Wherever you may be,
Whatever you may be doing,
Hello and welcome to Stories from the Soul.
Today I want to talk about this week and this week has been an interesting week for me.
It started,
What are we in now,
In October 2025,
It started off of this previous week,
It started off,
I guess the best way for me to describe it is as shaky.
What do I mean when I say shaky?
I've long described,
I guess what in essence is feeling grounded as being stable and solid.
It's a feeling that I haven't felt in a while,
It's kind of 2021,
Pre this chapter,
Well previous chapter stuff and it's not to say that I'm judging it or shaming it or not accepting it.
The thing that I'm most proud of about this last week is that I didn't get caught up in,
I was confident and clear in the fact that I knew what would come on the other side of this,
You know back to the classic,
In order to get to the other side of discomfort you have to go through it.
And it's true,
It's so very true,
You know there were,
It was just a feeling I haven't felt in a while and the contrast between now and previously was I would have gone down of shame,
Regret,
Rejection,
Just general overwhelm and now,
And I don't know the reason,
Probably a combination of the work,
The tools,
The structure,
The understanding.
My gut tells me fundamentally the relationship that I have with self,
With the various parts in me,
That there is a trust that exists fundamentally within me that it'll be okay,
I've got this,
I can manage this.
And again I guess it's circling back to trust the process isn't it.
So what came up,
Well you know I've been doing this,
These IFS therapy sessions,
I don't mean consciously knowing it,
Being quite,
You know one in particular in and around the father wound,
Like the scab has definitely been picked off and the wound has been revealed.
And that's for another session,
Another day.
But the takeaway that I want to have and give for this today is around just sitting in the moment and trusting the process,
Trusting self and relying on those tools.
You know for the last few months there's been a realization that for whatever reason,
We hang over this regardless of how little alcohol.
And the thing that I came to realize about 18 months ago was the correlation between those feelings of insecurity and alcohol.
You know those patches when,
And like I said,
Like you know this is a couple of glasses of X.
The way I felt when I didn't have any alcohol versus the way I felt when I did have alcohol are two completely different places and spaces.
And I've learned to really listen and pay attention to how I feel about things and how my body feels about things.
I don't like it,
I'm less productive,
Less focused,
More tired.
And especially with the amount of travel that I do,
Especially with the,
In my opinion,
Short periods of time that I have to spend with family and with friends.
I don't want to spend that suffering from a hangover.
And so it was a decision that I made.
I get closer and closer to just stopping completely.
You know I'll go weeks at a time.
Um and so coming out of last weekend,
I was like okay fine,
First thing we need to do,
You know,
Let's go back to home base.
Our home base,
To my home base.
No alcohol,
Get into the routine,
Get sleep.
I find myself on Saturday and Sunday going on a walk and smiling and reflecting on how the week has gone and transpired.
So in closing my point for this discussion,
Circling back to the start,
It's all about that routine.
That routine for me always allows me to come back home,
To restart,
To refresh.
Because within that routine is familiarity and within that routine,
Connection with self.
And that's essentially what my routine is about,
It's connection with self.
So without further ado,
Thank you very much and I'll get you next time.
