Defensiveness,
Underneath it all,
Is unworthiness.
Defensiveness is a trigger to remind you to go within.
You still don't deeply accept that you are worthy as you are because you are.
If you did,
There would be no defensiveness,
Only compassion for their unknowing.
For you would have the knowing that they do not,
That your worth is not in your work or your tasks or even your results.
When you truly know this as deeply as you know that you exist,
You will not need your defensive protection.
You exist,
You are breathing,
You are worthy.
These statements are all as equally true.
You are worthy because you are,
Because you are,
Because you are.
You are worthy of love because you are.
The love you crave is always near.
You must just let down your defensiveness to feel it.
Do you see the paradox?
You want to feel loved so you do your best work and when there is criticism or questioning,
You feel defensive and put up your wall so as not to get hurt.
Then that wall blocks that love and you feel lower still.
So you think you're not worthy because you didn't do perfect work.
When you've got it all wrong,
You've got it all backwards dear one.
You must only exist without defenses or walls and receive all the love you could ever withhold just by sitting open and exposed.
That's when you are told of the worth you have within and how much you are loved.
Not for your work or productivity or any other story of your creation,
Just because you are.
That is all my dear one.
That's all you need to do.
So let's go within now and let down these walls.
Close your eyes.
Feel into the crown of your head,
Releasing any tension in your forehead,
Your eyes,
Your cheeks and your jaw.
Relaxing your neck and your shoulders and your chest and your torso.
Relaxing down your hips and your thighs.
Relax your knees,
Ankles,
Feet and toes.
Focusing your attention into your heart space and noticing how you breathe in and out of this space,
Letting your breath become a little bit deeper than it usually is.
Now from this space of openness and relaxation,
Ask your most authentic self from deep within your heart,
Where in my life am I feeling defensive?
It might come to you as a thought or a picture or a story.
Just allow whatever is coming up to be released and let go.
Ask yourself,
How can I see this defensiveness from a higher perspective?
If you hear nothing,
That's okay.
Just listen deeper,
Especially on the exhale.
Now ask yourself,
Am I worthy of the love and happiness I'm seeking?
Really feel into your heart.
This is when you may not hear,
But you just might experience a feeling or a knowing from within.
Now ask,
How can I give myself more love today?
Just in this peaceful,
Loving space that you've created within for as long as you like.
And when you are ready,
Open your eyes.
