Hello,
Everybody.
Today's Professor Ramblings come from just speaking to these people in sessions around the world this morning and now speaking with this French woman in Portugal and this young Russian blonde surfer in Mexico.
And it also related to a conversation I had with my niece the night before,
A 14-year-old girl.
But it's this idea of this attack-defend state that we're all sort of stuck in in the West,
This attack-defend.
It's a program running in ego and it's something that we're all adhering to at all times,
Attack-defend,
Attack-defend.
And I notice it the most when I hear a woman say,
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry I'm late.
I was a French girl.
I'm sorry.
I've never been this late before.
She was only like four minutes late.
And I keep telling her all the time,
Stop apologizing.
You don't need to.
And she said,
Why?
And I say,
Because you feel.
What do you mean?
I go,
Let's use this as a moment to step outside of the ancestral programming.
And this cycle has been in the patriarchy in the Piscean era.
So we're in this masculine programming.
And the masculine went into the outward,
The doer mind.
And so what happens when a man makes a mistake?
Well,
We're going to do it the most comfortable way that we know,
Which is to not say anything vulnerable or anything truthful and just say,
I'm sorry.
And then demand that you accept it.
I already apologized.
What's your deal?
I said,
I'm sorry.
And I go,
Let me take you out of the masculine programming for a second.
Now,
If you look at your wife and instead of saying,
I'm sorry,
And you looked at her and you said,
Hey,
Last Thursday,
I chose me over you.
I chose what I wanted over what we were going to do.
And that hurt your feelings.
And I felt that.
And then I was ashamed and I didn't know what to do.
So now I just,
I feel bad.
I feel it.
I feel it.
And you go,
Oh my God,
We don't speak that way because we've turned off our sensory systems,
Because to go seek out this greed and this power is so detrimental to our most sensitive selves,
Our heart mind,
That we closed it down.
Gotta be tougher.
And what's the famous line that comes out of this world?
It's not personal,
It's business.
Which means I'm devoid of caring.
I'm going to disconnect from the fact that we're all connected.
I'm going to detach from feeling and accountability and I'm going to numb myself so I can do horrible things to people in the name of money.
And then if I get caught because I know it's terrible,
I'm going to say,
I'm sorry.
Well,
Nobody cares if you're sorry.
Those words don't really mean anything.
They're rational explanations for our emotional beings.
So to switch out of that programming would simply be to say,
Access your empathy systems,
Access your sensory systems by healing some old wounds and some blocks.
And next time your husband or wife or anybody you love or care about,
Which should be everybody,
Says that you did something wrong or you hurt their feelings,
The only thing you'd need to say is,
I feel it.
Why would I need to apologize to you if I can feel it?
Because your mind wants to hear the words because we're in this locked state of patriarchal mental warfare.
So today is about trying to let go of saying,
I'm sorry,
And learning to just say,
I feel it.
Figure out the truth underneath that sorry and try to express that.
Because when you are vulnerable and when you are honest,
Now we have something to learn and the other person has been seen because you can feel it.
And we look at this because people can say,
I'm sorry,
Over and over and over again while repeating the same exact mistakes because they aren't learning anything because they can't feel it.
When they feel it,
It stays with them.
And if we've spent 3,
000 years as men cutting off our feelings,
Well,
We need them back.
So before we get caught in this patriarchal mindset of programming ourselves into submission,
Let's take a look at how deep these run inside of us that we believe them to be the right way to live and the kind way to live.
Saying I'm sorry for a woman then becomes a burka.
She has self-identified with a man's rule because he's hiding from something he's ashamed of,
A lack of vulnerability and truth and accountability.
And this isn't against men.
This is masculine energy and feminine energy,
These dual energies in which we experience the world.
Most of us have always been both in some way.
Our energies are always both.
And we can come down on either side to have that experience.
So this isn't an attack in one direction or the other.
It's to say when we got too attached to the outward,
To this belief in money and greed and separation,
We constructed a world that is no longer honest.
We don't tell each other how we feel.
And not to say I feel bad,
Not just there,
But to say no,
I chose me over you and that was selfish to you and that was hurtful,
That caused a pain inside of you to have somebody you love treat you this way.
I see that.
I feel it.
And I'm aware.
I'm growing.
I'm trying.
So instead of saying I'm sorry,
We're just going to say I feel it and then do our best to say our truth from there.
Just what's really going on?
And when I asked that French girl this morning,
What if you could say something other than I'm sorry?
What if you just told me your truth?
She said I was embarrassed for showing up late and I didn't want you to think that I don't value your time because I really do and I didn't want you to like me any less.
I said great.
Ready to move on?
Feel it.
Feel it.
And that was it.
So let us look at these programs that we've embedded into us like these burkas and taken responsibility and identity to these masculine systems of the mind as we walk this path of head to heart,
Trying to walk through this valley of shadow and confrontation into a state of self-awareness.
That first stage will and always will be unfolding the ego and all of its great mysteries.
That is the key to your awakening and the keeper of all of your blocks and wounds.
So ego is everything.
Have a beautiful day.
Sending love from currently the mountains of the Pacific Northwest in America.
Where will I go next?
Much love,
Everyone.
