Confronting yourself.
Confronting yourself is.
.
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The ability to look inwards.
Honestly.
I mean like.
.
.
Raise a sharp honesty.
And start asking yourself questions.
Why this?
Why that?
What are your core values?
What are your convictions?
And not letting yourself off that hook.
But really,
Really,
Really looking at how am I living my life?
And why is there suffering?
Should there be suffering if I was really living my life the way I honestly could?
And is the suffering there because I'm telling myself that I'm supposed to be one person,
But I'm acting out as another?
Is suffering there because I've not really come to terms and honestly seen what I am,
Who I am,
At a non-superficial level?
Is the suffering there because I've told myself that I'm somebody who I'm not?
And that there's always a conflict inside.
Unconscious conflict.
Between that good and that bad.
Between this and that.
Confronting yourself.
All those body symptoms that you have,
All that pain,
That ache in the neck or in the head,
Those organs that are not really working as well as they should,
That high blood pressure or whatever it might be.
How is that related to the life that you're not living?
How is that related to the truths and the convictions that you're living from,
But not really living from?
Confronting yourself means to look inwards and really being razor sharp,
Not letting yourself off that hook.
Demanding the truth from yourself.
For yourself.
So you can ask yourself the questions.
What are my core values?
What are my core convictions?
What are my convictions?
And you can take that and then look at how you're living your life.
And then with brutal honesty look at,
Well,
If I look at my life I can see that those core values are quite different.
I can see that if I was able to phrase them to verbalize the core values based on how I am acting and living my life they would be completely different and probably also painful.
But painful and necessary are two good friends that will set you free eventually.
And I'm not talking from a space of this is something that I've gone through and I'm on the other side.
I'm in the beginning of it.
I'm in the middle of it.
I'm starting to understand that this pain I have has nothing to do with the world.
It has everything to do with my world.
What I'm telling myself that this honesty that I have towards myself the ways that I am not respecting myself the pain that I am creating for myself So is there not anything good in me?
Is there not anything honest?
Of course there is.
But there is also pain.
There is also contraction.
There is also symptoms.
Of the body,
Of the organs.
So stuff is not really working as good as it could.
And I'm not talking about putting ourselves down here.
I'm talking about honestly confronting ourselves.
No bullshit.
Stop the pain.
By starting to become who you are honestly.
100% honesty.
And even asking myself that question am I able to do that?
I'm sensing this trembling,
This shaking inside.
It will require for me to be so honest with myself and sharing that with the world that it feels terrifying.
But what's the alternative?
What's the alternative?
To continue a life of lies,
Inner lies,
Conflict conflicts,
Disintegration inside of me.
This honesty towards myself,
Not respecting myself,
My boundaries my body,
My mind,
My emotions,
My time.
And eventually not succeeding with everything I want to from my core values that are the good ones.
The desired ones.
So I'm sharing this from an open solar plexus from an open hara chakra,
From an open heart,
Throat from an open crown,
From an open root.
But I'm sharing it primarily with myself and trying to share something with you that will hopefully help us both.
And just hearing myself saying that there is nothing that has to do with hope.
It's confronting ourselves,
It's seeing reality it's making that plan and then it's executing it's putting action into it,
Changing stuff and not holding back.
Breathe in.
Breathe out.
Thank you so much for being there.
Thank you so much for listening and doing this work.
Thank you.
Bye bye.
