Hi.
Welcome to your sacred kiss.
I welcome you to find a seat,
Close your eyes,
And simply listen.
Let the words and the sound wash over you,
Sink into your skin,
Your bones,
Your cells,
And the deepest part of your heart.
There is a fine line between control and creation.
Control is having a vision of a life experience and pushing forth to make it happen.
This path is often arduous,
A path of hard work and striving.
Creation is softer,
Organic,
Unfolding on no particular timeline that we can understand.
Creation is initiated from the deepest desires of the heart.
The longings beneath the surface desires of achievement,
Success,
And accomplishment.
Lean into creating your life rather than controlling it.
Begin by leaning into the mystery of not knowing what will happen.
Not knowing is not what you think it is.
It is allowing life to unfold without orchestrating or forecasting what comes next.
Life will sometimes feel full of change,
Volatile.
Allow this.
Life will sometimes feel stagnant,
Boring.
Allow this too.
Do not fight with life.
Do not try to control it.
All is as it should be.
The good,
The bad,
The in-between.
Allow it all.
Accept it all.
And this may take time.
Quiet yourself with conscious awareness of your breath.
This is your home base,
Always.
At first,
Your surface wants and desires will make themselves known.
Your mind will be busy with them.
Goals,
Plans,
Strivings,
Achievements,
Material things,
Experiences.
Busy,
Busy,
Busy.
These are surface waves on the deep ocean.
Surface waves are powerful so stay diligent.
Be patient.
The breath will calm the waves eventually.
The mind will quiet and then the deeper waters will clear and the desires of your heart will rise to the surface.
They will not be what you expect.
They will be simple.
The heart longs to feel loved,
To feel worthy,
To feel safe,
To know connection.
Creating your life is about defining how you want to experience your life internally.
You can achieve great things and still feel unworthy and alone.
So ask yourself,
How do I want to feel in my life?
Self-compassion and kindness must be the foundation of the inner world for true connection and trust to blossom.
When we doubt ourselves,
How can we truly trust the mystery of life?
When we don't trust or forgive ourselves,
This is mirrored back to us.
Everything we perceive to be outside of us is truly inside of us.
And the experience we have of ourselves is mostly shaped by our unconscious mind.
Most of the time,
We don't even know the vibration of our own energy fields.
We do not truly know ourselves.
We look outward for the cause of our internal strife.
We blame families,
Neighbors,
Co-workers.
We blame politics,
Religion,
The media,
The system.
We point our attention outward to explain what is happening within.
We strive to make the outer world good,
So that we may feel good.
But we are backwards in our efforts,
Confused.
We must look within to understand what is outside of us.
Know yourself.
Go deeper than the roles and the labels that you have been given.
Go deeper than the beliefs you hold about who you are.
Go deeper still.
Who are you underneath all of that?
Become devotedly curious about your inner landscape.
Notice the thoughts,
The consistent inner dialogue,
The emotions,
The sensations.
Feel them.
Return again and again to the conscious awareness of your breath as often as possible.
This prepares the soil for the garden of your deepest heart's desires.
Yes,
You are in the perfect place for the most gorgeous garden to grow.
Your breath is the seed.
Your attention to the breath is the sun,
The water,
And the soil.
It is everything.
