Deep Dive Into Conscious Relationships & Conscious Creation

This is powerful podcast episode recorded with a friend where we dive deep into relationship dynamics, what works and what doesn't work in relationships, from our experience and as well the art of conscious creation. Enjoy and feel free to share your thoughts!

Transcript

Hello Align Tribe,

We are here with the lovely Alex and we're going to be discussing probably many topics because we found there's actually lots that I would love to dive into.

I was inspired by some of Alex's posts about masculine and feminine energy and polarity but also some of the consciousness work that you do and we're going to later talk a little bit about your book,

Which is coming out on the 21st of December,

Which is super exciting.

So first off,

I'd like Alex to just,

You know,

Tell us a little bit about yourself,

You know,

Why you do what you do,

You know,

A little intro,

If that's okay.

Sure.

Hello Gail and yeah,

Thank you for having me.

It's a pleasure to have this beautiful podcast because I feel like this is how we can spread our gifts and our magic,

You know,

So we get heard in the most authentic way.

So yeah,

Thank you for having me.

My service in this world is to truly support people and be the creators that they are because I believe we are all creators,

We are not victims of life,

Which we have been taught by,

You know,

Our societies in the last 3000 years of survival mode existing,

You know.

So I believe and I experienced this in myself and with my friends and people I'm connected with how we are all literally expanding into creator consciousness right now on the planet.

It's a collective shift.

So of course,

Creation applies to many different areas like relationships,

You know,

Purpose,

What we do with this existence,

With this life we have in this current lifetime and how we deliberately and intentionally create a better life for ourselves and therefore a better planet.

And that is my excitement,

To really support people on this journey and to simply share my gifts,

Share the wisdom I received and the experiences I had and yeah,

This is truly my passion and I do it in many,

Many forms.

That sounds amazing.

I mean,

I'm watching you as you're speaking and you seem very relaxed and in alignment with that truth.

Like that's the energy that I kind of sense from you.

I think when a lot of people talk about consciousness and creativity and all of that,

There maybe isn't,

You know,

I want to say full alignment,

But what I really mean is that sometimes there's a little split,

Let's say,

Between their creative self,

Their aligned self and then the person that they're being in life.

Yeah,

I think people speak a lot about ideals and concepts that feel good and feel right.

My journey was to really walk that path,

To be on that path.

Everything I'm sharing,

The wisdom I get and the things that I'm sharing in my posts or through my offerings is really what I have been through in my journey.

So when we experience that,

Then it obviously sounds grounded.

And of course,

There's a lot to learn still.

However,

I'm showing up on this journey with what I know,

With what I experienced,

But also with the awareness how much there is still to learn and still to grow into.

That's the beauty of it.

This journey never ends.

There's so much that we can experience in our journey of mastering creation,

Mastering our human experience,

Whatever,

However we describe that.

Mastering is just a continuous process.

So can you tell us a little bit about how that journey started and maybe who you were before you were this more grounded version of Alex?

Yeah,

I've been many versions.

I've been many versions of myself.

But the moment when everything started to shift and transform for me was about 11 years ago when I had a massive awakening,

A profound awakening moment where I truly could feel what I am,

What I'm made of,

What we are all made of,

Because we are made of the same essence and source.

And that felt like love.

I felt love for the first time in my heart,

But to a degree that I didn't even realize is possible.

It was profound.

It was unity with all the animal kingdom,

With the plant kingdom,

With the humans,

With the whole earth and the whole solar system,

The whole galaxy,

The whole universe.

I was all of it at the same time as I was a human.

And that feeling,

That sensation in my body,

I feel like it shifted all the way to my cellular structure.

It felt like my whole consciousness came into my body in that moment.

And of course,

From there,

I've been through so many transformations and more so release of identities,

Of thinking that I know who I am or thinking that,

You know,

All of these attachments that we pick up as kids when we grow up in this sometimes confusing world.

And so the journey was really to purify and cleanse and clear those things and those lineages and ancestral lineages,

Even from different lifetimes that I've been shown.

And once you do that,

You just become this empty vessel ready to embody the divine in the moment,

In the way that it wants to be utilized,

You know,

By your makeup,

By your design as a human.

So it was a deep journey from deep shadow work,

Rock bottoms,

Many crazy stories,

Living on four different continents.

You know,

I mean,

That's what I'm sharing in the book.

I'm excited to share that because I don't need to explain it.

Yeah,

So much.

We can speak one hour,

Two hours about it.

So I'd love to ask in that moment when I see firstly,

In the moment when that awakening happened,

Was that just spontaneous?

And then secondly to that,

Really what I'm feeling is people might listen to that and go,

Oh my God,

I don't want that to happen to me.

It sounds overwhelming.

Like that sounds like a lot,

You know,

Suddenly all of your consciousness is now flooding your body and you're switched on.

Some people might find that exciting.

Like for me,

That sounds amazing,

But it can be a scary journey.

So could you tell us a little bit about,

You know,

That first awakening and then,

You know,

I don't have to go into it too much because obviously like you said,

You have your book,

But just as a little insight about you.

And then also,

What would you say to people who might be scared of experiencing more of their consciousness,

More of themselves?

That's a good,

That's a good point.

Working with people,

Meeting people.

I realized that there's many ways to awaken and mine was just a sudden,

Like literally overnight profound,

Sudden experience.

And that was also a result of my rock bottom.

I was rock bottom that moment.

I broke up with my nine year old relationship and girlfriend.

I was gambling.

I was,

You know,

Using all of these addictions,

Smoking,

Alcohol,

All of these things.

And so I reached this zero point where you can't go lower.

I felt like I was fully ready for something new,

Something else,

A new me,

Although it was not a conscious thing,

You know.

And so it felt like life prepared me until that point so that I could experience and hold that experience and manage it.

But some people awaken more progressively.

Other people are pre-awakened since they are kids,

You know,

Especially newborns,

Like they are so much more than when we were kids,

You know.

And so it's not one way or the other.

And I feel like our soul is kind of prepared and knows what it can handle.

And we don't get more than we can handle,

Right?

So some people can have a super profound experience and they can handle that.

That's where they are in their lives.

And others have a more progressive,

You know,

Linear or slowly pointed up.

Yeah,

It's like the trajectory is more paced.

Or you can go in waves.

I've been going in waves.

That's me.

Yeah.

I had an extreme up and then three years after that was an extreme down.

So this is what people don't know.

Oh,

All of a sudden you transform.

No,

I've been going through a lot of stuff.

And yeah,

That's how my journey was.

I totally agree.

And I love what you said there,

Because I think that really helps people about the fact that your journey is led by soul.

So,

You know,

Your experience might be that and that's exactly what you needed.

But somebody else might need,

You know,

To take two or three steps and then have a break and then have a few more steps to take.

I've certainly been on a journey similar to you,

I would think,

In the sense that I had a kind of like one big awakening that actually happened over,

I would say,

A few weeks.

It wasn't like just in one moment.

It was like I was having insight after insight after insight,

But like multiple times in the day,

Like it just didn't stop.

And that piece wasn't too scary,

Actually.

But what came next then was,

You know,

I asked to be fast tracked.

And my fast track was an abusive relationship.

You know,

And I was like,

Oh,

I asked for this.

I could see it.

It was like I was conscious enough to actually witness what was going on.

But I wasn't conscious enough of my wounds to get myself out of it.

You know,

And that went on for quite a number of years.

And then I had another awakening when that relationship ended,

You know.

I relate.

Yeah.

I've been as well in a very,

I would,

I like to call it like an initiation relationship.

Right.

Soon after that,

Like right away,

Deep into all of it.

All of my relationships have actually been amazing catalysts for pieces of me that I haven't been able to totally reach.

And that's why when I have clients come to me and say,

I was going through this time where I was like,

You know,

I was on track and everything was great.

And then I hit this other thing and now I've become unconscious.

And I'm like,

No,

You're in a cycle.

Exactly.

You're in a cycle.

Life is a cycle,

You know.

It's like a spiral and it keeps going back to a certain cycle and point,

But it's better and better and better and more refined each time.

But unfortunately,

You come around on the cycle and then you go,

I've gone backwards.

No,

You're just on that piece of the cycle,

You know,

And your next up leveling,

I call it,

You know,

The next level up is coming.

But usually there's a point of pain,

You know,

And I do believe in the 3D on this planet.

Unfortunately,

We need the point of pain in order to move.

It's kind of like the matrix,

You know,

When everyone's in the matrix,

You see in the movie,

Everyone just wants to be in the matrix,

You know,

Because it's safer or it's maybe not happy,

But it's like,

It's just safe.

You know,

It's predictable.

Oh yeah,

Predictable.

That's actually the word.

Yeah,

It's that for sure.

I'd like to bring us on to like some of the kind of polarity work that you do.

Maybe we'll come back to the consciousness bit.

Some of the things,

You know,

That you've spoken about in regards to men and women and the polarity space that's become very popular,

You know,

Especially in the last couple of years,

You know,

I'd love to dive into some of that.

I don't know if you just want to jump in.

Let's do it.

I feel it's the most fascinating topic right now,

You know,

And it always will be relationships where most of growth happens.

Alright,

Let's start there.

Let's start right with that.

Relationships are the place where the most growth happens.

Why do you believe that?

First,

Of course,

Is because my own personal journey with relationships and I'm seeing that we need reflections in life.

If you're in the frame,

If you're in a picture,

In a frame,

You can't see yourself.

So you need someone to reflect you back what you are,

Your behaviors,

You know,

And then you can see that if it's coming from a non-integrated place,

Which is coming from wounding,

From darkness,

From light,

From a place of joy,

You literally experience that in another as a reflection,

Especially I see this mostly as a man.

You experience that in a woman because I believe that a woman is genuinely made to be a reflector,

A magnetizer,

You know,

It attracts and then it shows that.

That was what relationships were for me.

It was an opportunity to really refine myself the moment I was actually able to admit that that's what a relationship does and not think that I'm already perfect and I already have a figure out that I can already have a family and know I'm here to evolve and grow.

And I will do that no matter where I'm at in life,

No matter how much I already achieved or didn't achieve.

And the relationship,

It supports that process.

It expands it or it contracts it.

Obviously,

It expands it if you give it beauty,

If you give it peace and love and magic and it contracts it when you give it struggle and trauma or other things that are within us,

Which is fine.

It's a process.

So what made you come to the realization that you needed to own that that's what relationships actually are?

And what was the resistance to realizing that?

To be very honest with you,

My own ego.

That's the paradox,

Especially after I had this awakening.

I had a period of my life where I was like,

I'm so enlightened.

I'm so self-realized already.

I don't need you to reflect me this and that.

What I'm seeing in the mirror is not true.

So I was in denial because I thought that I'm already there.

In whatever attachment I was projecting myself into.

And when I saw that it's not true,

Then it was a humbling moment.

It was,

You know,

My head has been cut many,

Many times until that point.

Once I reached it,

I also saw and appreciated the value,

Not only of the relationship,

But of the feminine energy in general.

Right.

I really relate with that.

For two things I can think of.

One is,

Actually,

It's funny when you said it's like the sense of frustration at the men that have been in my life that haven't understood my feminine.

Because the feminine to me,

When you're tuned into that is an oracle.

As a woman saying that,

It sounds like ego.

You know,

To insecure men it sounds like.

Oh,

Right.

Okay.

Yeah.

From someone who's insecure.

Yeah,

Absolutely.

And it also depends how it's said.

Because someone might say from this place,

Oh,

I need to prove myself.

And you can feel that.

Which brings me to the other thing that,

You know,

I definitely have seen in myself.

I would say that I have the same understanding that relationships are the next level for me.

Like,

That's the place where I get to see more of my stuff.

More of the reflections of family karma that I'm carrying,

You know,

The ego of the family that's certainly there that I maybe don't see in the moment that I'm triggered.

You know,

But I'm aware enough to know that something's happening.

And that there's something going on with me,

But I can't fully see it.

And the desire for someone to be able to reflect that back.

And yet,

And I haven't been able to get it.

And I'm struggling,

Because they,

They're not able.

And I can't see.

And yeah,

I'm like,

There's something here.

What is it?

And some of it has been my language,

For absolute sure.

And I remember in my last relationship,

I was like,

You know,

I know there's something in my language.

And yeah,

I can't figure it out.

You mean like the actual spoken word?

Mm hmm.

I want to say the energy.

Mm hmm.

Like your energetic.

Yes.

Expression or.

Yeah,

Like,

I mean,

Okay,

Could also be the words,

But definitely the energy,

Like,

You know,

Telling myself that I am being vulnerable by sharing what's going on for me,

But actually no energetically not being vulnerable.

Energetically actually still being protective or judging or,

You know,

Even now,

I'm like,

I'm not totally sure,

You know,

But it's there.

You know,

It's there.

It's like that,

Oh,

Am I spiritually manipulating what's going on so that I look like,

Oh,

It's not me,

It's you.

I can relate in what you're saying,

You know,

From the other side.

Relationships are the most important factor.

Because of that,

I started to shift my perspective of them and nurture them differently and treat people in my life differently.

Either it's romantic or not,

You know,

It changed my life.

And another way I found growth through was through my book.

That and relationships together.

Because through the book,

When you write a book,

When you write your story and your journey,

You get to self-reflect,

You get to hold yourself in the mirror,

Basically.

Yeah.

But still,

You don't get a perspective.

You know what I mean?

You don't get a feedback necessarily in the mirror.

That is a different perspective.

That is something that you might not see.

And so no matter what I created,

No matter how many things I wrote,

I was blogging for years before I wrote the book.

True relationship is truly how I actually matured into what I am today.

So I'm grateful.

We have to be present because it's so much to learn through the process.

When we see a trigger,

When we see that,

How we show up,

How we react.

I reached a point where I'm actually not reacting most of the time in relationship.

I'm not reacting.

I'm just present.

Okay,

This shows up,

These surfaces.

What is this?

How can we go with this?

What tools do we have?

Is it,

You know,

Is it a trauma?

Is it the conditioning?

Is it a pattern?

Is it a limitation?

Is it true?

You know?

Yes,

Like Byron Keaty.

Yeah.

Like the work.

Yeah,

Relationships are really that catalyst that we need to grow.

What would you say to someone who's listening to this and is thinking,

Well,

I just want a nice relationship.

Like,

I just want a nice,

Sweet relationship.

You know,

Like people often think that they're just looking for their person and then everything is going to be wonderful.

You know,

We can,

We can totally have that once we embrace the totality of what a relationship is.

And I think that is the gift that is like the cherry on the cake.

When we actually know how to navigate relationships in a way that it doesn't mean that there's no challenges,

But even when there are challenges,

We know how to show up in that.

And that maintains that peaceful calmness energy where it just feels right to be in a relationship.

Otherwise it can be destructive.

They can destroy you as much as they can build you up.

So it's no joke,

You know?

And when you see that you are in an abusive relationship,

Then go out of it,

Then stay in it,

You know,

Take space,

Take time and see if it transforms ultimately.

Yeah.

I think that what you mentioned is what we all want.

We all want that.

And it is possible.

There is work to be done for sure.

I'm just looking at my notes because I did write some things down that you'd said that might be a little bit controversial to some.

But I kind of like where the juice is.

Yeah.

So I think we should tap into that.

So one of the things was,

Which you kind of hinted at earlier,

Avoiding the expression of your wants and needs in relationship perpetuates victimhood and self abandonment.

What did you mean by that?

How was the start?

So avoiding the expression of your wants and needs.

So basically being in a relationship,

But you don't express what you want.

You don't express what you need.

Yeah,

It leads to self abandonment.

Exactly.

It's like maintaining the peace while there's war.

And you're just trying to,

You're like,

Oh,

Well,

We want peace.

We want peace.

Okay.

But war is,

It's too late.

War is happening.

You need to either express,

Protect yourself,

Fight for your needs for,

You know,

I mean,

This is an extreme example of war,

But you get the point,

You know,

It's like we have to express that.

Otherwise,

If we don't express our needs and our desires,

Wants,

Expectations,

And simply the truth that we feel in that moment,

It makes us shrink.

That's what I'm experiencing.

When I don't speak my truth,

It makes me shrink.

And so I have two choices.

Either I express it.

If it's really important,

I express it.

If it's not important,

Maybe it's a projection or assumption,

Then I transmute it and I bring myself back to aliveness and,

You know,

Expansion because I experienced a lot of self abandonment in relationships where I shutting myself up.

I couldn't say no,

Just to maintain the peace,

Just to maintain people pleasing.

Exactly.

That's an extreme.

And when you are in that space,

Nothing is working in life in general.

I couldn't write from there.

I couldn't show up and be at service to others.

I couldn't do my work from that place.

So it's highly important to express.

And of course,

How we express matters so much.

Yeah.

And do you think that that's different for men and women?

How you express?

It can be.

But I've been seeing,

To be honest,

I've been seeing men who express aggressively.

I've been seeing women who express in an angry way,

Just fueling more drama.

And I've been also seeing women who are expressing really kindly and men who do that as well.

So I don't think there's a rule in looking at general energy of healing.

I would say that women are usually more open to healing and to evolution than men.

Men have a little bit more resistance.

So that tends to be a little bit more towards the feminine so that they are more understanding of the process.

They are more calm and peaceful.

They tolerate so much more.

That's what I experience a lot.

And I'm just seeing in my brothers,

In my men friends or family women,

How when something is not fully in alignment,

The communication is not in alignment,

How we show up.

And usually men tend to have more resistance.

And that can express either as they shut themselves down or they become charged,

Frustrated.

Yeah,

It's like either or one side or the other.

Yeah,

Women usually when they are angry,

From my experience,

They are angry because of this.

Because the man is either shutting down or is too aggressive in communication.

Not so much because she is unconscious of herself.

I didn't experience this a lot because again,

I believe women are more open to understand themselves and to do the work than men.

Unfortunately,

In this moment in time,

I think this will change for the next years.

I think that the masculine truly starts to come up.

But up until this point,

It's really like 70,

80% women are more eager to do the work than men.

That's the reality we live in.

Yeah,

I do believe that women have kind of been the catalyst for a lot of change.

I do also see though,

I think as a woman who,

I think I've got an affinity with men's struggles for some reason.

If I look at my family,

Which is a very Scottish matriarchal family that actually was led by,

To me,

It doesn't feel like feminine energy.

It's like masculine energy,

But the kind of,

I don't really like using the word toxic.

It's not that,

It's unconscious.

Unconscious,

Unhealthy.

Yeah,

Unhealthy with a kind of unhealthy feminine,

Which was,

Put it this way.

When I was going through that first awakening,

I remember sitting in a room with my family,

Like aunts and uncles and being able to see how the energy played out.

You know,

In a way that I hadn't seen previously.

And one of the things was the women,

Like,

We kind of say like taking the piss or taking the mickey out of the men,

You know,

Like goading them,

Like in a playful way,

But it was only the women doing it to the men.

And it seemed to me like a way to diminish them,

You know,

Like to kind of keep them in a place.

And I actually,

At that point,

I remember being horrified because I hadn't seen it before.

Interesting.

You know?

So you had like a,

It felt like a completely opposite experience than what I had in my life.

I grew up seeing how women are mistreated.

And that's when I get this pull of,

Man,

You need to get your stuff together.

You need to,

You know,

Put your shit together.

Yeah,

I have the same thing.

I still do have men have to get their shit together,

But I do also have an empathy for men who have maybe been in environments where women haven't been soft and vulnerable.

And I also can see that in myself.

I grew up as a person who was very sensitive.

It was judged by the women in my world,

Right?

It was,

You are too sensitive.

You are negative.

You know,

When you have an emotion that's sadness or whatever,

It seemed to be weak.

And so I wasn't really allowed to embrace that,

You know?

That's the patriarchal system.

It obviously influenced the feminine as well.

And the way for the feminine to cope in a patriarchal system was to either be,

That's the truth,

In the past,

Obedient,

Submissive at home.

Right,

Yes.

Either be a rebel,

Rebellious prostitute or to become masculine.

Yeah.

And so these are the traits that I'm seeing in society and what women have to work through so that also they can be returning back to their self-worth of femininity.

And also survival mode,

You know,

Like a lot of us end up in survival mode.

And I think that's when the lack of polarity,

Although I think some people are taking it very extreme,

You know,

But let's say the lack of polarity has sparked that extreme of like,

We need to return to the extremes,

You know,

Where the men go to work and the women are at home.

And that's just how it is.

Because we've had this lack of polarity where women have ended up going into masculine energy to survive and men have kind of been diminished into little boys.

So now we've got mother and son dynamic within a relationship that shouldn't,

Well,

It doesn't work that way.

Maybe for some it will,

You know,

But it's not where you are thriving.

That's what I'm trying to say.

Absolutely,

Yeah.

It's a coping mechanism based on the times that we lived in,

Based on systems that were built and we have been born into.

It's not a harmonious dynamic where the value of the feminine is recognized,

The value of the masculine is recognized and okay,

Let's co-create.

And that is what we are going into right now.

We are realizing,

Okay,

We experienced enough of this survival games and whatever other games,

Separation games,

Let's just co-create.

Let's just,

You know,

Let's just try actually what actually works within the laws of the universe and the laws of nature really.

It's not even that hard if we really are open to look at it.

And paying attention.

Yeah.

You know,

I think humans have got so focused on ourselves,

You know,

We don't pay attention to much else until we start to wake up and go,

Oh,

That little animal or,

You know,

That other human,

Who are they?

Or who am I?

When we look in the mirror,

You know,

There's so much,

The ego is so much focused on itself.

Essentially.

But yeah,

When we're talking about men and women,

It brings me to something else that you said,

Which is why men have more wounds to heal than women.

That might be controversial based on what I've just said.

However,

Tell us more about that.

For me,

It's very simple as a man,

Because I've been seeing my ancestral lineage of war and battle and death.

Killing a person,

Taking life of a person,

Which is what most men did for the last 3000 years in that extreme survival condition,

Is to really kill each other for power,

For concepts,

For resources,

For control,

For whatever reason.

Yeah,

Like,

I just don't like you.

So I'm just gonna get rid of you.

I don't like what you stand for.

Exactly.

And that,

What does that do?

That adds karmic points that you literally take that person's will.

Yeah,

It adds karma points to your lineage,

To your continuation in your journey,

In your evolution as a soul,

As a being.

And so men have been doing that so much more than women.

And men have been doing that not just to us,

To us men,

But we have been doing that to women as well.

Yeah.

To an extreme degree.

I don't need to,

I don't want to go into it.

But just to mention in the last 100,

200 years,

Recently,

There was the witch burning and all of these things.

So,

And we got pumped even on that.

We thought it's the right thing to do.

And so imagine how much is,

How much work you need to do to go back there,

To see all of these atrocities and rewire them and realize that's not what I am.

That's not what I'm supposed to be doing in this creation.

I'm against the creation doing that.

I'm against of creation when I'm killing either a man or a woman.

And so it's a lot of work.

This is why our process is slower.

And this is why we tend to bypass easier and ignore it in general,

On a collective level.

Because of course,

Men who do the work,

They actually do.

I know brothers who dive deep into it,

And we cry together,

And we see it and we forgive each other.

And it's deep and profound.

And yeah,

But in general,

I believe that that's one of the reasons why men have to do more work than women.

They have to heal more because they are deeply,

The nervous system is deeply affected by all of these things,

Like their energetic body,

Their soul memory.

And so women on the other end,

They've been just in the last few thousands of years,

They were just there observing us,

Absorbing and observing and transmuting constantly for us,

Working from the background,

The wiser woman,

Giving when they could,

Giving advice to the kings on the throne,

Hey,

You need to do this,

Or maybe it's best to consider this.

And in this process,

It felt like they were not so affected on a different level by observing him,

But not by their own will directly.

You know,

By their own will and decision making.

And so they have less karma,

Collectively speaking,

To process.

That's what makes sense for me,

At least.

Because I've been seeing and having visions of timelines when I was literally seeing how he was cutting people in half with a sword.

You know,

And that made me feel in ways that it's hard to describe in human words,

It's really demonic,

In a way.

Yeah.

And sometimes we did it because we had to,

Because others were,

You know,

Threatening our lives and our families and villages.

And so we had to do what we had to do.

But together,

This whole thing became like a serious collective issue for the masculine energy in general.

And there's women who did that too,

To a degree.

There's warrior women who did that as well,

And fighters and so,

But the balances are not even close to be even.

Yeah,

It's very true.

And also,

If you believe in past lives,

Then for any women listening,

You might have also been a man in a past life.

So maybe you're not totally off the hook.

But I do really,

Really feel that sense of,

Maybe that's why I feel an affinity with the struggles that men have also gone through.

Because I think that ego has dominated the masculine.

Ego still is dominating the masculine.

It doesn't mean that women don't have it.

They do.

I work with women who are still struggling with theirs.

We all do.

We're all struggling.

I do,

You know.

But I see that the ego of the masculine has really kind of,

You know,

Like when you're talking about the killing and all of that,

You know,

The abuse,

The raping,

Everything.

You have to be a person who isn't able to connect,

Who doesn't feel all of that trauma.

The only way that you can commit that is to not feel that,

You know.

So you have to be disconnected.

So what I would say goes along with that,

Which I felt when you were speaking,

Which is the feminine,

You know,

Coming through women has been calling to the masculine in men for millennia.

Like,

Please come out.

Please be here.

Come back.

Please be present.

Please just,

You know,

Wake up.

I want to see,

You know.

It makes me,

I feel goosebumps when you say that.

I feel emotional.

Yeah,

It's the truth.

Like you guys were just there rooting for us.

Come back.

Come back.

Okay,

This happens again.

This happens when you come back.

And that was your part of healing.

It's like you felt betrayed in many ways as like the feminine felt.

And also just alone.

You know,

There is definitely a sense within the feminine energy of,

You know,

We long for safety.

We long for protection.

And yet when we look to the masculine for the safety and protection,

Which is its natural position,

You've become the demon,

Like you said,

You know,

Of like,

You are the one that's going to turn on me.

Potentially,

You're the one that could kill me.

You know,

We want our men to have elements of that in like being our protectors,

But we don't want it to be turned on us,

You know.

And so it's that call.

It's like,

And it's very deep.

And,

You know,

I get emotional when I tap into all of that.

You know,

I'm like that with lots of different things.

But when I feel into those timelines,

There's a lot of energy there.

And what I hear when you're speaking is you have come to a point where you have absolute reverence for the feminine,

Which is a place that I feel like men are really struggling to get to.

And society also determines lots of that.

You know,

The porn industry.

Oh,

Absolutely.

You know,

And saying that women are just crazy because they're emotional.

So being disconnected from your own emotions as a man automatically makes women look nuts.

You know,

Absolutely.

Yeah.

You know,

So I hear all of that and I feel that.

Yes.

And the more,

The more I actually,

I never thought that about women in general.

Because I've been raised by women.

That is the advantage here.

I've been raised by only women.

And so that,

That made me actually see the essence,

Like the love that my mom had for me.

My grandmother was,

Was,

Was different,

Really the opposite.

But I could see both of these elements.

So it felt like from a young age,

I got trained into understanding the feminine and her value.

And I haven't received enough training on understanding the masculine.

Yeah.

But I believe that it is a good part of that,

In that,

Because I could,

I could mature my own and create my own version of it.

Yes,

For sure.

Yeah.

Instead of picking up someone else's version of what does it mean to be a man?

I got to experience that in my own terms.

I like to see feminine first.

And what I mean by that is,

Is connect to your feminine first,

And then work on your masculine.

And I mean that for all people,

Because that's where creation is.

That's where source is.

Actually,

The people who've connected to the masculine mind,

And all of that,

They are going to be the ones that struggle more than the person who connects to the feminine first.

So I think you're actually in a good place.

I want to just jump off this and onto your book.

Can you talk a little bit more about that?

Because I realize we're,

We'll just keep chatting and,

You know,

Diving into this topic,

And I probably won't stop.

But yeah,

There's,

There's lots to say.

And I'd love to have you come back and share again,

You know,

On maybe a different topic.

But yeah,

If you tell us a little bit more about your book,

Your book is called Be Nobody,

Become Everything.

Yes.

Um,

Yeah,

My book was basically my,

It was like my maturity process.

I've been writing it for the last eight years.

I've been writing quite a few drafts.

But it was never that moment of completion.

I didn't feel okay,

This is complete.

Now it's ready to be in the world.

And that happened like six months ago.

And since then,

Yeah,

I've been writing the last draft and I'm publishing in December.

And it's exciting.

So the book has three parts.

First part is my memoir,

My whole journey,

Since I'm born,

To my awakening,

To my rock bottoms,

To my heartbreaks,

Through grief and death and losing,

All the way to really building myself from nothing.

And my whole healing journey and many things.

Yeah,

That alone,

I think it's,

It's very.

.

.

It's a movie in itself.

It's a movie.

I wanted to say,

Yeah,

It's a movie in itself.

And then the second part is I downloaded information from one of my lineages,

Which is galactic.

So I don't know if people heard about starseeds or,

You know,

People who hear this heard about starseeds or civilizations outside of ours.

And I've connected with one of these civilizations and they were sharing information and teachings and wisdom about the quantum lobes,

About the multidimensional human,

About how life works,

How the earth works,

Like all of these things,

And how to heal our multidimensional aspect,

Meaning the masculine,

The feminine,

Our subconscious,

Our physical bodies,

Our soul.

And to truly understand it,

To truly understand our ascension journey and evolution in consciousness,

Combined with my own experience and practices that worked for me.

So it's information,

Like awareness,

Knowledge,

That alone has the power to shift your consciousness,

Plus the practices and what to do,

How to do.

And then the third part is called Mastering the Art of Conscious Creation,

Which was my journey of being a conscious creation since last time,

10,

11 years ago,

When I had my first paid job as being an employer.

And I decided to just live on my own terms and do only what really excites my soul and follow my dreams,

Follow what feels right.

And since then,

I made it.

Oh,

The journey was super,

Super powerful.

And I lived on many continents in Bali.

I currently live in Costa Rica.

Right now I'm in Peru,

Finishing publishing the book.

Yeah,

It's a guide of self-realization and self-healing,

Self-empowerment.

And so somebody who is going to purchase your book,

What should they expect?

What is your main premise of teaching?

They can expect to really get to know themselves on the deepest level that they did and access that potential to create what they need to create in the world,

What they came here to be.

Okay,

So like basically connecting to that feminine core that I was talking about and discovering who you're asked to be,

Who you're called to be.

Feminine,

Masculine,

All the layers of what we are.

All within it.

Amazing.

And it depends on where people are on their journey.

Some people are ready for this part or for that part.

It's profound.

It's deep.

It has many topics that are super multidimensional.

But my whole mission was to make it in a way that the general public understands it.

Not just spiritual people.

Not just new age or whatever.

No,

Everyone.

Because this consciousness involves us all.

And people ask me what niche it is.

The niche is being human.

It's not.

I love that.

It's not niched.

It's called being nobody becomes everything.

So in this title,

Everything is included,

Really.

Whatever you are on your journey for whatever you need.

This is what I believe.

As long as you're a human,

This book is for you.

Exactly.

Can you just tell us before we leave,

I'm really super intrigued to know about your channeling of these beings.

I don't know how you would describe it.

But when did that start?

And was it clear to you that that would be part of your book?

Or was it just something that happened and you were just communicating and learning?

Thanks for asking that.

Because I believe it's super important to realize we are not alone here in this creation.

So it happens in layers.

First time it happened around eight,

Nine years ago.

Well,

At that time I was eating very light.

I was eating fruits for two years.

I was a fruitarian,

Raw vegan fruitarian.

And I've been all the way to juice fasting for one month.

And I was tapping into the astral world very easy.

And so through a meditation,

I connected with these beings.

And I explained the whole story in the book.

I'm not going to because we may need another half an hour.

So I connected with these beings.

And it felt like it was a transfer of consciousness that happened.

And in that moment of transfer,

I could feel,

Basically,

It was like I was connecting with a version of myself from a different reality,

From a parallel reality,

Sending me information about my path and journey.

Right.

And then a few years after that,

I started to reconnect again with these beings.

And they said clearly,

Okay,

One of your missions is to put this in the book.

So it was very precise that it has to be part of the book.

Wow.

Yeah.

And it was amazing.

I saw how,

You know,

My soul in my own constellation,

My whole galaxy travels,

Because I believe many of us have been in other constellations as well.

Previously,

Even if we remember or not,

And we don't have to remember,

But if it happens,

It happens.

Yeah.

But in one of them,

I could feel so connected with these beings,

Like they were my family.

And I also felt nostalgia around when I'm connecting with them.

It's like,

Oh,

It's like it's home.

Yeah.

It's very interesting.

As much as Earth is my home,

As I fully embrace my humanness here.

Yeah.

Which we need to do for sure.

Yeah.

I believe we all need to do that.

And it doesn't matter if you are or if you're not connecting with other civilization.

It's not about that.

You're not missing out if you don't.

Yeah,

Absolutely.

Many people think that and believe that.

Oh,

My God.

Yeah,

I need to know if I'm an indigo,

You know,

And all that.

You don't absolutely need to know.

If you know,

Then you know.

And if you find out,

You find out,

You know.

Exactly.

And then if you know,

Also,

There's a reason why.

There's something for you to understand deeper than that.

And most people,

You know,

You can go on another extreme of this.

You can go into schizophrenia.

And in other things,

That is,

You know,

It's another polarity,

Right?

So let's keep ourselves humans and grounded.

And that's how they transmit their message to.

It's a very grounding message.

It's not going to make you crazy.

Yeah.

I can relate a lot even to this piece of your story.

And I want to say to anyone listening who's a little bit,

Again,

Because depending on where you're at in your journey,

That might all sound like,

What are you talking about?

That sounds like so out there.

I don't feel ready for that.

It's closer than you think in the sense of simply there when you talked about like juicing and all of that.

So I did raw food for like two years in Scotland,

Would you believe?

Awesome.

And then it was two and a half,

I think.

And then I transitioned,

But I then got into juicing and I became a detox coach,

Funnily enough.

And I talked about detoxing emotions from the body.

That was my whole thing for a long time.

And recently I just completed a month.

I actually did 29 days,

Day 30.

I didn't complete day 30,

But I still did 29 days.

And that's the longest Juiced Feast that I've done.

And I noticed a marked difference in my connection,

Especially by week three,

Where some of that kind of stuck energy that I had kind of collected again in my system.

There's a whole story with that.

I got ill and it sent me back into the cycle in survival.

But I was like,

Oh,

That part of me that I'd been connected to for quite a long time is back again.

I kind of like,

Yeah,

It's just crazy.

So I totally relate.

And for anyone listening,

Like who wants to go more on that journey,

You know,

Read Alex's book,

Get in touch with me if you need to detox,

You know,

All of that stuff really helps with that.

And then it seems more normal.

That's what I'm trying to get at.

From a place of like,

Maybe if you eat McDonald's every day,

Or,

You know,

You're just doing the nine to five,

All of that sounds woo-woo and weird,

But it's closer than you can possibly imagine.

Exactly.

To be honest,

I'm always,

I'm saying this thing always is like,

It is more terrifying to think that we are alone in this creation than thinking that or believing that there are other beings out there.

So what is more crazy,

To believe that you are really alone?

Can you imagine how much responsibility we have in that?

A hell of a lot.

Yeah,

We do still have for our own sake and species,

But yeah,

It depends how you look at it.

I believe people who truly think that we are alone,

They are more delusional than those who believe that there's other civilizations and planets with life in this world.

And we can take that down,

You know,

I also say that to people who say they don't believe in anything,

You know,

There's no higher power,

There's no,

There's nothing.

I believe that,

I've been that person.

Okay,

So to me,

It's much,

Much harder to live your life believing that you're utterly alone.

Absolutely,

It's isolating,

It's contraction.

I live that,

I've been a complete atheist for most of my teenage years,

Up until I had this awakening.

And oh my God,

I was the most arrogant and ignorant person who was in,

That was part of my journey.

I was rejecting religion,

But I think I rejected everything really.

Yeah,

I think that's what happens in that space a lot of the time.

And then you just become dominated by the world and the mind.

And you actually don't have many places to go,

You know.

No,

You need the world,

You need the world.

Yeah,

You do.

I have absolutely adored this conversation.

It's been amazing.

I see lots of reflections in our journey,

Actually.

And also,

You know,

Our experience of life won't be believed.

So thank you so much for sharing that.

First of all,

I want to thank you for this.

I also feel the resonance in our story,

In our journey a little bit.

And I,

Yeah,

I love to explore these topics.

And whoever feels inspired,

Connected by them,

Then it's already a win.

Yeah.

However,

Yeah,

Whoever wants to go deeper.

And I'm also doing retreats in Costa Rica starting April next year.

And yeah,

Whoever feels a connection,

Simply just reach out.

Let's have a conversation.

And remember that we are creators.

We can create everything we want.

And that's truly what I'm here for.

Thank you so much.

It's been amazing.

And we'll definitely have another conversation about more of that.

Yes,

Let's do it.

Pleasure.

Ciao.

Bye.

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What a great conversation 🙏✌️💗 thank you for sharing.

This Was Awesome! I love You Alex! You are my brother from another mother! What powerful insight into your viewa on the masculine & karma etc. I truly appreciate your deep connection & innerstanding of the sacred feminine! & I was eating all of that woowoo up, & as far as the souls that are more hesitant to believe that we are not alone in the universe are simply afraid because to not believe in anything while living in an existance youre trying to make sense of can already be scary with a low dose of existensial crisis in rhe background & then to add extreterrestrial beings to the mix is a lot & may not feel safe, my souls is also saying considering the way religious texts have been mis-interpreted vs what chaos 3d is reflecting back that being, it maybe hard to believe that there is a higher power when trying to make sense of painful inhumane experiences . I really enjoyed this talk! Congratulations on your New Book! Many blessings dear one💖🌈🦋🌸🍃✨