

Allowing yourself to receive really cool stuff.

Totally.

And you know,

Like the longer you stay on the ledge,

It's like the pressure builds and it's very,

Very similar.

I don't know if you've gone bungee jumping or skydiving before,

But it's like so similar to being on that,

Like that edge of a bungee jump or like if you're a clip jump or something,

The longer you are on there,

The more pressure is going to build,

The more like resistance that's going to come up,

The more fear that's going to build there.

And you're literally torturing yourself.

So,

And you know what?

Change can be scary.

Like,

I'm not going to say change is scary.

Change can be scary,

But the more,

Like the more you leap,

The more you,

You take those risks,

The more,

Like the less scary it becomes.

And then it's just becomes easy.

You know what I mean?

So the longer you stay on the edge,

You're actually torturing yourself because you know,

In your heart of hearts,

What you're meant to do,

Like we all know,

Like when we're laying in bed at like,

You know,

One o'clock in the morning,

Can't sleep.

And there's a thought on your mind,

Whatever it may be,

And it's coming through and you're just like,

You just can't get it out.

And you're just tossing and turning and your analytical mind is going on it.

Like you've got to listen to those little voices.

You've got to listen to those signs and take action on it because it's just going to build.

It's just going to build.

It's just going to build.

And you're,

You're causing yourself a lot of discomfort.

Yeah.

Oh my goodness.

I'm just listening to that thinking.

Okay.

I think that's the piece I want to like,

I need to capture everything you just said and spread that as far as I can on the internet.

Totally just jump.

And like,

You know,

You'll always be caught.

Like life will always catch you and you're always going to learn.

You're always going to grow,

You know,

Worst case scenario,

Like you screw up,

Whatever,

Not a big deal.

You're human.

We're meant to like experience.

I'm not even going to say make mistakes because like,

Who's,

You know,

What is a mistake?

Yeah.

Yeah.

We're meant to experience.

We're meant to just go through this journey.

And I love your approach.

Just don't take it so seriously.

It's easy to find things to take seriously,

But it's like,

For me,

A practice of shifting back into letting go of all that heavy stuff,

Letting go of anything that's,

That's weighing me down and preventing me from my natural state of things being light and easy and flowy and magnetic and fun.

And I could go on and on,

You know,

But all that.

And the mistake is literally or in my mind,

I always go back and I think when I'm 80 years old or nine years old,

Maybe a hundred years old on my deathbed.

And I look back at my life.

Like I do not want to be that person who looks back at her life and has that regret and says like,

You know,

I knew I was meant to like start this or,

You know,

Have this career or knew I was meant to,

You know,

Be with this person or knew I was meant to,

You know,

Go to this place,

Like whatever it is,

It's there.

Like,

I just,

I think about that woman and I'm like,

Life is so short.

There's no guarantees for tomorrow.

So live it in the moment.

Like why not?

Absolutely.

That's my driving force,

Honestly,

Being like picturing myself as an old lady,

Wondering,

Wondering what would have been different if I had the guts to go for it.

And worst case scenario,

Like,

You know,

Like so many times people are scared of like rejection,

Let's say.

Worst case scenario,

Someone says,

No,

You know,

Like,

Are you going to die?

And that's something I used to tell myself.

It might sound super dramatic,

But like,

Like I tell myself when I go to do something,

I'm like,

Worst case scenario,

I die,

You know?

And I'm like,

And I'm not going to die.

It's really not that bad.

Just go do the thing.

And then it's just like,

Once you do it,

Like,

Like we're just talking,

It's like you relieve yourself of the pressure and you grow along the way and you get another piece of your puzzle of what you're meant to do,

Where you're meant to go,

Who you're meant to connect with and the journey of life moves on.

The journey of life moves on.

Absolutely.

And just that image that you said earlier about like building up that pressure,

Standing on the edge,

Like I have been bungee jumping.

I wrote a post about it not too long ago about how I did.

I stood on the ledge way too long that the fear paralyzed me.

Like I physically could not jump.

I could not be the one to get me off that ledge.

I still was committed to doing it.

And I think there's something really powerful.

Like I look back on that memory and yeah,

They helped.

They like leaned me over with some contraptions.

So then they let go and I fall,

Which sounds terrifying to be honest,

But maybe less terrifying than jumping off of a bridge.

But I still look back on that and like,

I did it.

It doesn't matter what support I needed,

What nudge,

What whatever,

I did it.

And it was a good lesson in like the longer you stop and think about it and psych yourself out,

The just the less fun the experience is going to be.

Like we are torturing ourselves in those moments.

And why,

Why do we do that?

You know,

Why,

Why is that human nature when we know,

Even when we know in our soul,

What's on the other side is going to be really fucking cool.

And it's exactly what we want.

It's like,

It's just hardwired into us.

And that's the thing,

Like when you understand why,

And you look at the science and you can understand that it is just your ego,

It's a part of yourself trying to keep you safe.

Like the reason why you don't jump off of a building or go bungee jumping is because there is a part of you that is trying to keep you safe.

And it's like danger,

Danger,

Danger,

Danger,

Like don't do it.

Like,

You know,

Same thing with change.

Like if you're going to go do something that you're not used to and something that's different,

There's going to be a part of you that's like,

Oh my gosh,

This is danger,

Danger,

Danger,

Danger.

It's not safe.

And that part will come up.

And it's like this internal battle that's happening between,

You know,

Your conscious mind of what you want to go do,

But then the subconscious mind,

Which is like essentially just trying to protect you.

And it just,

It can cause a lot of conflict.

But when you take the leap and you realize that you're going to be fine,

It's just,

It's yeah,

Life is so much more rich.

Absolutely.

I really want to have someone that actually,

Well,

Like you just nailed it with the reason why we're wired that way,

But I'd love to have like an actual,

Someone very specific.

They're going to have to be on the same wave,

Like this us is like manifesting in alignment and energy,

But like has a science background and has been bungee jumping or has studied bungee jumping.

Cause I want to know the actual,

Like what is it that happens in our body when we feel that rush?

Because I know when I jumped off the thing,

Bungee jumping,

It was like,

Even with that little nudge that I had,

It was the most,

I don't even know.

It was like an adrenaline high.

I guess that's what it is.

You're flooded with like adrenaline and probably all these really good feeling hormones or whatever.

So that if you do die,

You feel really good.

I don't know.

I'm just speculating,

But I remember saying to people like,

You haven't lived until you've done this.

And in a way it's kind of true,

Like not in such a narrow minded,

Like you need to go bungee jumping.

That's not the point here.

The point is when you take that leap,

When you do the big thing,

That you move past the scary debilitating fears and you do the damn thing and you leap into miracles or even if it's not some like beautiful miraculous,

Oh my God,

I can't believe this happened thing on the other side of it.

Like you said,

You fit the piece of your,

Like you get the next piece of your puzzle.

You move forward on the journey of life and it leads you to new connections,

New ideas,

New opportunities that you otherwise would never have had.

So let me share this with you.

So my background was actually in real estate.

So if I was to take you back 10 years ago,

I was working in Thunder Bay,

Canada,

Love my hometown and I was selling real estate.

I was very successful with my career,

Had a long-term relationship,

Had a beautiful home.

I was checking a lot of society's boxes.

And then one day while I was driving between appointments,

I had this like sort of like an intuitive hit,

I call it.

And it said,

Life isn't fun and life's meant to be fun.

You're 27 years old.

Is this how you want to live the rest of your life?

And when I thought of like fun and what that meant on a deeper level,

It was like life isn't fulfilling.

Like even though so many things are being checked,

Checked,

Checked,

Checked,

And I felt really safe and I felt really comfortable with my life.

And a lot of me was really happy,

But there was this part of me,

It was like the deeper soul.

I think more my purpose to be honest was just like inside being like,

You're meant to do more.

You're meant to live a different life.

And at the time it was terrifying.

So that was me on my edge,

Being on the edge of like,

And being kind of scared to analyze and being like,

What am I going to do?

I don't know what to do.

Like,

Cause I had this,

Like,

I didn't want to disrupt my life.

I didn't know what cards are going to be dealt.

I didn't know the direction I was going.

Like it was super scary.

So I tuned in,

I asked for internal guidance and through my own process,

I realized that I needed to go experience more that I needed to travel the world.

I realized like I'm from a very small safe city.

I love my hometown,

But I just,

There's so much more out there and I needed to have like a taste of it,

Not out of a book,

Not out of like,

You know,

Hearing from someone else or watching someone else's Instagram or something like I needed to go experience it for myself.

So what I ended up doing is,

You know,

I took a break sabbatical from my work,

You know,

Took a ended up breaking up with my partner and I booked a one-way ticket to Thailand.

And at that point I had never been to Asia.

I had never traveled alone.

I never ever went backpacking.

I literally had no idea what backpacking was or hostile,

Like no clue what I was getting myself into,

But it went,

I'm like,

I'm going on an adventure and it was terrifying.

So when I flew between Vancouver to Hong Kong,

Like my first leg of the trip,

When the wheels went off the tarmac on the flight,

I literally started to cry.

I was so scared.

So there I was in the window seat of like looking at the window,

Tearing up,

The stewardess came over,

She's like,

Ma'am,

Are you okay?

I'm like,

I'm fine.

It's okay.

But physically,

Like I was just,

I was past that point and overturn.

I had,

Like,

That was me really taking the leap.

And you know,

For the first couple of days,

It was really uncomfortable.

It was really scary.

I had no idea where I was,

What I was doing,

What I was going to do.

I had no plan.

I didn't even have a place booked yet.

Like,

I was just like,

I'm going to just figure it out.

And life happened.

And I ended up meeting people and I ended up surrendering to the flow.

I ended up just being able to sort of like,

You know,

I met someone here and they suggested go there.

And I just found this magic in the backpacking journey.

So that first trip led,

Like that was maybe a three month trip.

I did Thailand,

Cambodia,

Indonesia,

And Hong Kong and Macau.

And actually when I was going back,

When I finished that trip,

I was a solo backpacking trip.

I grew so much like,

Like that trip taught me so much about myself and just immerse myself in different situations and trying different things and,

You know,

Just being open to the flow of things.

But when I was in Macau,

Right before I was heading back to Vancouver and that trip was going to,

You know,

Going to be finished.

I don't know if you're familiar,

But they have,

I think it's the world's or second largest bungee jump in the world.

It's literally a 73 or 72 story building.

Like it is high.

And so I went there with a friend of mine and I just said like,

Or we were in Hong Kong and I said like,

Listen,

We need to go there.

They have this thing.

I've never gone bungee jumping.

I've never jumped off a building.

Like I'm going to do this one first.

And we got there and it was so freaking high.

And at the end of the day,

I avoided it all day.

But at the end of the day,

I'm like,

This is my chance.

I've got to go do it.

I ended up actually sky jumping off of it.

But when I landed,

Like when my feet landed on the ground of that,

It's like,

I was a different person.

It was sort of like,

Like it was a real tangible representation of what that trip represented to me.

Just taking the leap towards my future self,

Taking the leap towards trusting that little voice within me that was like,

You're meant for more.

Life's supposed to be fun.

There's a deeper purpose for you.

And life's not just going to give it to you.

It's not like it's like here on a silver platter.

You've got to have the courage to trust,

To take that leap,

Symbolic leap and like literal leap,

Metaphorical leap to know that you're going to be held.

And it was a journey.

And looking back,

I just,

I honor the girl who had the courage to book that one-way solo backpacking trip because that first trip led to another,

Led to another,

Led to another.

And in the past five years,

I've traveled to over 50 countries all over the world,

Multiple times,

You know,

To different places.

And through that experience of just immersing myself in life,

Not only did I learn about the world,

But I learned so much more about myself.

And that journey of like continuously taking the leap and continuously throwing myself because it wasn't graceful always,

But like throwing myself into the unknown taught me on the deepest level about my inner resilience,

My inner confidence,

Like my sole purpose,

Like mission here on earth.

And,

You know,

Looking back,

It's,

It's like,

I'm so freaking grateful and proud that I had that courage to just trust,

Blindly trust,

You know,

My intuition that there was more because Hey,

Like there is.

Yeah.

And it does,

It starts off as that little idea or that,

Ooh,

That might be cool to explore,

But there's so much trust required in that trust in ourselves,

Really,

Even if it's just like a burst of,

Yeah,

Okay,

I'm going to do this.

I'm going to follow through.

I'm terrified,

But I'm going to do it anyway.

But I love travel as a,

Almost a way to put this into practice because it's such a good reminder,

I guess,

Of like,

Okay,

You come from this,

This small town,

Or let's say just like for anyone who's never traveled,

You're just in your bubble.

You don't really know you've,

Maybe you have an idea of what the outside world is like,

Or outside your city or your province or state or country or whatever,

But then you take a leap,

Or you just,

You know,

You decide to go traveling.

It doesn't have to be some big,

I quit my job and relationship in life and traveled around the world,

Which,

You know,

I hear a lot of the stories that I have one of those stories myself,

But just to find yourself find yourself in a completely foreign environment,

A new culture,

New climate,

A new,

You know,

The food is different.

The people are different.

Everything's different.

But the one thing that's the same is the,

The flow of life,

The synchronicities,

The beautiful hearts that you encounter in people.

And it's just such a,

You know,

I've had so many moments traveling where it's like,

Oh,

I can trust in this.

Like,

I can trust that if I follow my guidance to go to this random coffee shop that I,

For some reason feel drawn to today,

And you go,

And then you run into someone and you have this beautiful conversation and they connect you with someone else.

And then,

You know,

It just unfolds and it,

It grows and expands in ways that we could never imagine or orchestrate ourselves.

It's so beautiful to me that you can be on the other side of the world and have these really like flowy,

Beautiful moments.

And then even like you and me,

We got on this call and we're connecting for the,

Like to stream on Facebook here for this pot for this episode.

And we're like,

Oh my God,

We have all these mutual friends.

And they're just like people that we've met around the world.

And again,

That goes to show how like,

How small and connected and just like how supported you can feel anywhere in the world now,

Because you took that leap because you followed your intuition and you followed that nudge to create something more to have a different adventure,

A different story.

Totally.

And at the time I had no clue,

Like it was just like,

It was just like,

I have no idea why,

Like,

But it was just this one little voice.

And that's really what I want to encourage anybody listening to this.

Like you've got your own internal compass,

You've got your own little voice.

It is speaking to you in your own beautiful divine way,

But it is up to you to tune in and listen,

Like,

Listen to it.

Like I can't hear your little voice.

You can't hear mine.

You know,

It's up to you to do your own inner work,

To be able to access it because we all have access to that guidance.

It's just whether or not we listen or choose to listen.

And I mean,

Now working as a coach,

This is what I love because I help women every single day,

Access that little voice,

Tune into it,

And then build up the confidence and the courage to like,

Take action based on like what their own intuition is telling them.

Like they are in the driver's seat,

But I'm just like helping them like tune in like the GP,

You know,

Their own internal GPS.

Yeah.

And that's it.

It's,

It's unique to everyone.

And it's going to show up in different ways in different circumstances,

Like everyone's unique,

But then at different moments,

Like sometimes I get guidance in the form of just,

Ooh,

That'd be a cool idea.

Or sometimes I'm just so in the flow that I'll run into someone and have a conversation or meet someone at the perfect time.

Or,

You know,

I think there's so much to be said for having practices that keep you,

Keep you clear,

Really like clear the cobwebs,

Clear all the noise,

Clear the fears,

The doubts,

The stories,

All the bullshit,

And to create space to hear.

Like for me,

I use journaling every morning.

I aim to get my journal out and just write any random thoughts,

Anything like I said,

Okay,

We're going to write two full pages.

I don't care what you write about,

But you're getting to the end of that second page,

Uh,

Like meditation,

Breath work,

Kind of thinking my like go-to and then I have a morning Reiki practice that just like sets up my energy field for the day.

But I'm super curious to hear from you,

Like what kind of practices do you use or teach or play with in your life,

If any?

Yeah.

So all of the above that you said,

I like stand firmly behind all of them.

Uh,

Journaling is a huge,

Huge practice for myself and my clients.

Um,

Meditation,

I love meditation.

I,

You know,

Sort of weave into different styles.

I've done a couple of Vipassanas.

I'm not sure if you've done any Vipassanas before.

Yeah.

The 10 day silence.

10 day silence.

And,

Um,

I'm a huge fan of Dr.

Joe Dispenza as well.

Seriously.

He,

I've been to two of his advanced week long trainings.

Uh,

The first one was last December in,

In,

Uh,

Cancun or Playa del Carmen.

And then the second one was actually before everything locked down in Indian Wells,

California and the stuff that he is working on the science behind his work,

Like completely blows me away.

I've seen miracles before my eyes in terms of healing,

In terms of people healing their bodies through meditation,

Through the power of like connecting to like oneness and,

You know,

And creating from that high vibrational state.

So journaling meditation,

Um,

Breath work,

Like you said,

And that's also breath work meditation is all Dr.

Joe stuff.

So anybody who's listening and especially anybody whose body may be sick.

So you don't even say that you're sick because you cannot be sick,

But your body may be sick.

So that right there is like one huge mindset shift that I learned from Dr.

Joe.

Cause your body may be sick,

But you're not because you can't actually,

You know,

You're nothing but love,

But,

Um,

Definitely go check out his work because like it will it's life-changing.

And I am so grateful that more and more people are finding him and,

You know,

Getting,

You know,

Getting curious about his work.

What else do I do?

I do gratitude practices.

So gratitude is the ultimate form of perceivership.

And I just think if you can tap into what you have to be grateful for,

It's the easiest way to change your vibrational state fast.

So if I was to sit here and say like five things,

I'm grateful for,

I'm grateful for this conversation.

I'm grateful for the roof over my head.

I'm grateful to be in Grenada right now.

I'm in like a tropical paradise and during a pandemic and like,

Like I look around and I'm literally every single day,

I'm like,

Okay,

Somebody has to pinch me because how is this even real?

But it is because.

You know,

I've created it grateful for,

You know,

The,

The path that I've walked this,

This far and the family and friends and relationships that I've built along the way.

And immediately just in the past minute that I've been listing off those gratitudes,

I can feel my energy is more open.

My energy is more elevated.

And when you're,

You're approaching the world from that state,

Energy doesn't live.

People can feel it.

Like there is an exchange that happens.

So if you're approaching the world from an open,

You know,

High vibing state,

You are going to attract those high vibing things and you know,

Life is going to flow that way.

Yeah.

I've,

Oh,

I feel your energy.

Like I love everything you just said,

And I love being a witness to,

You know,

You shifting your energy so quickly because I feel it.

I think there's something to be said to,

For when you are in a really,

Um,

I'm going to use like Abraham Hicks type language,

Like you're far down on the emotional guidance spectrum or scale.

I can't remember what they call it.

And it's like,

We hear a lot of like beehive vibe,

Um,

You know,

Love and light,

You know,

All the,

The good ultra positive things that ultimately,

Yes,

We do want to strive to be in as much as possible,

But when you're in a funk and you're like struggling with some shit and you see people,

Like maybe you're listening to us and you're like,

Oh,

They're full of shit.

This gratitude,

Like,

Oh,

Life's not that great.

Yeah.

I assure you,

Like I still find myself in a funk sometimes.

And it's,

It's not about,

Okay,

How can I get into love and light and bliss and like altered gratitude?

But it's just a reminder that you have these tools.

We all have these tools and all it takes is shifting into a better feeling thought,

Like choosing just a slightly better thought,

Even if you can't look around and say,

Okay,

Pinch me,

What is this life?

Like,

I know I've lived,

I've lived like months of my life when I was living in Bali.

I remember having those moments like throughout the day,

Just like,

Is this real life?

What is that?

But now I'm living in Calgary,

I'm living in a very different climate.

Like it snowed here today for the first time this year.

And just like,

It's a different world.

And it's also 2020.

So there's a lot that is different in my life.

Now.

I don't,

I don't effortlessly live in that vibration.

I find I,

I work for it more.

So I think there's something to be said for that.

Like,

If this stuff isn't coming naturally,

That doesn't mean you're flawed.

It doesn't mean you don't have access to this,

Or you're even that you're doing anything wrong.

I think it's just really important to remember that you have access to these tools.

We're all human.

We all go through the same type of heaviness and like struggles.

And we each at the same time can step into things like,

Okay,

Just like five little things I'm grateful for.

I'm grateful for this like glass of water.

I'm grateful for like you said,

A roof over my head,

Like just the really simple things that you can think about.

And it can be small shifts to start.

It can be things that are like,

You know,

Anything that's going to move you just a little bit further up that emotional scale towards where you want to go.

And then you shift there and then you practice it.

And eventually you shift faster.

And I love,

I love that you brought up that scale.

Cause it's so true.

I mean,

You know,

The spiritual bypass,

So many people are in the spiritual bypass and like love happiness is that,

And you don't deal with like,

You know,

The shadow work and the challenging stuff that could come up.

But one thing that I realized,

And it reminds me from,

Cause you mentioned Bali,

I used to have these blissful moments while I was traveling.

Like I was just like cloud nine,

Life is so good.

I'm just so in flow.

And then I would go back home to Thunder Bay and I would,

You know,

For,

For five years that I was traveling,

I was in this dance of like following my heart.

And like,

You know,

If I felt inspired to go somewhere,

I would just book a ticket and go.

Some trips for three weeks,

Other trips for three months.

And I was just living in flow during that time.

But often when I would be back in Thunder Bay,

I found this,

This,

I got to this place of internal restlessness.

There was just this thing inside me that kept coming back when I would be back home.

And,

And it was just this restlessness.

And I was just like,

Look,

What is it?

And I journaled on that feeling for like,

I felt like months I kept journaling.

Like,

What is this?

Like,

Why is it that when I'm in Bali,

I can experience these blissful moments when I'm traveling.

I just have so many incredible moments that come effortlessly,

Like you've said,

When I'm back home,

It's so hard to access that.

And I realized through my journaling practice that that was my inner work that I needed to be able to access and feel that level of connectedness and oneness that I had felt when I just surrendered to life that I did the way I did when I traveled,

I needed to be able to learn to surrender to life the same way when I was back at home.

And that feeling that I was chasing was actually within me.

And it was,

It was my,

My birthright within me.

And it reminds me of a quote.

That's so good.

I searched the world for buried treasure and I found it under my feet.

And,

You know,

And that really is what it was.

It was a journey of realizing that no matter where I went and the journey of,

You know,

Immersing myself into the unknown and going here and going there,

It helped me deconstruct a lot of the,

You know,

Constructs that I had in a lot of the,

You know,

The nine to five box or like checking all of society's boxes.

Like it really gave me that playing field to be able to deconstruct everything.

And then coming back home underneath my feet gave me access to the realization that,

Hey,

This thing that I'm looking for is within,

Is actually an inside game.

As is everything.

Yeah.

And it's,

It's so easy when we find ourselves in those situations where this is hard.

I have this,

Like this restlessness that I can't put my finger on.

It's so easy to want to numb that or not even,

Not even have a thought process all the time.

That's like,

Oh,

I don't like how I feel.

How can I numb this?

It's just,

We're so quick to turn on the Netflix or to go pour a glass of wine or whatever.

And I'm not saying that those things are bad.

Like I watch Netflix,

I drink wine,

I do the things,

But it's,

I I'm aware and I can catch myself,

At least have the awareness that I'm doing it in the first place.

And then maybe continue to drink the glass of wine or whatever,

But it's a,

That awareness,

But B it's,

It is,

Everything's inside you.

So it's not about,

And I use those examples because they're small and attainable and within our reach and like going to Bali,

Like booking a flight back to Bali would be like kind of the other end of that spectrum,

But that same type of kind of numbing,

Like it's,

How can I fix this feeling?

Oh,

Here's a solution.

I'll go do this thing outside of myself.

When really it's like,

Okay,

Here's this thing that's lingering.

I can't put my finger on why I feel this way.

What do I need to do about it?

And then you journal on it.

You ask for guidance on it.

You do the inner work and then you recognize that,

Oh,

I did have access to that all along.

And then you still go book a flight to Bali and you go back there and you're in a completely different like level of growth.

And this is where life gets like really beautiful because it just,

Life doesn't have that same hold on you.

You're not as attached to it.

So for me,

It was like,

I was so curious.

I journaled on it.

Like I said,

Every single day for,

I think it was a month or two months.

Like I just kept journaling,

Kept doing it,

Just kept staying curious.

But like you said,

Most people,

Because what happens is you get these like uncomfortable sensations.

There's this discomfort there.

And we're like,

Oh my gosh,

What's that?

You don't like the way you feel.

So you go to the wine or you go to the Netflix or you pull out your credit card and you go do some online shopping just to kind of,

You know,

Or you go to the fridge to go eat something,

To switch your state instead of being with that feeling.

But our bodies are intelligent beings.

They're constantly trying to communicate with us.

They're constantly like,

It's such a beautiful relationship,

The mind-body.

It's not two separate things.

Mind-body is like one,

It's all connected.

But when we try to separate them,

When we try to separate,

You know,

What we think and how we're feeling and we're doing that,

We're discombobulating ourself.

Whereas if you just give it space to process,

To get curious,

To,

Like you said,

Do some of the inner work and just like with no attachment to what is going to come from it,

That is where the magic lies.

Like that is where you're going to,

Like,

Yeah,

Where everything lies.

And,

You know,

One of the biggest,

I mentioned it a few moments ago was through meditation,

Through Vipassana,

The experience of doing a 10-day silent meditation,

Because in the experience of Vipassana,

Where you're literally meditating,

Like no reading,

No writing,

No TV,

You know,

No phones,

No eye contact,

No speaking for 10 days,

You're meditating 11 hours a day.

You are learning to sit with yourself.

You are learning to experience,

You know,

In real time,

What's happening with the mind-body connection.

And it's a beautiful thing,

You know,

When you open up to it.

I'd love to hear more about your experiences with Vipassana.

Yeah,

I love it.

I honestly,

Like Vipassana meditation has taught me so much about life.

I pull on it every single day.

I encourage everybody,

Like literally,

I encourage everybody to go experience it.

Yeah,

It's just,

And whether you have experience with meditating,

People who tell me like,

Oh,

I can't meditate,

You'll go there and you'll learn really good techniques.

Yeah,

It's intense.

Yeah,

You know,

All of the greatest,

You know,

Spiritual stages and people with,

You know,

Centuries of wisdom,

Their message,

Their message that's just like the most profound is to know thyself.

So spend your life getting to know yourself.

You know,

You've got you from the minute you're born till the minute you die in this life.

So use your time to get curious and to really go down to your core and to,

To explore.

And I feel like Vipassana,

When you strip away all of those distractions,

Like we were talking about like Netflix,

You know,

Going to the fridge,

Shopping,

Wine,

When you strip away all of those distractions,

Even like communication,

When you strip away eye contact,

When you strip away and you just get so quiet,

You are able to get to such subtle levels of your personal experience.

And within that container of,

Of the experience of Vipassana,

You get to like really,

Really,

Really on deep levels,

Experience what's,

What's actually happening within yourself.

It's,

It's amazing.

There's so much truth in,

In going there.

Yeah.

So yeah,

I mean,

I could go on about it.

Like I can share,

You know,

It's a very healing practice too,

Like for anybody,

You know,

So your body carries sensation.

I'll give a little,

A brief,

We'll go there.

Okay.

So,

So when you sit there and you're meditating and you're sitting there,

Okay.

So I'm meditating right now.

And all of a sudden you get an itch,

Like this happens and like your reactions,

You have a sensation of an itch,

Your reaction is to scratch it.

So that's the reactive mind.

You're just like,

You have an itch,

You're going to scratch it.

And you get another itch,

You kind of scratch it.

But then through the technique of Vipassana,

You learn how to use your breath as a tool to observe the,

Observe the itch without reaction.

And within that practice,

You realize that the itch eventually goes away.

So like,

You know,

For the first time,

For you,

As you get through your technique,

You're able to sit there and you can observe it.

You breathe through it,

You experience it,

And then it passes.

And then all of a sudden,

You know,

You go to a more subtle layer of the body and maybe you have a sensation like in your thigh or like a,

You know,

A pain in your hip or your bum.

And it's like a more dense sensation of a deeper,

You know,

Energy there.

And you're breathing through this pain that's there,

Whether it's a burning,

Whether it's a prickling,

Whether it's whatever,

But it's sensation.

And as you breathe through the sensation and you don't react,

Eventually using this technique,

That sensation actually comes up out of your body and it releases.

And layer by layer,

As you were in this 10 days of silence,

You are able to go and experience so like so many layers of your body and within those tensions and within like that pain or sensation,

Often there's memory there too.

So there's repressed moments that you've had in your life that might've been painful,

That might've been,

You know,

Hard,

That might've been challenging,

Some that you might not even remember that might be super high on life and super like exciting memories that you've held within your body,

That your body's stored,

That you're not even aware about,

But through Vipassana layer by layer,

You're releasing.

So a lot of people who go to do this technique,

They release a lot of things within their life.

And they're like,

Oh my gosh,

I didn't even remember that moment when I was five and I spilled the milk and I got in trouble and I,

You know,

And I held onto this for so long and it created all these patterns and these stories,

But you're able to let it go.

Sorry,

Does that make sense?

I don't know.

I just wanted to pass an attention.

No,

I love it.

And I've been there.

So I,

Like,

I get it.

I think that makes sense for anyone who hasn't experienced it as well.

It is like,

I find that in yoga sometimes,

Like I'll have recurring memories in the same postures,

These random memories will pop up.

It's like,

I've been here before.

Like every time I do this one posture,

I have this,

I go to this place and it's like,

Well,

Yeah,

Because like you said,

It's,

There's no disconnection between the mind and the body.

It's all intertwined.

So it's like,

I'm working that part of my body,

That stuff's coming up.

And I think there's beauty in like accepting and embracing that too.

Like,

Oh yeah,

That was that really horrible breakup or it's not often really,

It's often just bad.

It's just,

That was that experience,

Right?

Like that experience and like actually letting your body experience it and feeling it and letting it go.

You're releasing that dense energy that you're holding within you.

Like that energy,

Like that memory that keeps coming up with,

Say your yoga,

Like that is stored within the cells of your body.

But until you create the space of that posture and observe it and are aware of it,

It's just going to be like stuff down there.

Right?

Yeah.

I would really like to do Vipassana again.

My first time,

I think I just kind of threw myself into it.

Like I've always known that I wanted to do Vipassana.

And so I was like,

Okay,

It was very like serendipitous how I chose this date and it all lined up.

And anyway,

That's a different story,

But I went there and I remember just kind of thinking about it as like a silent retreat.

I knew what I was getting myself into on a conscious level,

But then they show us the meditation room.

Like you see your cushion and you realize I'm going to be sitting here like the majority of every single day for the next 10 days.

Also not talking to anyone in my own space.

Like,

Shit,

This is like meditation bootcamp.

It's a hundred percent,

But like in a beautiful way,

Like it's like,

You will go there,

You will learn how to meditate and you will learn so much more.

Like,

Like I said,

I pull on Vipassana teachings all of the time.

It taught me like some of them could be my biggest life lesson.

I love that so much.

There is so much to take from it.

And I think it's again,

Just like that inner voice,

It's going to be different for everyone.

Everyone's takeaway is going to be exactly what they need.

Yeah.

It's a powerful practice for sure.

My takeaway was I saw insight into ways that I distract myself.

So there's the men and the women they're separate,

But you can still see the guys,

Like they're still in the same meditation hall.

And then the way this one was set up,

I did it just outside of Jakarta in Indonesia.

Oh,

Cool.

Nice.

Yeah.

So there's like steps up to the,

I've never told this story outside of just a friend.

There's steps up to like the meditation hall.

So you can sit at the top of the steps and you can see over the barrier into the men's area.

I picked someone to have a crush on.

Oh my God.

Like someone I've never,

Ever met,

Obviously,

Or talked to you.

I was just like,

Oh,

He's cute.

I wonder what his story is.

And so when I would come out of my meditation,

Or just like had enough of it for that session or whatever,

My distraction would be to go into fantasy land and let my new future husband across the meditation hall.

And it was so insightful to me.

Like that in itself is such a gift.

I'm sitting here hearing your experience.

I'm thinking like,

Oh,

I wish I went deeper into it,

But that's a beautiful experience.

Like that's showing patterns in your life that probably show up in other places.

Right.

Totally.

I was totally like handed this lesson,

This gift,

This insight into myself that like,

This is how you kind of use,

Like not use men per se,

But like use this fantasy of romance,

Of the story of the whatever.

Yeah.

It was really insightful.

And I mean,

I didn't actually do the meditation.

I didn't just sit there and daydream about what's his name.

You see,

Like the thing is,

Is that Vipassana allows you to see the beast that's between your two ears.

Like literally you guys,

You don't realize until you actually remove all distractions.

You do not realize they talk about yoga,

The monkey mind,

But our minds are like wild in a way.

Like it's just like,

You know,

We have like,

I think it's between 60 and 80,

000 thoughts a day.

Like imagine your phone pinging at you,

All of those thoughts.

It's crazy.

So in Vipassana,

When you eliminate those distractions and you are sort of pulling,

You're essentially pulling the reins on the mind and bringing it to the present moment.

So the mind loves to go to the past and future.

You know,

Like the mind loves to daydream about your future with your boyfriend that you see at Vipassana.

You know,

The mind just likes to like,

The mind wants to go everywhere else,

But be in the moment.

But in the moment is where the magic lies.

It's in the now.

They could say the,

I mean,

It's so cheesy,

But it's like the present in the now it's where the gift is.

But like,

It's so true.

It's like,

If you can learn to train your mind and you can,

And you have to train your mind to,

Well,

Children are really good at being in the moment,

But there's an age that we get to where we become so distracted.

And so,

You know,

Like we kind of grow out of it,

But you know,

Can learn a lot from children too.

But if you can learn to train your mind to be in the present,

It's like,

That is where you're going to see the gift.

That is where you're going to,

You know,

Develop the courage to take that leap and to go after that action step and not worry about the future and not care about the past.

Like there's so much freedom within that space and Vipassana is going to help you get there.

Yeah.

I wonder where here we are like preaching Vipassana.

I've been wondering if they're even open right now.

Cause there's one not too far from me where I am here.

And I,

At the beginning of the year,

I was like,

Ooh,

Maybe I'll go like February,

March,

And then the world 2020 happened.

And I'm really curious.

I doubt they are,

But it'd be interesting.

I literally asked someone on the island here,

Just the other day,

There's no COVID cases in Grenada.

And that's like a reason why we came here,

Although who knows what's going to happen,

But I bumped into like a local,

Like a local,

Like meditator,

Doctor,

Whatever.

And I was like,

Do you know if there's like a Vipassana center,

Like on any of these islands,

Barbados,

You know,

Aruba,

Like anywhere.

I'm like,

Like,

I'm like,

It doesn't have to be in Grenada,

But just somewhere in this vicinity.

Cause I'm,

I'm craving to go,

Like,

I want to go so bad.

So I actually am being reminded right now.

I want to look at the Eastern Caribbean Vipassana centers and,

Um,

Yeah,

It'd be really interesting if they were open.

I actually read,

This is reminding me of an article I read back in April and it was,

I forget where it was,

But there was this guy who did like a 60 day silent meditation or he did something 60 or 90 days where he was disconnected from the world and meditating.

And in this experience,

I think it was January,

February,

March,

You know,

Maybe something different,

But he missed the first wave of COVID.

So when he came out in April,

Like imagine going into a meditation like this,

Where the world is still like sort of normal and then coming out and having everything on lockdown and everything in such a crazy state.

And it was,

Yeah,

It was really interesting reading his experience.

You guys could probably Google it and find the article,

But it was just like his perspective of everything that was happening,

Especially during that time when there was so much anxiety,

So much fear,

So much uncertainty,

He came out and he was just like Zen and just like not buying it,

Like not,

Not buying it,

But not letting it like,

You know,

Disturb his peace.

And yeah,

I thought it,

Yeah,

I thought it'd be kind of like interesting to have been in a situation like that and just like literally going in,

It's like a time warp going into this like experience and coming out and being like,

Our world's completely different.

Yeah.

I cannot imagine.

There's so many layers to that,

Like being really grounded and present and like having a completely different mindset,

I'm sure,

Than when he went in.

But then also just the element,

I remember just in 10 days thinking like,

Kind of that,

It wasn't always an anxiety around what's going on in the outside world that I don't know about,

But it's just like,

You feel,

I felt really disconnected from like literally anything could be happening in the world.

And I would not know.

And like that actually happened for this guy.

That's super interesting.

I'm going to go check out that article for sure.

One of the things that I remember really stood out was that after he came out,

He wasn't able to look at his smartphone.

Like when he finally turned his electronics back on the color of his smartphone,

Like he's like,

It was like,

It strained his eyes and he's like,

That's not green.

That's not red.

Cause he was just like,

So like,

I don't know,

Like the science behind it,

But he was just like,

This actually isn't representative of the real colors.

Like it's,

And so he kept his,

Like something he had changed.

He kept his phone on black and like grayscale or black and white.

I don't know.

You got to read the article about that.

I thought that was really fascinating.

He's like,

This color is like not right.

And it hurts my eyes.

And yeah.

So,

Wow.

Yeah.

And yeah,

That's fascinating.

Like,

I feel like we could just talk about this all day.

I do remember that though.

And this again,

Only 10 days like turning my phone back on and I was like,

Did not want to look at it.

Did not want to be around technology or anything.

Cause we have that space we'll remove from it.

And then,

You know,

And then the contrast being like right now I'm heavily plugged in to technology and we get,

So we're so good as humans as at adapting to things that like,

You know,

We don't realize or really give it much thought maybe about how it's,

You know,

Just what's going on with that,

With like being so plugged in.

But then when you have such a contrast,

You're like,

Oh my goodness.

Yeah.

It's important to have boundaries.

Definitely.

Technology is great.

Um,

When it's not running you,

It's almost like I said,

Like the mind,

The monkey mind,

It's like,

It's a beast.

Like your smartphone is a beast and it can take you here,

Here,

Here,

Here,

Here,

But you've got to have the awareness to have boundaries with it,

To know,

You know,

How often you're connected,

Know what you're using it for and don't let it use you.

Because I mean,

There's this whole other,

Whole other topic we can go to,

You know,

Is like marketing and social media.

And like,

I mean,

If,

Yeah,

Anyways,

There's,

There's so much that like,

It will,

It just,

It is trying to suck your attention,

You know,

Because there's a lot of dollars behind that industry.

But,

Um,

Anyways,

That's a whole other story.

We're kind of using social media right now,

Although for good.

Yeah.

And it is too,

Though,

With that being a content creator and working with content creators,

It is really important to like keep tabs on that.

Um,

I know right now,

Today,

Especially,

And maybe yesterday,

I've just been in this rhythm of,

So I took the weekend off completely and just was in my little bubble.

It was lovely.

But now that I'm coming back online and just where I'm at in my cycle,

Like things are,

My creativity is coming back and I'm like,

I have an idea.

And I'm like,

I got to write this down.

Like,

I feel like I'd be doing myself a disservice if I kept this like rattling around in my head.

So I've been really,

Um,

Just like feeling this rhythm,

Just observing it,

Being curious of like,

Okay,

This is interesting because like,

Do I need to,

It doesn't necessarily even have to be on my phone.

And if it is,

It would just be to get it out of my head into my notes app,

But it can be into a journal.

But yeah,

That's something I'm really curious and like fascinated around too,

Is just that,

That it,

We're kind of a slave to our minds in that sense.

I practice,

I have ideas in the bath sometimes and I'll be like,

Okay,

I have this urge to go get out of the bath and write in my journal,

Whatever this brilliant idea was,

But it's like playing or reigning in my thoughts and being like,

You know,

I'm in control here.

I'm going to set the intention that that thought,

I'll remember it.

Sometimes I'll create a little like acronym or reminder or whatever,

But it's like,

I'm ultimately calling the shots here.

I'm the queen,

I'm the captain of this ship.

So,

You know,

I welcome these ideas and this brilliance and this genius that wants to come visit me,

But boundaries.

Totally.

Yeah.

And it's finding,

Finding your flow and tuning in to what feels good for you.

Some days,

Like,

You know,

I jump out of the,

I would jump out of the shower,

Write it down.

Other days I'm like,

Okay,

I'm going to trust myself that I'm going to get it.

It's like,

It's whatever things change.

Right.

And yeah,

It's that being gentle with yourself,

Not taking it so seriously and just like play with it.

Have fun.

Last time.

Okay.

So I've done two and a half of pastness.

The first one I did was in Wisconsin and Northern Wisconsin,

Sort of like,

You know,

An hour east of Minneapolis,

Two hours east of Minneapolis.

The second one I served half of a pasta at the same center.

And then when the last one I did was last September in Joshua tree park and prior to well,

I would,

So I was doing it in September and then that October I had a speaking engagement that I had that,

You know,

I was signed up to do.

And at the time public speaking,

Like I hadn't really done like a keynote before.

And this was one of my first big keynotes that were coming up at the end.

Like it was maybe about three weeks afterwards.

And while I was in that,

The past and not like all of my nerves and anxiousness and ideas and different things that I want to talk about came up,

But I didn't have a pen or paper to be able to write anything down.

And it drove me insane.

Like that feeling because I literally couldn't write it,

Couldn't have it anywhere.

And it's just like this anxiety crept up through my past and experience where I'm like,

I want to write this down.

I want this,

I want this.

What about,

You know,

And the pressure of,

You know,

Delivering this keynote caused so much to come to the surface.

But that experience also showed me,

You know,

My perfectionism,

Like showed me like the,

The,

The feeling that like,

I need to do it right away,

You know,

Instead of just surrendering and being like,

It's going to come back,

It's all going to flow.

It's all going to be okay.

But like I taught,

I like,

We were talking about standing on the edge.

Like I tortured myself for so long feeling like,

Oh no,

I'm going to miss it.

How am I going to write this?

You know,

For,

Yeah,

Anyways.

Yeah.

It's so insightful,

Isn't it?

And it's like,

It's just another opportunity,

Just like my mystery crush,

The cross meditation hall.

It's like,

Maybe not the experience you think you're going to get out of meditation.

I hesitate calling it a retreat because it's like,

Like,

Yeah,

I don't know.

It's something I really love it.

Right.

We're talking super positively about it.

It's both like,

Like a super life changing experience though.

Highly recommend.

But it is like,

Know yourself,

Know what you're getting yourself into,

But just to say that,

Like,

You know,

What a gift that is,

That anxiety,

That sensation of like,

Oh my God,

I need to get this idea on paper.

It's not crazy.

It's like,

How can you work with that?

How can you just like surrender to it?

It drove me freaking psycho because like,

I was so nervous about this keynote and I was just like,

And I had so many different ideas and I didn't want to forget them.

And I was like,

Like,

Literally it was so painful,

But that's where one of my lessons lied,

You know?

So I was even thinking about it.

I look back and like,

I obviously,

You know,

Didn't write everything down.

I obviously got the keynote done and it all flowed out well,

But it like,

Was like right there in front of my face.

And it was just like building and building and building.

Yeah.

Anyways,

I had to surrender.

Yeah.

We've gotten a choice in those situations.

This has been so good to chat with you.

I just love all of your insight on like,

You know,

We we've talked about so much,

But especially all this insight into meditation,

I'm really like jazzed about getting back into it.

There's a few things that I do consistently,

Like my Reiki in the morning and my journaling are like daily,

You know,

That's like showering to me.

I probably do it more than showering.

But yeah,

Meditation is just such a simple thing.

Just I sit on the end of my bed and I,

You know,

Close my eyes and it's right there that I have access to my inner world and we all do.

So it's such a good reminder that that is such a powerful tool.

And yeah,

It is.

It's about using the tools that you have at your fingertips that you're aware of,

Using them to train your mind and,

You know,

Get back into the flow.

And you know what?

One thing I will say,

Just because 2020 has been such a crazy year and for a lot of people,

Like there's just been so much,

Like I really do feel like the carpet beneath all of us has just been sort of ripped out and the entire world at the same time.

But like,

I really do choose to see it as a gift.

And I think there is such an opportunity in this like drastic change.

Even though it brings up all of the emotions,

You know,

Like,

Even though it brings up a lot of fear,

Even though it can bring up a lot of anxiety,

You know,

2020 is almost like how we're talking about traveling.

Like when you,

When you jump into a new culture and you jump into new place and it's like,

Everything is new and there's the unknown and you don't really know what's going to happen.

It's like,

That's actually what this year has given us all.

So for anybody who's listening,

You know,

Who might feel a little bit of the overwhelm or feel a little bit lost in like the washing machine of life,

It's like,

This is the perfect opportunity to adopt some of these practices that might be calling you or,

You know,

Get inquisitive on the inside to like,

What is it that you,

That is calling your heart or what is it that,

You know,

Is really speaking to your soul and,

You know,

Take this crazy freaking year as an opportunity to do some of the inquiry work because like,

Yeah,

I feel,

I feel that there's just,

There's so many gifts in this type of,

You know,

Mass experience.

Yeah.

It is such a call to go inward,

Isn't it?

And just like use what we have going on,

However you see it,

Whatever your views are,

Whatever there's,

There's lots to unpack for yourself.

It's going to bring a lot of your stuff up,

Right?

Like the uncertainty,

The fear that like the stuff that it's going to bring,

Like a lot of your patterns,

Like you were saying,

Like how the past brings up a lot of patterns.

You're like,

Oh my God,

You know,

You can see it.

I feel like 2020 is bringing so much stuff to the surface.

Like even in the worst way,

Like,

Even like politically,

Even with like racism with this,

It's like,

It's bringing stuff like past almost that was underneath the surface that was there that needed,

Like I don't want to say needed come up,

But need like is coming up to be healed.

Like that's the way I like to view it,

You know,

To the surface.

So it's just a matter of each of us taking our own personal responsibility and doing our own inner work.

And yeah,

I think like the minute that you do life will open up and it's a beautiful thing.

Yeah.

And the world is made up of individuals.

So if each individual does their,

Their part on themselves,

It's like,

If you want to see the world change,

Change your inner world.

Totally.

What's that quote?

Be the change.

When you change what you look at,

What you look at changes something,

Something to that effect,

But it's like,

Yeah,

Like shift your perspective,

Do the work,

Change your,

Your thoughts,

Your beliefs,

Your,

Whatever.

It's not even about changing them,

But get curious about them.

Sit with them,

Be in your,

In your inner world.

Yeah.

Yeah.

It's crazy.

Like 2020,

Even looking back,

I,

I honestly,

I'm going to look at this year.

Like,

I'm so proud of everything I've done,

But I almost feel like I have amnesia.

Like,

I'm like,

I don't even know.

We were just talking before we jumped on this and it's like,

Oh my God,

It's already October.

Like it's going to be a new year soon.

I'm like,

Oh my gosh,

It's going to be my birthday,

January 1st.

I'm like,

What did,

Like,

What even happened this year?

But,

But I accomplished a lot.

So I'm proud,

But it's like,

Really,

I have,

But I have no idea how,

When,

Where I got it done.

Cause it's like the year that will like,

It felt like it never really happened.

Yeah.

You've just been on the rollercoaster,

Like the rest of us,

I guess.

Anyways.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Yeah.

So good.

I feel like I could like,

I could build on just so many things that we've talked about,

But most importantly,

I want to know where can people find you online?

Yeah.

So if you want,

You can go to Samantha Roberto.

Com.

That's R U B E R T O.

Like we mentioned earlier,

I work as a transfer transformational mindset coach and basically help women step into,

Like,

Be able to learn how to listen to their inner,

Inner voice and step into their,

You know,

Confident,

Courageous version of themselves or check out the podcast.

Hello,

Be you to fall.

It's a really,

Really fun space.

Yeah.

Oh,

I just want to bask in your energy.

So thank you for sharing that with everyone listening who also wants to come follow you or find you wherever you are online.

Are you on Instagram,

Social media at all as well?

Yeah,

Definitely go on Instagram.

You can find me at Samantha Roberto.

Pretty easy.

Just find me Instagram.

You can find me on Facebook.

Yeah.

It's fun.

It's,

You know,

I enjoy sharing a lot of just like daily inspirations,

You know,

A little bit about,

You know,

Mindset stuff,

Meditation,

Like all the things,

The conversation we had is all topics I'm so deeply passionate about.

And yeah,

I love connecting with,

With people from all over the world.

So just reach out,

DM me,

Say,

Hi,

Don't be shy.

I don't bite.

Oh,

I love it.

Thank you so much,

Samantha.

It's been so good to have you on the podcast.

I've loved every minute of our chat and thanks to everyone listening.

I will catch you on the next episode.

Thank you for having me.

I had such a blast.

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