This meditation is for those who experienced an ectopic pregnancy.
Whether this happened some time ago or if this just happened to you.
Since an ectopic pregnancy has similarities with a miscarriage,
This session can also be beneficial if this is what you've gone through.
With this meditation I hope to give you some kind of support.
You can do this meditation either lying down or seated.
Choose a position in which you can stay for a while.
If you choose a seated position,
Make sure that your back is fully supported.
So that the body doesn't have to work to stay here.
And if you choose to lay down,
You can lay on either side,
The belly or your back.
Now give yourself some time to find your ideal position.
If you are seated,
Maybe place a bolster or a pillow underneath the feet.
And if you are laying down,
Place a pillow underneath the head and maybe under the knees.
In either position,
Cover yourself with a blanket to give you a sense of warmth and security.
Take as many pillows and blankets as you need.
When you feel safe,
You can also cover your eyes with a scarf or an eye pillow.
Or just simply close the eyes.
If you haven't found your ideal position yet,
Please pause the recording.
And take all the time and props you need to make yourself as comfortable as can be.
And when you feel you are comfortable,
We are going to take some time to let ourselves arrive in this time and place.
And let me start by saying that I think it is courageous that you are here.
In this process,
It can all feel overwhelming,
Unbearable,
Or even lonely.
At times,
You may also experience a feeling of disconnection with your body.
So in this meditation,
We try to rebuild this connection and at the same time being with difficult sensations or emotions.
If it's hard to feel or imagine something that I say,
Don't push yourself or feel disappointed.
Just take this time to be here,
Resting and breathing.
Just because it doesn't work this time,
Doesn't mean it won't work the next time you listen to this meditation.
Now,
Let's start by connecting with our breath.
Breathe in and out through the nose.
Rest here.
The eyes,
Lips,
And jaws soft.
The shoulders,
The ears,
And the mouth.
Belly and legs relaxed.
Then take some time to breathe through the mouth.
Open your mouth slightly and create a small opening with your lips,
As if you are breathing through a straw.
Take a deep breath in and out through this opening.
Slowly in and slowly out.
Breathing in and out through the mouth.
Then let go and breathe through the nose again.
Slowly in and slowly out.
You are safe here.
Feel yourself ground more and more with each exhale.
Slowly in,
Slowly out.
Then move your attention to the surface on which your body is resting.
Place the palm of your hands towards or on the surface on which the body is resting.
Imagine taking nourishing energy from the earth into your hands.
Shoulders relaxed and belly soft.
Then move your hands towards the belly.
It can be nice to place your hands on the lower belly and imagine that the nourishing energy from the earth finds its way from your hands to your belly.
Again,
If this creates feelings of anxiety or if this is difficult for whatever reason,
Feel free to place your hands where you feel you need this nurturing energy the most.
Maybe on your chest,
Connecting with your heart.
Or just place them towards your body without touching.
And continue with your relaxed breath here.
Slowly in,
Slowly out.
Imagine a bulb of green light shining from your hands to the lower belly and spreading all throughout the pelvis,
The lower belly and sexual organs,
The lower back.
And let yourself sink even deeper with each exhale.
Now imagine this glow of green light moving from the pelvis towards your heart,
Spreading its healing energy all throughout the chest,
The front of the shoulders,
Through the arms,
The wrists and hands,
Finding its way to the fingers.
See this healing green energy light up in the top of your fingers,
The thumb,
Index finger,
Middle finger,
Ring finger and pinky finger.
And then let this light travel upwards again,
From the fingers through the arms to the top of the shoulders,
Then moving to the throat,
The jaws and cheeks,
To the forehead and let it rest for some time in between the eyebrows.
While you rest and breathe here,
Connect again with the green light in between the eyebrows.
And take it upwards to the forehead,
Over to the back of the head,
The neck,
The upper back and shoulder blades.
The middle of the back,
The lower back,
The back of the upper leg,
Lower leg,
The soles of the feet,
Connecting there with each toe.
Imagine this green light lighting up in the big toe,
The second toe,
Third toe,
Fourth toe,
And the pinky toe.
Then let the light travel to the top of the feet,
The ankles and shins,
The upper legs,
Coming back to the pelvis.
Stay here for a while.
Rest and breathe,
Connecting with the green light.
You can keep the hands on the belly or move them to the side of the body.
Connect with your breath again.
Feel the breath rising on the inhale and lowering down on the exhale.
Taking compassion in as you breathe in and breathe out,
Letting go of pain.
Inhale,
Take love in and exhale,
Let go of fear.
Give space for anything that arises.
You're safe.
I am here with you.
Inhale slowly,
Exhale slowly.
Now let's connect with an intention that you can take with you for the rest of your day.
You are loved.
You are brave.
You are whole.
If you want,
You can mentally repeat this intention by replacing the you with I.
So,
I am loved.
I am brave.
I am whole.
If this intention resonates with you,
Then take your time and repeat this intention mentally three times.
And otherwise,
Take this time to relax and breathe.
I am brave.
I am whole.
Now,
You can choose to stay here for a while and rest,
Or you can slowly begin to wake up the body by moving your fingers and toes,
Your wrists and ankles.
Take all the time that you need.
Move and breathe slowly.
Thank you for joining me here on Insight Timer.
I hope this meditation provided you with a feeling of support,
And I wish you all the strength that you need on this journey.
Just know that you are not alone.
If you have any questions,
Or if you would like to share something,
Don't hesitate to contact me.
I wish you well.
